Monday, December 29, 2008

lyn n eddie's wedding

These are the names printed on the cards given to us. i was like, owhh.... never thought they have those type of nick name before. To those who still at blur, its Shalin Zulkifli and Azidi Ameran's wedding reception. Better known to us the new bowling generation as akak alin n abg zd. Was held at the TM tower beside my varsity in Bangsar.

As i finish my work at 7 in uptown, straight away shower , dress up and blast off to the place. Fetch rawker on the way. it started at 8. manage to arrived on time. Around 700 people was invited. they even have to open half of the number of table outside. especially for the bowlers. its all good coz the dinner is buffet style and all the stall is outside. im missing my crew tho. bosh and comic ain't around. if not it sure be fun. but nevertheless, had a great time hagging with rawker. and those wicked story we talk bout. forces of evil...bhahhahahaaa......

most of my diamonds in the ruff are working that particular night. either usherer, guest relation, and etc. so we didn't really gat the chance to hang out with them. just a bit here and there. and some pic sessions when its all over. everybody who is anybody in the bowling circle came and celebrate the occasion. so many familiar faces. they grew up well to a better life. it seems like yesterday that they are still bowling in junior circuit.

but still there is some had to miss out this event for either work related or off to holiday reason. understood. after all that we went to pick up the tshirts and trophies for super classic to send to summit. Abg din was all stress out. i could understand. sorry i cant be at help so much. but i tried my best to do it anyway. to the crew i mish yah all mann...biler nak menggiler lagik woiii....! to the kriptonite, haven't seen you for so long. heres are some pictures i manage to get from my camera. hope yall enjoy it

one of the 3 set of dressthey had to wear. looking nice yall.

me and my partner in crime. she be off to germany for a month. gonaa miss you miow2..!

the pwincess and the rawker...!

datz DINA - dangerous in normal attitude..
me joining the dark side.
n udin. why you texting mann..? hahhah

Sunday, December 28, 2008

nicey not

Have you ever herad the term good guys finish last..? Nice peple don’t always get recognized but badd people always do, regardless of what they do. If they act the way they are (bad), people will say. And once in the blue moon that they are nice, people would notice that they are nice after all. They even being celabrated as heroes now and then. But if being nice is your nature, people will take you fogranted while others will take you for a ride. Once in a while when they compress so much pain and suppression, they explode. And people will say they aint that nice after all. So you tell me. It is worth being nice..? not saying im nice or badd. Who am I to judge myself.

It brings you down to find that you,
Have lost yourself in a world that’s gone wrong.
If only I could find the answer,
Than life will be a brand new day..

Chorus by Cydal Bank’s - Tragic Exhale.

So what if im label as a naughty , badd or nice person. Aint none of that matter. Cause we live in a mess up world after all. So be it.! Im just keeping it real.


Recently me n all the other FI in my club went to a photoshoot. Its for this potrait of us individually to be hang at the wall of our workplace. It took us a while to get there as it was in Kepong. I did ask ti2 for the direction of the place. But it didn’t help much as we miss the junction. There was several route to get there. But we ended up getting ourself lost. Hahhahaaa…that was fun. And they commented my driving… awsome yaalll… ill be glad to drive yall to the next outing (if yall dare). We had fun getting there.

The photo studio looks creapy enuf. But it’s a place of art. Felt belong for once. Not cuz im about to be taken photos, but the art work they display on the wall of their palce is so frikingly awsome mann.. its like me in an art museum / showcase or something. Took turn taking our potraaits. Same pose and around 8 - 10 takes. Out of those we could only pick 3 of the best.. owh snapp…! Dah larr kene pakse senyum (something I rarely do when taking pictures). It turn out well. But we don’t have the legal right to take it with us. Owh well. Just got to wait till its readdy rite.. whenever will that be. Got back to the club just in time before it started to rain. We should do this often.

Monday, December 22, 2008

My I (Original Rhyme)

Felt so vauge, but yet so near,
The vision of you, always seem so blur,
Further you go, my heart will always fear,
Restless over again, try to hide away this tear…

So I just kept quite, so nobody know,
One step at a time, try to walk so slow,
Maybe ill look at you, and just say hello,
Just waiting my time, and act like a scarecrow..

Try to change my ways, this mess has already smear,
Think you should stop now, been said by all of my peer,
But still I wait, untill its all clear,
The sound of your voice, I just got to hear…

No matter how hard, the wind shall blow,
Or the blistering sand, down at my toe,
Came along way, cant just simply say no,
So I still keep waiting, for you to show…

21 december 2008

bring it back...!

Yesterday was the 1st day of shalin cup 2008. Owh boy I wasn’t suppose to be around. But I thought that I rather to spend my off day with the crew n such. I mish them a lot.. Rays was wearing the bday tshirt I gave him. Glad he liked it. Liya came around. Mish her a lot tho. Gave her this FF baby t. shez d only one that fits that particular size. Seen a lot of my diamond in the ruff. Rinee n fefe, PJunction crew n others. That should bring back some memories..

After a movie, Rawker brought us (me n azry) over to Rasta at ttdi..ya mann…dat wuz nice…havent been hanging wit them for quite a long time. Heard dat bosh gat a new hair do. Cant wait to see that.. PARAMORE…..!

Later today I caught up wit the comic. He just came back from penang. Great to have you around again mann..all star is a bust. But it just started. I havent been in the circle for along time. Those were the days.. How I wish I could turn back time.

I got tons of stuff to write n rhyme. But its like I never gat enough time these days.. ALASANN…! Gotta try to say yes once in a while…hahhahaaa….

At Hold (Original Rhyme)

Everything is at wait,
Even when I told you a story itll be so late
Came in with your story and start up a camotion,
All the sudden it became your conversation..

When should I start, telling you my story?
It has always been yours,to make me felt sorry,
An epic adventure, mix with a drama of worries,
Never ending battle, that would never get burry..

Caught up with life, whe will it end,
The pain so sharp, like carving my hand,
Been dragging so long, cant remember when,
So I barricade my heart, and surround it with a fence..

Im tired of waiting, for people to play games,
To be accuse of something, so I could be blame,
Keeping it down low, ill forfeit my fame,
Avoiding the spotlight, before my life itll claim

22 december 2008

Sunday, December 14, 2008

open day..!

17, 18 n 19 of december there will be a open day at my club.
entrance is free...
care to drop by and say hey...!
c yah then..!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

You need help..?

I happen to meet up with a girl recently. Shes was on a four legged crutches coming into a lift which I was in. Felt sad for her as she had 2 limping legs. She also had SHC with her. Such a young girl to face such difficulty in her life.. She wanted to go to the 2nd floor. So I press the button and hold the door for her. She was struggeling but had a big smile on her face. I could only smile to her back. She didn’t ask for help and pityness but she did it all by her self getting in and out the lift. In my heart I pray her to get better and thank God for making me as healty as I am.

That made me realized. God test humans in all kind of different ways. Some in health, fincial, emotional, and etc. Its all up to us to realized it or not. And how to bounce back from bitting the dust. I bealived everybody has it low point. No matter how happy they look outside. I got a friend who smile and make joke on everything in life incuding insult towards him. People tend to keep on doing it toward him but fail to realized that it hurt him the most. That is something we got to live and learn. Nothing wrong with that. So be thankful with what you have and not what you don’t. cuz you don’t kow what you got till its GONE.

working marathon..

Last nyte I was going all out. Am sorry for any delay in replying text, rejected call and being busy to the max. Was working my shift from 6.30-3.30 as usual.. drowsy then, drowsy now. Had a client at 7am n 6.30pm.. and coaching till 12. imagine dat.. 14 hours of working time. Mannn…must be loco. Did that cause im off today.. tons of things need to be done today.. snappp…I haven’t start a thing yet… owh nooooo…….but not to worry, I had plenty of food yesterday. Just kinda push myself abit to the limit. talking bout muscular endurance...pewwhh

Owh well. It just all gotto wait. Reminds me of the track by trey song - I cant help but wait.. got some good news and badd news… good news is my muscle has increase to 0.5 of a kilo while my fat decreased by 0.2 of a kilo….yeeehaaaa…..! hope to keep it on with this rate. Building muscle is really a long procedures. In fact losing fat is easier actually. This is reffering to the safe way of doing things. Badd news I just realized I was having a low blood preassure. Thatz explain everything. It wasn’t that low. Just 114/70. Compare to the normal reading is 120/80. But its all good. Just need to do a tad bit MORE of cardio I suppose.

Been pretty quite at the club lately. But manage to make some new friends. Old, young, student, working and different races. Im beginning to like this place a lot. Hopefully it stays that way.

Monday, December 8, 2008

You smell nice…

Hahahaaa….. weird title rite.? In this post im gonna tell yah bout the senses of smelling. I got friend who is really into it. This person once told me that everyone has their own scent. And its easy to differentiate them together with their liquid soap and body fragrances. It a habit for this person to smell people after they take a bath or freshen up. People and their habits. Weird but yet cool. I don’t know bout you but my smelling sense is not that strong. Back then thy call me sniffy (cause selalu running nose/ nose running away from me).

But now im kinda addicted to certain scents. Which is :

1. French vanilla (either in a form of candle, air freshener n etc)
2. Fruit tea in fitness first worldwide
3. Freshly baked cookies
4. Laundry wash with Daia detergent (it smell nice ok)
5. Mozzarella cheese stick (melted)

Never really appreciate the scent of smell before. Now jaa pun dah terikut-ikut my friend dah…owwwkayyyyy (low pitch)..

Hiphop you don’t stop

I know I haven’t been blogging lately. My badd. The pc at home crash down. Cause of that I have to format it all over again. Thankz to kelz for the help. But ive lost all of my picz..owh snapp….! Theres a lot of picture I collect thru out the years ok…owh well, just got to start from scratch.. yikes..!

Just now I went for a hiphop class with iqbal. It was my break time. So I reckoned why not giving it a try. Usually WEN comes by once a week only. Steps after steps… more than 50 moves in 1 hour class. I wasn’t that tired. Just that was a bit slow on the reflexes. This is my first time owtay.. but it was fun. Realized I need to learn the step double time. Mess up a lot. But finished with a bang.. should see how stiff I was in there. We were jamming to the trackz of "way I are" , "whine up" and "sexy back"… Right after the class I quickly change clothes and back to work. Yeah im working today since 9am. But its cool. Need to get use to be long hours in the club (my current office is a health club).

After all dat I went back and realized that the class really wore me out.. hahahahhaaaa….. I felt hungry and exhausted yall…if you happen to get a chance to join such class, just go. And have a blast… I know I did…living my life to the fullest.. till next time..

Sleeping awake (Original Rhyme)

Overstayed right here, away from my time,
Need a change in life, could you spare a dime?
Trying to escape, cause all I taste is lime,
At least it gives space, for me to rhyme…

Turning point of my life, way back when,
Vertically crash down, I thought it’s the end,
Vision turn blurry, gushed of blood at my hand,
Should been dead by now, but GOD have better plans…

Those unconscious nights, a long dreadful sleep,
My family and friends, all started to weep,
Don’t want to stay long, it gives me the creep,
Not ready to go, down 7 feet deep…

Ringing tone I heard, is that my cue?
Back into my body, my sleep is due,
Second chance in life, be given to a few,
Grateful for the help, always felt brand new…


I never done this before, but this rhyme is kinda vague (as if all the rest isn’t). So some explanation is needed. Here goes. When I was small (standard 4) I had an accident at home. Where I fell down vertically from level one upstairs straight down to ground floor at the first fleet of steps. Apparently my shoulder broke my fall. But part of my head still in contact with the stairs. I had blood gushing through my hair hands and face. My bro was worried and kept calling my name so I don’t fell “asleep”. Cant remember much but all I know I was rush to the government hospital by my neighbor’s car. Tak tau betul ke tak. I was almost unconscious. Blood don’t go to my brain that much to remember that time. It just splash out my head ok…!

They cant help much so dad brought me to pantai medical hospital in bangsar. A specialist hospital. Was under Dr Mohandas (for my head) and another Dr for my shoulder. Talking bout specialist. As I arrived there I cant remember a thing as I was in ‘deep sleep’. I was in a coma. They found out theres a blood clot as big as a 20 cent coin in my brain. Woah…. Well that’s what I heard from sources.

After while I was waken by a ringing phone noise in my hospital room. Who might this be so early in the morning (3am). So I stood up and pick up the phone. Then I heard this pleasant worried voice saying hello. I was like mummy…! Fail to realized I just woke up from a 3 nights coma. And the first person I talk to is my mum who was in London that time. Isn’t that ironic. Suddenly my bro and dad woke up a celebrate my come back. They talk to mummy for a while. After removing the blood clot and stuff, I had minor headache for a few months. But I extended my headache voluntarily to get away from doing my studies. Jaahat…!

Well that’s a partial of my life story. Hope you enjoy reading it. I would like to thank Allah the Almighty for giving me another chance even though I haven’t change to be a better person completely. But the transformation is so much, I am trying to get close to GOD. Regardless of my surrounding. We could die anytime when its our turn. For me if its today, I’m ready. As I already be given 2nd chance to prove myself. I’m not saying I’m fully equipped with good deeds, but it not for me to judge. Only god can judge me. Selamat hari raya qurban people… hope you ‘ll have a great time. Stay away from high unstable ground and low flooded lands. Somewhere in the mid would be nice (not referring to mid valley).

Monday, December 1, 2008

0.2 only??

First it was 5sec. now this.? I don’t know why with all these numbers lately. But it hit me all the time.. hrmmmm… hey yall… just finish my first month at my brand new work. new environment for me actually. Rather I try to fit in, I rather be myself. No point fitting in and playing along. Abide the rule and yet stay true to yourself. I must say it’s a change of scenery, crowd, mentality and hours. Its totally vigorous I tell yah. Yeah we do have break n stuff. But then we sometimes will be in the gym like the whole daylong. Including session with clients. Yeay I got my first client on my first month. Phew… month I’m going all out….hope its all good. On the way to grab the rookie of the month title…gagagagaaaa…

Early this month , I did my body composition on tanita.. no she is not human. Its a machine call the tanita. I got my first reading. 2days ago I did it again. Apparently I increase 0.2 kg of fat, 0.2 kg or muscle and 0.7kg of water. Grrrr…… yeah people, im trying to gain weight. Muscle bulk at least. But fat comes along the way….waaaa……but im staying all natural. No creatine, no protein shake and such. Don’t want to ruin any of my internal organs..

Our club is kinda small actually. But then, its so kewl.. the bwest place for me is the cycling studio. Fuhyoooo…..! I hate to cycle and some of the cyclist.(bahahhaa…don’t ask why).. but then the cycling studio has glow in the dark light…kewl since our uniform is white, its kinda reflecting towards the light. Totally amazed by it… sedyeh kan…? Bahhahahhaa.. bia larr lantak..

Im flat out from all of this ish..but manage to enjoy it along the way. With all the SHC, the weight, the free flow of fruit tea (I’m addicted to it). So far its been fun. But im staying in touch with love of my life. I mish bowling. But they treated me badly.. afternoon shift next week. Im gonna mish the morning crowd though. But further more I mish the crew, and all of my adek2…

“its hard to tell, if you ever come again…..
its hard cuz you dont come around anymore.
hope that you found what ever is you looking for”

-these streets-

I surely hope so…

Thursday, November 27, 2008

way back track...!

Savage Garden
to the moon and back

Shes taking her time
making up The reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows
from the smile
And the look in their eyes
Everyones got a theory about the
Bitter one

Theyre saying mamma never loved Her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
Thats why she shies away from
Human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now shes waiting for the right
Kind of pilot to come
And shell say to him
Shes saying

I would fly to the moon and back if Youll be
If youll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we Belong
So would you be my baby

She cant remember a time when she Felt needed
If love was red then she was colour Blind
All her friends theyve been tried for Treason
And crimes that were never defined
Shes saying love is like a barren Place
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just dont have aMap for
So babys gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that shes hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying


Hold on hold on
Mamma never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
Thats why she shies away from
Human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now shes waiting for the right
Kind of pilot to come
And shell say to him
Just saying

Chorus twice

ps: another sad song adored by jaa

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

5 sec..?

Well basically every one got a weakness right..? So do I.. Lately I meet up with a number of them all at once…arghhh snapp….! It’s SHC. (Don’t ask what it is). But if you really understand me you would know what izzit all about. Several time today I found this particular thing. And it made me stop n stare for at least 5 sec. at that time ill get distracted. So no point of talking to me at that particular time. Things people do rite..? I was like “hrmm… thatz a sight for sore eyes… can I get one at least…?” Wishing lagik.. hahhahaaa… DREAMER…! wish I could tell what it’s about.

My adek pointed it out to me that I am not fat anymore. Hrmmm… to think bout it yeah I’m not. Just a little too thin. But as long as I’m happy bout it rite..? It’s all good. Try to better myself one step at a time. Meanwhile ill just be loving myself each day. Hueee…. Wish me luck….!

This week im working early shift. When I said early I meant really early. Its like I got to wake up at 4.30 to get ready and start working at kidding. But its ite.. seriously.. just you got to train to get use to it. Gotta sleep early people.. drop me a line owkay…? C yah around…!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Take my smile away (Original Rhyme)

The change of wind through November rain,
Wishing these sorrow clouds could take away the pain,
Vision became blurry and yet so taint,
Trying to get through while maintaining my sane…

Changes in life happen all of the sudden,
We get so scared and our heart get harden,
Wishing rainbows and butterflies in a beautiful garden,
Stress is draining me out, please beg my pardon…

Just being yourself could really hurt others,
But then sometimes we change underneath the covers,
People try to understand, by flipping the pages,
Hope we stay the same avoiding damages…

23 November 2008

This is

My Top 5 Most Favorite Foods;
- Roti jala….! Don’t care where and who made it. I just love them all
- Fish and Chip from those vendor van in Oban, Scotland
- Protein Shake.. I so need those right now…!
- Vanilla. Well basically anything with this particular flavor.
- Double Mushroom Swiss from Burger King

10 Things I Love Doing;
- Writing rhyme
- Listening to untap music. Off from the mainstream
- Watching Movies
- Indie show and album launch.
- Travelling (nak balik kampong…!)
- Participating in Artsy stuff (graffiti, drawing, writing n etc)
- Looking good.. image is really important to me
- Studying. Its my strength and weakness.
- communicating with all of my adek. Yeay….!

5 Things I Love Doing When I’m EMO;
- Runnig..! God gave me long legs for a reason.
- Still writing rhyme. My genre in creative writing is about sad things. Sorry people.
- Listening to sad song.. long live YUNA..hahahha
- Walking in the rain. Should try it once in a while…
- Sleep…!

5 Things I Love Doing When I’m Happy;
- Sing… though my voice is only suitable for certain songs only.
- Eat…! I love to eat…!
- Helping people through their problems. Well it makes me happy at least
- Participating (artsy, fitness, sports.. hate being a spectator)
- Outing with the kruk kruk crew / lyrical killerz...

5 Things I Wish To Happen;
- Marry that beautiful friend of mine. Guess all you want..!
- To have my rhyme into a song. That would be lovely.
- Wish I could bowl competitively again
- hope that my grandmum won’t have to go so soon. She’s the reason I go back to my kampung
- That things would never change

My Top 5 Most Addicted songs;
- Kanye West - Love Lock Down
- Phlowtron – Her Whisper
- Jack Johnson – Sitting Waiting Wishing
- Yuna - Greek Goddess
- Michell Branch – All You Wanted

5 people I Wish to tag;
no one. Most of yall did this already.

Visiting Hours

After my ten o’clock appointment in ASB Kajang, me n my mum went up to Sungai Buloh. We went to pay a visit to my Tok Jang which is gonna have surgery at the Government Hospital there. I didn’t really understand why it need to be done n which part was it. So I went along. I never was a fan of hospital really. It’s either too sad or too painful. Though I did have my share of hospitalization way back when. Good old days where you get nice food and tons of toys (when I was small ok). Enough bout me.

By the time we reach there, we were kinda shocked. The place was huge and clean. Never thought such facilities at that particular area. No offence. Well basically it was new. There I manage to write my long awaited rhyme. Its just something I felt recently. For you to judge ok..?

Tok Jang was transfer to the ICU. He just got his leg amputated. Its from his patella downwards. He was battling diabetes for a very long time. Hrmmm.. I felt so sad DEEP DOWN. Further more when the family member went to the forensic to take back the rotten left leg (it became dead cell) to bury it. I never thought of that. But basically that is the procedures following Islamic law I suppose.. hrmmm… The family was nice and took it very strongly. Redha of what god have given them. I don’t know how I should feel. Weather I’m ashamed for not being sad if front of the family or cuz I didnt show much emotion. Inside I was crying seeing him lying on the bed. His Systolic level was 141 and Diastolic was 43. I’m not as strong as them. May be they just being strong for each other. I hope I don’t have to go through that fate. Though I do have family history of it and some other things. Gotta be strong facing all situations. Universal Soldiers. But if I ever have to deal such thing, ill just hope i survive such situation and glad to be alive. Insyallah…

Hello…! Who is this…?

Last Saturday I manage to catch up with one of the crew. It’s the comic. Currently he is working at this brand new place (cant tell where). Actually he was feeling under the weather. So I ought to pay him a visit at his workstation. It’s been a while since I last been to that area. As usual parking was dead expensive. Shoot..! But being a weekend, the place was totally packed. People are traveling back home I suppose. He is in the telecommunication scene. So anything bout cell phone, lines n etc just give him a call. His work station smells nice as its beside this waffle thingy. By the time I reach there I felt hungry. Arghhhh…. Easy for him to do work with that blocked nose of his. I went around the area from one end to the other. Just to kill the time. Nice area and good for business. I ought of changing phone myself. How bout the LG slide sideways huh.,..? hahhaaa…. (sorry aina and udin) it was great spending some times with him. Talk for a while. Catching up with changes in working environment. It’s all good. Had apple pie before I left. After meeting his brother (cousin which is the owner) start to head home. I wish you all the best man. Hope your successful in what you are doing. Peace out…!

Owh I almost forgot.

Hye, this is Jaa. May I help you..?
(Refer to the title)

Kill the mainstream….!

Back then on my radio, I only have 2 favorite preset. But now I felt that they kept on playing the same old same old over n over again. I don’t know bout you, but I need a change. So I found out several new frequencies on the radio airwaves. Among them are my old time fav Red 104.9, Traxx fm and also Capital fm. I felt totally rejuvenated. Well basically, I luv something which is not over played on air. Imagine yesterday I heard the theme song of gaban was played on capital. I was like kewl…! Bahhahahhaaaa…..

Call me old skool, but songs from the Verve Pipe, Gin Blossoms, Spin Doctors, Radiohead, Soul Asylum, Crash Test Dummies, Better Than Ezra, Third Eye Blind n stuff. I wish they played more 90’s alternative band. It’s ok to keep up to date with new bands and all. But music is an evolution through out the years. Now days its like its either too new tracks or too old like 60’s. Well that’s only rawking tunes.

Now tru R&B n Hiphop is another chapter. Name such as Sade, Angie Martinez, Talib Kweli, Styles, John Legend, Rasheeda, Lumidee, Petey Pablo, Gemma Fox, TQ, S-Word (Japanese), Nappy Roots, Kelis, Ginuwine , Fefe Dobson, The Roots, David Broom n such are great musician but not been recognized by people…. Bring back the days where rhyming is more bout trying to get tru life and not bout babes n blings.

And what about our very own indie and homegrown artist.. people like Yuna, Ana Raffali, Sundae, Bo, Brain head, Robot Asmara, Poetic Amno, Too Phat, PHLOWTRON, Teh Tarik Crew, Oh Chenta Ku, Paolo Delfino, Mia Palencia, Zee Avi (aka koko kaina), Estrella, Bunk Face and so much more. They had a good run all this years and I pray that they have a very good future in front of them.

Im goin far away from the main stream. But ill still keep in touch. Just that for now, its Long Live Indie and Non Mainstream..!.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

And the winner is…

Last nite I went to th Oskar.. Its like the OSCAR but the Malaysian version. It was called Anugerah Oskar Malaysia ke 7. The motto was the 1 behind the stars. Was held at Nikko Hotel near by KLCC. Normal award show would celebrate actors/actress and movies. But just like the Oscar, this award show covers it all. From telemovies (drama/soap), films, MCP multi camera production (award show/AF/Concert) and other categories which is equally as important. There were 57 awards been given out all together. Mannn it’s a drag yall but its aight.. Mummy said that wasn’t grand enough.. “it wasn’t..? not tru my eyes”.

Didn’t dress up that much, just a plain red turtle neck and a pair of tux for me.. Simple kan..? hahhahaaa… NOT.. Basically mummy was one of the jury of the award show. So I tag along. Was introduced to some of the artist, actors, producers and film makers. Among them was Rosyam Nor, Dato Yussof Haslam, panel jury and some other important people in the film industry. Hrmmm.. To tell you the truth, the place was happening. Most of the people come to see me and ask if I was an actor. I was like, ‘Nope, not yet tho..” hahhhaaa….. Mummy usually got tons of invite for this type of function and everything. But I was the one kinda reluctant to come along. Was kinda bz with bowling back then. An eye opener for me actually.

Started around 8pm and finish by 12.15am. The concourse area was filled with smoke.. Owh My GOD..! They smoke like chimney mann… the food was nice, performance by Royal D’ Amore (military band), boomerang (Indian based hiphop group) and several other artist.

Was a real hectic day as today also was my 1st day of work. Almost get my first client. But time will tell if I’m up to it challenge. Owh by the way, I aced on all my test which I took last Friday. Thanks to all those that did support me. Much luv..!

Rainey days…

Its been raining lately. Gloomy? No, just massive rain.. Usually in the afternoon sessions. Last Wednesday (if I’m not mistaken). As I was training at Menara Axis along the side of federal highway, there was a massive storm. Thank god I was indoors. But the storm and thunder was crazy mannn… we were at the gym that particular time. They had this huge glass window around them. The wind was so strong that the trees were blown 45 degrees from its original form. It lasted around 30 – 45 min or so. But towards the time to head home, the storm went down a notch..

Since the parking there is kinda pricey, I park my ride a few block away from the building. Its around 10 min walk. I don’t mind that (thank you to the friendly neighborhood that didn’t mind me parking in front of their house). It was kewl to the walking part.

But last Friday right after the examination, it was pouring…! Owh mann.. I had to be at Summit by 5.30. The later I went down, the later ill arrived. Hrmmmm…. I had no choice but to run my self al the way to my ride. Sounds fun…? Yeah it was.. I got this FI manual as big as a yellow pages, a huge traveling beg to put my kicks, extra tshirts and pants (required). To top it all off, the place I park was uphill. I simply wrap my head with a tshirt, put my manual in my beg n started running. As I reached the car I was soaking wet yall. My kicks was filled with water and my wind breaker was wet. Hrmmm… catching my breath for a while. And drove off. Tho its kinda dangerous to run in the rain but let it be ok. People working out heated out their body, rain is actually a medium to cool us off. Yeah it’s a resistance to run in the rain, but da heck….just kept on running man.

Rubber band man….!

Recently I was at this ATM at Balakong (near my house) .. So I see this two African in it.. One was o the phone laughing while the other was by his side…Nothing weird with this picture rite…? Not… these foreigners were holding a stack of RM50 notes.. It was ridiculous thick OK…! Imagine me holding 1 and ½ of phone books. That much…1 of them was putting a tough face and counting it one over the other…While the other was talking on the phone rite..? all the sudden this guy drop ½ of the money on the floor and still laughing his head off.. there was an Indonesian security guard said to me, “mak ai banyak nyer.. kalau kita tuh pasti risau, keluar rumah pegang duit banyak2..” I know what you mean man…I don’t want to knowhow they got it. Most people would say they are into money laundry. But I respect them with their work what eva it is. and yet we complain its hard to get work right around here. Get up ur butt and just go work mann…!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

lock down...!

as you know, my head is kinda numb rite naw. but still appreciating music to the fullest. one of my fav rapper kanye west latest song. is he brilliant or what... well at least i think he is. with all those Grammy, who dare to say otherwise.. lyric cutting me deep man...big up to the windy city native...!
Roc-a-Fella RULEZ...!

Kanye West
Love Lockdown

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you
I'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me, all the way home
So ya never know, never, never know
Never know enough, til it's over love
Til we lose control, system overload
Screamin no, no, no, no, no
I'm not lovin you, way I wanted to
See I wanna move, but can't escape from you
So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else don't have to know

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
I can't keep my cool, so I keep it true
I got somethin' to lose, so I gotta move
I can't keep myself, and still keep you too
So I keep in mind, when I'm on my own
Somewhere far from home, In the danger zone
How many times did it take fo' I finally got through
you lose, you lose
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
See I had to go, see I had to move
No more wastin' time, we can't wait for life
which is wastin' time, where's the finish line

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
I met no one new, I got no one new
No I said I'm through, but got love for you
But I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
Gotta keep it goin, keep the lovin gone
Keep it on a roll, only god knows
If I be with you, baby I'm confused
You choose, you choose
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
Way I got to go, I dont need you
I been on this road, too many times before
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
If you keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose

lactic acid

Haven’t been blogging lately.. Sorry bout that. All this training is drying me out. I do love it, but my body can’t cope up with my mind. As a result, I was down with a terrible headache and massive fever last Friday. But yet I still came for training. Unavoidable eve if your sick.. actually I got it from the person sitting next to me. He got it on Thursday, pass to me on Friday and then the instructor him self on Saturday.. hahhahaa…..weird but true.. not that we are not healthy, less body fat to regulate and react with the flu. After a class, medication n meeting, I drove home drowsy… Dangerous owkay.. ! Alhamdullilah I manage to get tru it and reach home safely.. but still was driving like I don’t know haw was I driving, I just realized I reach home. That’s all. 1 more week to go.!

My phone is on hold for a while rite now. Especially on training times. They ask us to switch off the phone completely. I save batt and also crdt.. hrmmm…. But I do miss all of yall.. nuff said..

Liya (bling) was suppose to come up from johor, but she didn’t make it. So I went to the last circuit of star search at one utama. Y..? ntah larr.. need to relax my mind skit kowt. Or I just miss them. What-ever for-ever…. Azry won the u15 category.. congratz.. but I was satisfied with him at all. Down here explain why..

That was b4 the finals (against Nicholas) . At the finals he miss a simple single spare at the last frame against Omar... I was like…mannn… “I don’t care if you won or not. Cuz u mish that pin, drop down n gimme 10.” He was reluctant. But I kept a straight face and he immediately did it.. Simply ridiculous ok… Zharif was out on the first match wit him. That match I just watch n help out both. Mcm training lak.. So that was it. Aint much..all of my time now days is either reading, sleeping or working out. Got xam by end of next week. Wish me luck.

Its gonna b a really bz month for myself(cant even find the time to bust a rhyme) , but still I’ll be reminisce. back in the days when we hang out till late nyte n morning, dares, games, dinner,… those were the days. I cant bring back all those wonderful outings…. But still ill keep it in my heart. So that im not forgotten. Take care people….!

Ps: there will be a roll off for Pahang Open n Penang Pesta for Selangorianz.. Just get ready.. will keep u updated.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


people...just to let you know, that im no longer skipping meals... with this foundation PT1, i need all the energy i need. tuh baru training jer.. belum kerje lagik... owh well...this is just day 3. i got the pleasure to do interval training (45min endurance running with high intensity) basically my class is from 9-5. i love running! even tho its i a long period of times. weird kan..? kaki panjang, lari jer lah..

then we went to GX (Group Exercise). it was body balance (combination of yoga, thai chi and pilates)..let me tell yah, after all those running u just wanna lay flat. but thank god its just streching..(i hope) but man its tough..eric (fellow coursemate: a body builder) was sweating a pool beside me. i was like 'ur ok mann..?' cian tgk... Cindy was our instructor. she was nice. good taste of music too. Alicia Keys, KT Tunstall and such.i gotta go off and study naw... sok ader quiz lak... i dont want to end up doing pushup... penat owhh... later people....!

Monday, November 3, 2008

say whatt....?!

Recently I saw several things that were really shocking to me.. I was like, whuttt…..?! How did dat happen…? May be its normal n I don’t go out much to know bout it. Owh well I suppose its individual goal…some prefer to be successful in studies, while others in their carrier. Some is going all out in relationship, while some just trying to get thru with life.. and a few would just bother bout somebody else life. Tho i envy one of the things i saw, i also felt like puking on the other thing. Well what ever the reason is. If they do it consciously or subconsciously, its up to the individual them self. Who are we to judge people…? Only God (ALLAH) can judge us.

So to all the haters…! Please keep your personal view to your self.. Doodle it in ur diary or something. You only get what you give..u give trouble, you gonna get hell…!

Just remember one thing,

“We have once chance just to do it right,
cause they aint no rewind button in life”
-teh tarik crew-

tunggu lagi....

mann...i don't know why, but I'm really digging this song..
it hitt me in the head n make me realized,
that he is not such a badd singer after all..
dont let me get started on the lyric...
yeah its sad....
but check it out, there's a lot of sad song now days..
sad, angry, disappointment, basically its just emotion.
how i love them. i dont show much, but love to be surrounded by them.
don't suppose that you'd be happy all the time...
if you do, i think your on "Prozac Nation"...
(now that's another good movie)

ps: please do understand, that this song is not directed to anyone..
if you still think it is, dont take it the wrong way. .
im just a fan of arts and music.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

Sunday, November 2, 2008

birthday tshirt...!

So as you know, my birthday was a couple of months ago. Was a quiet birthday compared to the previous years. 2006 was 2nd Selangor open, 2007 was a bummer. I suppose this year it’s much better. I didn’t have the chance to thank all those people who wished and also showered me with owh so many present. Among them were, Udin, Azry, Aina, Fatin Nasuha, Abang Din, Ili, Rinee, Isha (uitm), Ryan’s Family, Amir Din’s Family, Shasha’s Family, Zamera’s Family n others (if I mish out any names I am truly sorry).

Surprisingly I got several t-shirt this year. I don’t know why that is. But I’m glad to receive it….would like to thank them all for being thoughtfull.. Well here are design of the tshirt given to me..

This first piece is from ili…

Bhahahaaa… girl friend wanted..? errrr…. no comment on that.

was dared to wear it. i don't mind tho at first kinda segan larr...

2nd piece is from aina..
as my fav adek, she nailed it on this one..
yeah I was made in another world. Datz y senget jer kepaler when taking pic….wooohaaaa…!

this is also from her.if im not mistake she got this from my i wish i could go there someday...n yeah i do deny some of the friend request. well sometimes.

An abstract design on this 4th one, Thankz to udin.
He really capture the image that was in my head that time… pening owh…
may be pasal dier pusing banyak sangat on the dare kowt… gagagaa…..

last one is from my long time friend isha.
This piece is beautiful as the design was made by her own self. She’s an archi graduate (architect uitm).
If you really see closely, you will see the letter JAA at the bottom right of the t.
KENER TENGOK BETUL2. That’s really art.
I don’t know pic girl maner larr kat baju tuh.
But I do like to meet her..bahahhahahaaa….
.kalau ader such people.

Pelik of me kan to be sharing you pic of some t-shirts..? but its so nice…! plus its not just some mere t-shirt. these t-shirt was chosen because it represent me. So i wanna say thank you to all 4 people for putting some thot, time, effort n cash to get me these fabolous T. Kalau nak pakai bukan leh selalu. Takot rosak lak.. simpan elok2 jer larr…gi anta kedai n frame it up…bahhahahaa….Ill wear it once in a while. Am truly grateful to have such nice and thoughtful friends and adek. Yall have a special place in my heart. Thanks for everything.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

When you smile (Original Rhyme)

I’m waiting for the time, to see you smile,

You been through that journey, for thousand of mile,

Hope you cheer up, even for a short while,

You lighted up so bright, when someone starts to dial…

Perfectly decent smile, what’s the point of frown,

No matter how much you’re sad, problems still come around,

Things that made you happy, I hope you quickly found,

Life too short to be sad, it’ll ended up a mount…

Hope that you smile, with the changes that happen,

Suddenly but surely, start up a commotion,

I know that you are scared, but have a little patient,

Pray that you get through, this sticky situation..


Hope to see yall around.. Ill be kinda bz after this…Be going into something new.… but I will still mish every single one of you….my deepest apology for any wrong doing, harshness words use, heartbreak or what ever it is.. hope you will still remember me. Ill still be around. But with training at end, difference in individual goals, we grew apart.. this day will come no matter how much we try to avoid it. Just hope we are close as ever…take care people…. Just be yourself…!


happy rawker's day...!

Hye hye hyeee…..! Finally udin turn 17th…arrrgh dammed, he is still young.. but built like a bapak org…we celebrate his bday at babah’s n mama’s casa….yeah…udin brought guitar heroes. I guess not all of them are into gaming udin…but yet u really represent, and I salute that.…tapi tak ramai leh join… so tak beraper fun.. I kno he is so into it..after telinge mama di pekak kan, we played charades instead…

Vote lah pulak this time…nevermind…janji leh main charades mcm nak giler dah larr kan. nieh mcm nak galakkan kiter org suh go n vote in the next election jerk… practice2….

Team A

  • Babah, Siron, Yasser, Udin, Esha & Qina

Team B

  • Mama, Emi, Dina, Nizam, Amer, Jaa & Ash

Tengah-tengah main leh terstop jap..was wondering why…but wat tak taw jer larr…trying to play along tapi leh blur lak kan…hrmmm…..but what I noticed that I was awfully happy lately…I freakily don’t know why…

like moon famous words, ”serious…? Jangan larr serious sangat…..”

so there it was the birthday cake…kewl..i luv it..tho it wasn’t for me…the candle was so kewl someone did try n have a bite on it. Ingatkan its edible. That’s funny….if im nat mistake, its a chocolate cheese cake or something.

So after amazing race, we continued the game. Basically team B won. Woo haaa…! It was nice to win again. Tho I miss several sessions….UNDEH SPY….! what eva that means… thankz to all of yall for making me smiling again…still cant figure out why, but yeah….got to go naw….

To my rawking lil bro..

Happy birthday mann....! Hope all that you wish would come true in your life. i do sense a lil change bout you.. Stress out with your studies i suppose. But its ok... just keep on being you.. What ever it is, always follow ur gut feelings. Ill be around if you need me... congrats on the recent "call" and the beautiful lyric of "the one". Proud to be a part of ur fabulous life. Keep on rawking mannn….bang ur head till you break ur neck…!

Much luv


Ps (Original Rhyme)

How could I start, not knowing the damage?

Tears that you cried, beneath the surface,

I wish I knew, what I did wrong,

Maybe this is not, where I belong

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Ping Pong Partay....!

A lot of open house this past weekend. I even have to skip some of them. Sorry people….! Im kinda tied up. Hopefully I got in. ANYwho… I did manage to catch Amir Din’s open house just now. Near by je.. kat Sg Merab, around Bangi area. Since I don’t know the place so much, I asked my sandal (kecik aka nadya) to tag along with me. She is my sandal cuz where ever she wants to go, ill be the one bringin her there. Tuh sebab namer sandal. Hueee…… I mish her a lot…dah larr jarang datang training… grrrr…..her lil bro muzz also came along. I know where is sg merab till the junction jerk…susah gak nak cari kan. But yet we arrived nevertheless.

They had a really nice home I must say…we were kinda early. On time but people tak datang lagik. So we stall our self. Manage to catch angel singing a siti nurhaliza song I suppose. Tak tahu sangat. They had this ping pong table up front. Lamer tak main oh…gotta try this one. We had lunch with arya. Was fun hanging with her, nina and also angel. Merepek je kejer. Purely innocent. As we finish eating, izzy n family came by. Tak nak larr lepak lamer2 kat dining table. Giving other people chance to eat lak. So we went outside to play some ping pong instead. Back in the days, we use to have a ping pong table at home. Almost every day we be slamming our bats. Those was the days. As we were playing, zamaril n family arrived. azry hitch a ride with them from summit.. I told him I wasn’t coming…he was kind mad..cuz minggu nee je dah kene tipu dua kali…wooohaaaa….!

As they arrived, the party started. wE played ping pong, took some pic and also karaoke session. the others found out a certain someone still sleep with a bantal busyuk...we gat a pic of it too... gaggaaaaa..... Wish the crew was here too…hrmmm…..they are on the other side of KJ I suppose.. as some one said to me recently, “jaoh lar kajang…” errrr yeah it is. thank god I could teleport to usj n kelana jaya easily. Tak lar rase jaoh sesangat…. Lalalaaaaa…. Things people do to work…

Tear Jearker

I don’t know bout you, but I like movies. But my choice of movie are really weird. Just now, I finish watching Bridge of Terabithia. Again..! 5th time I guess. Pathetic..? may be. But who cares. I love those kind of movies. It make you think a lot bout life n stuff. And also it made me cry. Not proud of crying bout a movie. But if the movie happen to moves you inside, can’t do much bout it. Here is a couple of movie that I would watch again and again.

Tombstone of the Fireflies (anime) – award winnner

Bout a siblings who lost their parents in the first world war in japan. They stayed in a cave as the brother assure the little bro that they are coming back soon to save them. As time goes by, hunger starts paying them a visit. As well as illness of malnutrition. He would cook rocks so it sound like he is cooking something till his brother fall asleep. Things war does to people. basically its an anti-war anime. Who say cartoon always makes you fell happy..?

A Walk to Remember

Cool soundtrack, great story line, what is there not to like bout..? It’s a chick movie..? So be it, I love chick.

Children of heaven (Iran) – award winner

Apparently the clip of this movie was showed at SUKMA camp. But the whole story is a bout a little kid lost her school shoe. So she and her brother have to take turn wearing the same shoe they had. He is a runner. One day there’s a running competition where the 1st runner up will be getting a pair of new kicks. So he trains so hard to get number 2. completely innocent.

Bridge of Terabithia

honest relationship between friends and siblings. And also how a kid is push to be responsible person at such a young age... its sad what happen at the end. Just cause of one stupid decision, he suffer a total lost. Blaming himself for everything. I guess you really need to think before you react in life. You might regret it. Leslie “close your eyes, but let your mind wide open”

Ps: annashophia robb’s hair is so cute..and the substitute teacher eyes is like woahh…! opsss….

So there is it… my list of favorite tear jerker movies. As my mum would say, theres several type of movie. The type that entertains you and also those that made you think. a good movie is not how much they spent to make it or how many tickets sales that they generate. But is based on the quality of the acting, cinematography, story line and also dept of the script. Movies that made you think are really an art. Even if it is a low budget movies.

UM Power..!

So it has been a long tiring week.. awhh mann….last Thursday was the famous weekly gathering at esha’s crib.. Sadly I had to skip it cuz I got to prepare a team for the up coming NUSS games. Sorry people.. I mish pita nyte..?! arghhhh……. Gotta blame it on me tho. Hope yall had fun with or without me… since the tournament will be held on Saturday, I have to cancle my trip to atien’s open house at shah alam. Hrmmmm…..

This tournament is actually an Alumni game between UM (University of Malaya) and NUSS (National University of Singapore). Alumni means graduates association. This year will be the 23rd times it been held. And all along, UM team never won for bowling. Hrmmm.. NUSS must be really good. That worries me.. haven’t been competing for ages. Last major tournament was may be 1st Selangor Open 3 years ago..? only time I qualified boys and mens open category.. giler sedyeh kan..? And yeah I do envy all of yall who are still competing in a regular basis but don’t really pun your heart in the game. Almost forgot why I really fell in love with this game. I suppose my time is over.

I was given the duty to get a 8 bowler team ready for the competition. Manage to get rizz, amin, nicky, shegra, wan mat, kka norma n a late entry baby. Most of them knows how to bowl. No problem with that. Its good to see most of them again. Almost forget bout nicky (dayang adlina). Shes actually from Sarawak, and a senior of rubee back in the days. I hate her so much. Dunt ask why.. this gathering was about time. We check out on each other current situation and work description. They don’t change much. Kinda mish them all. Hope we could whack them all. Was worried we don’t win anything. God do help us.

As the tournament goes, I felt like a newborn. Energy flowing throughout my system. How I miss this tingling feeling. 3 events, single, doubles and total of 2 events. I fared well in the singles. Hit a 835. woaw….! Haven’t hit an 800 series for a long time. Wasn’t that good actually, but still I was shocked.. the Singaporeans that played said to me, you must have win a lot of girls heart.. Gasps… “Bhahaaa…..I WISH…!” . I had a lot of support from my fellow teammates. Thankz people…!

So I paired up with rizz in doubles event. He was only 12 pins away from me. He is good, got to give credit on that. In the 2nd event, he played 935 (236, 227, 279, 193).. I was like… Aaaaaaaa… (jaw dropping)… argh snapp…..! thank god he was my teammate. But yet I still envy him.. good job mann…! I suppose being a trainer in fitness first do paid off with your endurance huh..? UM power…! So we won 3 – 0 against NUSS. Glad that’s over. Wish I could bowl some more in tournament like this. Later that night we went for dinner at KGPA. We had roast lamb.

Would like to give a warm thank you to those who came by n support me in pin junction. Among them were, AINA, Anis, Jac2, Emi, ZD, Kean Hoong, Dilla. Luv all of my adek. And my fellow teammate. Next year it’ll b in Singapore..lets get them again ok..?