Thursday, November 27, 2008

way back track...!

Savage Garden
to the moon and back

Shes taking her time
making up The reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows
from the smile
And the look in their eyes
Everyones got a theory about the
Bitter one

Theyre saying mamma never loved Her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
Thats why she shies away from
Human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now shes waiting for the right
Kind of pilot to come
And shell say to him
Shes saying

I would fly to the moon and back if Youll be
If youll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we Belong
So would you be my baby

She cant remember a time when she Felt needed
If love was red then she was colour Blind
All her friends theyve been tried for Treason
And crimes that were never defined
Shes saying love is like a barren Place
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just dont have aMap for
So babys gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that shes hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying


Hold on hold on
Mamma never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
Thats why she shies away from
Human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now shes waiting for the right
Kind of pilot to come
And shell say to him
Just saying

Chorus twice

ps: another sad song adored by jaa

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

5 sec..?

Well basically every one got a weakness right..? So do I.. Lately I meet up with a number of them all at once…arghhh snapp….! It’s SHC. (Don’t ask what it is). But if you really understand me you would know what izzit all about. Several time today I found this particular thing. And it made me stop n stare for at least 5 sec. at that time ill get distracted. So no point of talking to me at that particular time. Things people do rite..? I was like “hrmm… thatz a sight for sore eyes… can I get one at least…?” Wishing lagik.. hahhahaaa… DREAMER…! wish I could tell what it’s about.

My adek pointed it out to me that I am not fat anymore. Hrmmm… to think bout it yeah I’m not. Just a little too thin. But as long as I’m happy bout it rite..? It’s all good. Try to better myself one step at a time. Meanwhile ill just be loving myself each day. Hueee…. Wish me luck….!

This week im working early shift. When I said early I meant really early. Its like I got to wake up at 4.30 to get ready and start working at kidding. But its ite.. seriously.. just you got to train to get use to it. Gotta sleep early people.. drop me a line owkay…? C yah around…!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Take my smile away (Original Rhyme)

The change of wind through November rain,
Wishing these sorrow clouds could take away the pain,
Vision became blurry and yet so taint,
Trying to get through while maintaining my sane…

Changes in life happen all of the sudden,
We get so scared and our heart get harden,
Wishing rainbows and butterflies in a beautiful garden,
Stress is draining me out, please beg my pardon…

Just being yourself could really hurt others,
But then sometimes we change underneath the covers,
People try to understand, by flipping the pages,
Hope we stay the same avoiding damages…

23 November 2008

This is

My Top 5 Most Favorite Foods;
- Roti jala….! Don’t care where and who made it. I just love them all
- Fish and Chip from those vendor van in Oban, Scotland
- Protein Shake.. I so need those right now…!
- Vanilla. Well basically anything with this particular flavor.
- Double Mushroom Swiss from Burger King

10 Things I Love Doing;
- Writing rhyme
- Listening to untap music. Off from the mainstream
- Watching Movies
- Indie show and album launch.
- Travelling (nak balik kampong…!)
- Participating in Artsy stuff (graffiti, drawing, writing n etc)
- Looking good.. image is really important to me
- Studying. Its my strength and weakness.
- communicating with all of my adek. Yeay….!

5 Things I Love Doing When I’m EMO;
- Runnig..! God gave me long legs for a reason.
- Still writing rhyme. My genre in creative writing is about sad things. Sorry people.
- Listening to sad song.. long live YUNA..hahahha
- Walking in the rain. Should try it once in a while…
- Sleep…!

5 Things I Love Doing When I’m Happy;
- Sing… though my voice is only suitable for certain songs only.
- Eat…! I love to eat…!
- Helping people through their problems. Well it makes me happy at least
- Participating (artsy, fitness, sports.. hate being a spectator)
- Outing with the kruk kruk crew / lyrical killerz...

5 Things I Wish To Happen;
- Marry that beautiful friend of mine. Guess all you want..!
- To have my rhyme into a song. That would be lovely.
- Wish I could bowl competitively again
- hope that my grandmum won’t have to go so soon. She’s the reason I go back to my kampung
- That things would never change

My Top 5 Most Addicted songs;
- Kanye West - Love Lock Down
- Phlowtron – Her Whisper
- Jack Johnson – Sitting Waiting Wishing
- Yuna - Greek Goddess
- Michell Branch – All You Wanted

5 people I Wish to tag;
no one. Most of yall did this already.

Visiting Hours

After my ten o’clock appointment in ASB Kajang, me n my mum went up to Sungai Buloh. We went to pay a visit to my Tok Jang which is gonna have surgery at the Government Hospital there. I didn’t really understand why it need to be done n which part was it. So I went along. I never was a fan of hospital really. It’s either too sad or too painful. Though I did have my share of hospitalization way back when. Good old days where you get nice food and tons of toys (when I was small ok). Enough bout me.

By the time we reach there, we were kinda shocked. The place was huge and clean. Never thought such facilities at that particular area. No offence. Well basically it was new. There I manage to write my long awaited rhyme. Its just something I felt recently. For you to judge ok..?

Tok Jang was transfer to the ICU. He just got his leg amputated. Its from his patella downwards. He was battling diabetes for a very long time. Hrmmm.. I felt so sad DEEP DOWN. Further more when the family member went to the forensic to take back the rotten left leg (it became dead cell) to bury it. I never thought of that. But basically that is the procedures following Islamic law I suppose.. hrmmm… The family was nice and took it very strongly. Redha of what god have given them. I don’t know how I should feel. Weather I’m ashamed for not being sad if front of the family or cuz I didnt show much emotion. Inside I was crying seeing him lying on the bed. His Systolic level was 141 and Diastolic was 43. I’m not as strong as them. May be they just being strong for each other. I hope I don’t have to go through that fate. Though I do have family history of it and some other things. Gotta be strong facing all situations. Universal Soldiers. But if I ever have to deal such thing, ill just hope i survive such situation and glad to be alive. Insyallah…

Hello…! Who is this…?

Last Saturday I manage to catch up with one of the crew. It’s the comic. Currently he is working at this brand new place (cant tell where). Actually he was feeling under the weather. So I ought to pay him a visit at his workstation. It’s been a while since I last been to that area. As usual parking was dead expensive. Shoot..! But being a weekend, the place was totally packed. People are traveling back home I suppose. He is in the telecommunication scene. So anything bout cell phone, lines n etc just give him a call. His work station smells nice as its beside this waffle thingy. By the time I reach there I felt hungry. Arghhhh…. Easy for him to do work with that blocked nose of his. I went around the area from one end to the other. Just to kill the time. Nice area and good for business. I ought of changing phone myself. How bout the LG slide sideways huh.,..? hahhaaa…. (sorry aina and udin) it was great spending some times with him. Talk for a while. Catching up with changes in working environment. It’s all good. Had apple pie before I left. After meeting his brother (cousin which is the owner) start to head home. I wish you all the best man. Hope your successful in what you are doing. Peace out…!

Owh I almost forgot.

Hye, this is Jaa. May I help you..?
(Refer to the title)

Kill the mainstream….!

Back then on my radio, I only have 2 favorite preset. But now I felt that they kept on playing the same old same old over n over again. I don’t know bout you, but I need a change. So I found out several new frequencies on the radio airwaves. Among them are my old time fav Red 104.9, Traxx fm and also Capital fm. I felt totally rejuvenated. Well basically, I luv something which is not over played on air. Imagine yesterday I heard the theme song of gaban was played on capital. I was like kewl…! Bahhahahhaaaa…..

Call me old skool, but songs from the Verve Pipe, Gin Blossoms, Spin Doctors, Radiohead, Soul Asylum, Crash Test Dummies, Better Than Ezra, Third Eye Blind n stuff. I wish they played more 90’s alternative band. It’s ok to keep up to date with new bands and all. But music is an evolution through out the years. Now days its like its either too new tracks or too old like 60’s. Well that’s only rawking tunes.

Now tru R&B n Hiphop is another chapter. Name such as Sade, Angie Martinez, Talib Kweli, Styles, John Legend, Rasheeda, Lumidee, Petey Pablo, Gemma Fox, TQ, S-Word (Japanese), Nappy Roots, Kelis, Ginuwine , Fefe Dobson, The Roots, David Broom n such are great musician but not been recognized by people…. Bring back the days where rhyming is more bout trying to get tru life and not bout babes n blings.

And what about our very own indie and homegrown artist.. people like Yuna, Ana Raffali, Sundae, Bo, Brain head, Robot Asmara, Poetic Amno, Too Phat, PHLOWTRON, Teh Tarik Crew, Oh Chenta Ku, Paolo Delfino, Mia Palencia, Zee Avi (aka koko kaina), Estrella, Bunk Face and so much more. They had a good run all this years and I pray that they have a very good future in front of them.

Im goin far away from the main stream. But ill still keep in touch. Just that for now, its Long Live Indie and Non Mainstream..!.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

And the winner is…

Last nite I went to th Oskar.. Its like the OSCAR but the Malaysian version. It was called Anugerah Oskar Malaysia ke 7. The motto was the 1 behind the stars. Was held at Nikko Hotel near by KLCC. Normal award show would celebrate actors/actress and movies. But just like the Oscar, this award show covers it all. From telemovies (drama/soap), films, MCP multi camera production (award show/AF/Concert) and other categories which is equally as important. There were 57 awards been given out all together. Mannn it’s a drag yall but its aight.. Mummy said that wasn’t grand enough.. “it wasn’t..? not tru my eyes”.

Didn’t dress up that much, just a plain red turtle neck and a pair of tux for me.. Simple kan..? hahhahaaa… NOT.. Basically mummy was one of the jury of the award show. So I tag along. Was introduced to some of the artist, actors, producers and film makers. Among them was Rosyam Nor, Dato Yussof Haslam, panel jury and some other important people in the film industry. Hrmmm.. To tell you the truth, the place was happening. Most of the people come to see me and ask if I was an actor. I was like, ‘Nope, not yet tho..” hahhhaaa….. Mummy usually got tons of invite for this type of function and everything. But I was the one kinda reluctant to come along. Was kinda bz with bowling back then. An eye opener for me actually.

Started around 8pm and finish by 12.15am. The concourse area was filled with smoke.. Owh My GOD..! They smoke like chimney mann… the food was nice, performance by Royal D’ Amore (military band), boomerang (Indian based hiphop group) and several other artist.

Was a real hectic day as today also was my 1st day of work. Almost get my first client. But time will tell if I’m up to it challenge. Owh by the way, I aced on all my test which I took last Friday. Thanks to all those that did support me. Much luv..!

Rainey days…

Its been raining lately. Gloomy? No, just massive rain.. Usually in the afternoon sessions. Last Wednesday (if I’m not mistaken). As I was training at Menara Axis along the side of federal highway, there was a massive storm. Thank god I was indoors. But the storm and thunder was crazy mannn… we were at the gym that particular time. They had this huge glass window around them. The wind was so strong that the trees were blown 45 degrees from its original form. It lasted around 30 – 45 min or so. But towards the time to head home, the storm went down a notch..

Since the parking there is kinda pricey, I park my ride a few block away from the building. Its around 10 min walk. I don’t mind that (thank you to the friendly neighborhood that didn’t mind me parking in front of their house). It was kewl to the walking part.

But last Friday right after the examination, it was pouring…! Owh mann.. I had to be at Summit by 5.30. The later I went down, the later ill arrived. Hrmmmm…. I had no choice but to run my self al the way to my ride. Sounds fun…? Yeah it was.. I got this FI manual as big as a yellow pages, a huge traveling beg to put my kicks, extra tshirts and pants (required). To top it all off, the place I park was uphill. I simply wrap my head with a tshirt, put my manual in my beg n started running. As I reached the car I was soaking wet yall. My kicks was filled with water and my wind breaker was wet. Hrmmm… catching my breath for a while. And drove off. Tho its kinda dangerous to run in the rain but let it be ok. People working out heated out their body, rain is actually a medium to cool us off. Yeah it’s a resistance to run in the rain, but da heck….just kept on running man.

Rubber band man….!

Recently I was at this ATM at Balakong (near my house) .. So I see this two African in it.. One was o the phone laughing while the other was by his side…Nothing weird with this picture rite…? Not… these foreigners were holding a stack of RM50 notes.. It was ridiculous thick OK…! Imagine me holding 1 and ½ of phone books. That much…1 of them was putting a tough face and counting it one over the other…While the other was talking on the phone rite..? all the sudden this guy drop ½ of the money on the floor and still laughing his head off.. there was an Indonesian security guard said to me, “mak ai banyak nyer.. kalau kita tuh pasti risau, keluar rumah pegang duit banyak2..” I know what you mean man…I don’t want to knowhow they got it. Most people would say they are into money laundry. But I respect them with their work what eva it is. and yet we complain its hard to get work right around here. Get up ur butt and just go work mann…!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

lock down...!

as you know, my head is kinda numb rite naw. but still appreciating music to the fullest. one of my fav rapper kanye west latest song. is he brilliant or what... well at least i think he is. with all those Grammy, who dare to say otherwise.. lyric cutting me deep man...big up to the windy city native...!
Roc-a-Fella RULEZ...!

Kanye West
Love Lockdown

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you
I'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me, all the way home
So ya never know, never, never know
Never know enough, til it's over love
Til we lose control, system overload
Screamin no, no, no, no, no
I'm not lovin you, way I wanted to
See I wanna move, but can't escape from you
So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else don't have to know

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
I can't keep my cool, so I keep it true
I got somethin' to lose, so I gotta move
I can't keep myself, and still keep you too
So I keep in mind, when I'm on my own
Somewhere far from home, In the danger zone
How many times did it take fo' I finally got through
you lose, you lose
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
See I had to go, see I had to move
No more wastin' time, we can't wait for life
which is wastin' time, where's the finish line

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose

I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
I met no one new, I got no one new
No I said I'm through, but got love for you
But I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
Gotta keep it goin, keep the lovin gone
Keep it on a roll, only god knows
If I be with you, baby I'm confused
You choose, you choose
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to
Way I got to go, I dont need you
I been on this road, too many times before
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to

So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
If you keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose

lactic acid

Haven’t been blogging lately.. Sorry bout that. All this training is drying me out. I do love it, but my body can’t cope up with my mind. As a result, I was down with a terrible headache and massive fever last Friday. But yet I still came for training. Unavoidable eve if your sick.. actually I got it from the person sitting next to me. He got it on Thursday, pass to me on Friday and then the instructor him self on Saturday.. hahhahaa…..weird but true.. not that we are not healthy, less body fat to regulate and react with the flu. After a class, medication n meeting, I drove home drowsy… Dangerous owkay.. ! Alhamdullilah I manage to get tru it and reach home safely.. but still was driving like I don’t know haw was I driving, I just realized I reach home. That’s all. 1 more week to go.!

My phone is on hold for a while rite now. Especially on training times. They ask us to switch off the phone completely. I save batt and also crdt.. hrmmm…. But I do miss all of yall.. nuff said..

Liya (bling) was suppose to come up from johor, but she didn’t make it. So I went to the last circuit of star search at one utama. Y..? ntah larr.. need to relax my mind skit kowt. Or I just miss them. What-ever for-ever…. Azry won the u15 category.. congratz.. but I was satisfied with him at all. Down here explain why..

That was b4 the finals (against Nicholas) . At the finals he miss a simple single spare at the last frame against Omar... I was like…mannn… “I don’t care if you won or not. Cuz u mish that pin, drop down n gimme 10.” He was reluctant. But I kept a straight face and he immediately did it.. Simply ridiculous ok… Zharif was out on the first match wit him. That match I just watch n help out both. Mcm training lak.. So that was it. Aint much..all of my time now days is either reading, sleeping or working out. Got xam by end of next week. Wish me luck.

Its gonna b a really bz month for myself(cant even find the time to bust a rhyme) , but still I’ll be reminisce. back in the days when we hang out till late nyte n morning, dares, games, dinner,… those were the days. I cant bring back all those wonderful outings…. But still ill keep it in my heart. So that im not forgotten. Take care people….!

Ps: there will be a roll off for Pahang Open n Penang Pesta for Selangorianz.. Just get ready.. will keep u updated.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


people...just to let you know, that im no longer skipping meals... with this foundation PT1, i need all the energy i need. tuh baru training jer.. belum kerje lagik... owh well...this is just day 3. i got the pleasure to do interval training (45min endurance running with high intensity) basically my class is from 9-5. i love running! even tho its i a long period of times. weird kan..? kaki panjang, lari jer lah..

then we went to GX (Group Exercise). it was body balance (combination of yoga, thai chi and pilates)..let me tell yah, after all those running u just wanna lay flat. but thank god its just streching..(i hope) but man its tough..eric (fellow coursemate: a body builder) was sweating a pool beside me. i was like 'ur ok mann..?' cian tgk... Cindy was our instructor. she was nice. good taste of music too. Alicia Keys, KT Tunstall and such.i gotta go off and study naw... sok ader quiz lak... i dont want to end up doing pushup... penat owhh... later people....!

Monday, November 3, 2008

say whatt....?!

Recently I saw several things that were really shocking to me.. I was like, whuttt…..?! How did dat happen…? May be its normal n I don’t go out much to know bout it. Owh well I suppose its individual goal…some prefer to be successful in studies, while others in their carrier. Some is going all out in relationship, while some just trying to get thru with life.. and a few would just bother bout somebody else life. Tho i envy one of the things i saw, i also felt like puking on the other thing. Well what ever the reason is. If they do it consciously or subconsciously, its up to the individual them self. Who are we to judge people…? Only God (ALLAH) can judge us.

So to all the haters…! Please keep your personal view to your self.. Doodle it in ur diary or something. You only get what you give..u give trouble, you gonna get hell…!

Just remember one thing,

“We have once chance just to do it right,
cause they aint no rewind button in life”
-teh tarik crew-

tunggu lagi....

mann...i don't know why, but I'm really digging this song..
it hitt me in the head n make me realized,
that he is not such a badd singer after all..
dont let me get started on the lyric...
yeah its sad....
but check it out, there's a lot of sad song now days..
sad, angry, disappointment, basically its just emotion.
how i love them. i dont show much, but love to be surrounded by them.
don't suppose that you'd be happy all the time...
if you do, i think your on "Prozac Nation"...
(now that's another good movie)

ps: please do understand, that this song is not directed to anyone..
if you still think it is, dont take it the wrong way. .
im just a fan of arts and music.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?

I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
And maybe you been through this before
But its my first time
So please ignore
The next few lines cause they're directed at you

I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But its not my scene
Wont this plot not twist?
I've had enough mystery.
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
Well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting

Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
And If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
Cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing your fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool

Sunday, November 2, 2008

birthday tshirt...!

So as you know, my birthday was a couple of months ago. Was a quiet birthday compared to the previous years. 2006 was 2nd Selangor open, 2007 was a bummer. I suppose this year it’s much better. I didn’t have the chance to thank all those people who wished and also showered me with owh so many present. Among them were, Udin, Azry, Aina, Fatin Nasuha, Abang Din, Ili, Rinee, Isha (uitm), Ryan’s Family, Amir Din’s Family, Shasha’s Family, Zamera’s Family n others (if I mish out any names I am truly sorry).

Surprisingly I got several t-shirt this year. I don’t know why that is. But I’m glad to receive it….would like to thank them all for being thoughtfull.. Well here are design of the tshirt given to me..

This first piece is from ili…

Bhahahaaa… girl friend wanted..? errrr…. no comment on that.

was dared to wear it. i don't mind tho at first kinda segan larr...

2nd piece is from aina..
as my fav adek, she nailed it on this one..
yeah I was made in another world. Datz y senget jer kepaler when taking pic….wooohaaaa…!

this is also from her.if im not mistake she got this from my i wish i could go there someday...n yeah i do deny some of the friend request. well sometimes.

An abstract design on this 4th one, Thankz to udin.
He really capture the image that was in my head that time… pening owh…
may be pasal dier pusing banyak sangat on the dare kowt… gagagaa…..

last one is from my long time friend isha.
This piece is beautiful as the design was made by her own self. She’s an archi graduate (architect uitm).
If you really see closely, you will see the letter JAA at the bottom right of the t.
KENER TENGOK BETUL2. That’s really art.
I don’t know pic girl maner larr kat baju tuh.
But I do like to meet her..bahahhahahaaa….
.kalau ader such people.

Pelik of me kan to be sharing you pic of some t-shirts..? but its so nice…! plus its not just some mere t-shirt. these t-shirt was chosen because it represent me. So i wanna say thank you to all 4 people for putting some thot, time, effort n cash to get me these fabolous T. Kalau nak pakai bukan leh selalu. Takot rosak lak.. simpan elok2 jer larr…gi anta kedai n frame it up…bahhahahaa….Ill wear it once in a while. Am truly grateful to have such nice and thoughtful friends and adek. Yall have a special place in my heart. Thanks for everything.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

When you smile (Original Rhyme)

I’m waiting for the time, to see you smile,

You been through that journey, for thousand of mile,

Hope you cheer up, even for a short while,

You lighted up so bright, when someone starts to dial…

Perfectly decent smile, what’s the point of frown,

No matter how much you’re sad, problems still come around,

Things that made you happy, I hope you quickly found,

Life too short to be sad, it’ll ended up a mount…

Hope that you smile, with the changes that happen,

Suddenly but surely, start up a commotion,

I know that you are scared, but have a little patient,

Pray that you get through, this sticky situation..


Hope to see yall around.. Ill be kinda bz after this…Be going into something new.… but I will still mish every single one of you….my deepest apology for any wrong doing, harshness words use, heartbreak or what ever it is.. hope you will still remember me. Ill still be around. But with training at end, difference in individual goals, we grew apart.. this day will come no matter how much we try to avoid it. Just hope we are close as ever…take care people…. Just be yourself…!


happy rawker's day...!

Hye hye hyeee…..! Finally udin turn 17th…arrrgh dammed, he is still young.. but built like a bapak org…we celebrate his bday at babah’s n mama’s casa….yeah…udin brought guitar heroes. I guess not all of them are into gaming udin…but yet u really represent, and I salute that.…tapi tak ramai leh join… so tak beraper fun.. I kno he is so into it..after telinge mama di pekak kan, we played charades instead…

Vote lah pulak this time…nevermind…janji leh main charades mcm nak giler dah larr kan. nieh mcm nak galakkan kiter org suh go n vote in the next election jerk… practice2….

Team A

  • Babah, Siron, Yasser, Udin, Esha & Qina

Team B

  • Mama, Emi, Dina, Nizam, Amer, Jaa & Ash

Tengah-tengah main leh terstop jap..was wondering why…but wat tak taw jer larr…trying to play along tapi leh blur lak kan…hrmmm…..but what I noticed that I was awfully happy lately…I freakily don’t know why…

like moon famous words, ”serious…? Jangan larr serious sangat…..”

so there it was the birthday cake…kewl..i luv it..tho it wasn’t for me…the candle was so kewl someone did try n have a bite on it. Ingatkan its edible. That’s funny….if im nat mistake, its a chocolate cheese cake or something.

So after amazing race, we continued the game. Basically team B won. Woo haaa…! It was nice to win again. Tho I miss several sessions….UNDEH SPY….! what eva that means… thankz to all of yall for making me smiling again…still cant figure out why, but yeah….got to go naw….

To my rawking lil bro..

Happy birthday mann....! Hope all that you wish would come true in your life. i do sense a lil change bout you.. Stress out with your studies i suppose. But its ok... just keep on being you.. What ever it is, always follow ur gut feelings. Ill be around if you need me... congrats on the recent "call" and the beautiful lyric of "the one". Proud to be a part of ur fabulous life. Keep on rawking mannn….bang ur head till you break ur neck…!

Much luv


Ps (Original Rhyme)

How could I start, not knowing the damage?

Tears that you cried, beneath the surface,

I wish I knew, what I did wrong,

Maybe this is not, where I belong