Monday, May 31, 2010

lay back sunday

been reading a few article in the newspaper recently. (shocking? yeah i know....)
so here are some which caught my attention.

from the Sunday star

An ode to the pain we suffer:
expressing pain in written form can inspire and bring comfort.

by dr albert lim

During his workshop with cancer patients, relatives, carers and the bereaved, he often recite poem. some poem can bring comfort to those who are going through hard times. we are simply human, that need to deal with lost, mishaps and stuff. but this poem tell us, that we are not alone and should strive to be back on our feet and keep on moving forward for the better. its ok to be sad and morn about it, but we also have to break out of it. different people deal with it in their own ways. some might even take a longer time to recover. heres a sample of poem he recite during one of the workshop.

Funeral Blues

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W.H. Auden

from new sunday times

Desperately looking for heroes
by: zainul ariffin

in this article, he mention about the trend of child development in Malaysia. they are all narrow down to education and less towards sport. if you ask me, don't bother if Malaysia didnt win a certain sporting competitions. because none of us is making a difference in it. i see the Thomas Cup Team kept or and other Malaysian sporting heroes getting bash up in the press as they got beaten while trying to strive for success.. that's why i hate watching sporting events so much. i do support them. but i rather participate in it to make a difference..

No wonder 'we are fast approaching becoming an obese nation especially among kids'. it is said that the percentage of hand and eye coordination among children has lowered down. only eye and thumb coordination is more significant (thanks to texing and also video games)

other nations are going all out in sport. the give sponsorship, scholarships, loan or even pension towards athletes. kids in kindergarten in Australia are expose to Olympic heroes like Michael Phelps and others. this is the spirit and support to give towards kids. at least they could succeed in those god given talent that being blessed upon them. but instead, dreams are crush as they are no future in them. so they turn to drugs, snatch thief and such.

"our sports must also be revenue and employment generators. we need to be able to reward those who tried but fail, as well as offer our retired sportsmen an honorable opportunity to contribute beyond their playing days'

sports enhance leadership skills, social skills, fair play, and even DISCIPLINE....! something that i see lacking in people this time around. it simply makes us proactive.

As politic tears us into groups and idolization of a certain leaders, sports unite us. regardless who is playing. When we win, we all are shared the joy, regardless skin colours, political stands and even social backgrounds. we become 1 nation. Malaysia...!

well that summarized what has been written a a dash of my own view. till next Sunday. hahahhaha.... i hope..

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Back to My Roots (Original Rhyme)

Its been a while, since I left you there,
just to expend, the horizon that I stare,
even change, the things that I wear,
cant stay away too long, cause it ain't fair,

after all those sorrow, a company with slow tempo,
tons of anger, and tears on my pillow,
for far too long, I've been down and mellow,
its my time to shine, and its time to show...

bring the beat back, straight to my heart,
no matter how I run, it still be a part,
of me I cant deny, help me to work hard,
it thought me how to rhyme, with rawness and guts

step back step back, this you got to hear,
I'm going fast forward, hyper speed to next gear,
Ain't running no more, no more tears to tear,
fight all my battle, when ever it become near....!

mish yah so much hip hop..
glad to be back..
in black...!

untill the end of time by 2pac

Perhaps I was addicted to the dark side
Somewhere inside my childhood I missed my heart die
And even though we both came from the same places
The money and the fame made us all change places
How could it be through the misery that came to pass
The hard times make a true friend afraid to ask, for currency
But you could run to me when you need me, I'll never leave
I just needed someone to believe in, as you can see
It's a small thing through and true
What could I do? Real homies help ya get through,
And coming new, he'd do the same thing if he could
Cause in the hood true homies make you feel good
And half the time we be acting up call the cops
Bringing the cease to the peace that was on my block
It never stop, when my mama ask me will I change
I tell her yeah, but it's clear I'll always be the same
Until the end of time

[Chorus: RL]
So take, these broken wings
I need your hands to come and heal me once again
(Until the end of time)
So I can fly away, until the end of time
Until the end of time
Until the end of time

such poetic words. see how he flow?
till when i could get to that standard..?
would i ever...?

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

congratulation on your graduation

Got the privileged to go and watch my girl's graduation at uitm last Saturday. it was raining lightly.... a total of 800 people graduating that session of the day. last time i was in a graduation, wus mine. and its a total different feeling. it was hot, anxious, happy. plenty of butterflies in the stomach. but enough bout me.

as i reached there, i was ask to park at the padang kawad. 5min away from the grand hall where they having the convocation. UITM provided us bus ride to go there. kinda practical if you ask me. they even send someone to escort me with an umbrella. hahhahaha that's funny. a lil rain wont do much damage. i brought some flowers from Uptown. basically, I've pre planned the day ahead.

the the rain was pouring. i took cover under the canopy. but my position wasn't good as i was in front of the large fan with mist. kinda cold. but its was fun. looking at the all the family members that came all the way from their home town for this special day. u felt that warm feeling of family.

in between set, they even having the arts student singing some songs. i was really surprise on that. i suppose they are having idol fever. hehehheeee......

manage to catch up wit her at the corridor of the hall. help her to take plenty of picture. was really happy to be there for her on that special day. here's a peice i wrote for her while wating outside in the rain....:

bright colours and all those fresh flowers,
this endless wait, that sure end up great,
now that its here, no more exam to fear,
love to congratulate, now that you've graduate...

happy graduation nny....!
you gonna do well in your carrier.
be there to support yah all the way....
much luv

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Shattered Soul (Original Rhyme)

Sometimes I wonder, if you ever think of me,
The one that been exile, far from your eyes could see,
But you never take opportunity, and simply let it be
Sorry to feel unwanted, always you’re new one and he

I’m doing fine now, if you ever want to know,
Might also be my fault, as I rarely let it show,
But deep down inside, I would never let it go,
The day you went away, even time seem slow…

Thanks for everything, you provide me from the start,
Hope you’ve proud of me, as you have done your part?
I do miss you sometimes, even if you have no guts,
If only you would know, the pain in this shattered heart.

been holding this rhyme for quite a while.
waiting the right time i suppose.
basically its not a current thing in my mind.
but still, its history

Monday, May 17, 2010

First and last (Original Rhyme)

knew this going to happen, sooner or later
but even if its fixed, does it even matter..?
I've strive my best, to not make you a hater,
still I'm accuse, to be a cheater,

no matter how hard, I try to make it better,
try to compromise my time, so i could cater,
you simply ignore, and wont be bother,
simply make this situation, a bit warmer and hotter

I'm sick and tired, things go out of plan,
wish it was simple, all decision in my hand
so I easily recover, rather than I ran,
hoping I bounce back, instead of asking when,

I suppose this is world, an ocean filled with sand,
you could try to walk, ended up sink into the land,
take a look in my life, with this deep full glance,
things that I've gone through, as I am just a man...

ps: another day at work....

Thursday, May 13, 2010

My Guardian Angel (Original Rhyme)

No matter what we do, you would never back out,
You only gave us love, without a shadow of doubt,
Through all the rough times, pass all those trouble cloud,
Even if u kept on scolding, and shout it out loud,
To me you’re the best guardian, that’s what it all about,

You raise me up special, I’m a total different man,
I’m so very grateful, to be molded by your hand,
Though mistake I made a lot, back then I use to ran,
Yet you kept on reminding, towards the promise land,
I hope I have the patience, cause all I ask is when

This is where we’re now, I hope you understand,
We good at fitting in, easy for us to blend,
Though we took sometime, to fix up and mend,
Regardless how much the damage, we survive throughout the dent
And kept bracing ourself, no matter how much the offence.

Wishing you all the good thing, in this wicked little world,
We been thru a lot, situation make us want to hurl,
You’re so determine, straight as an arrow you won’t curl,
That’s why you are so valuable, an authentic rare pearl,
So never doubt yourself, cause your no ordinary girl


happy belated mothers day and a very happy birthday mom.
yes you are that much of age, but you really don't look like it.
must be the laughter, smile and all that fighting spirit.
thanks for raising me up to the person that i am.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

janggal ku rasa

At first it was aina, then it was rania who went to Indonesia for a lil holiday. Hrmmm…. Sure be fun going there. There was a time in my life I love the Indonesia culture language, movies and such. I was so into it, all my text and speech is in the Indonesian slang. All from ‘ada apa dgn cinta’, ‘eiffle im in love’, to shiela on 7 and even the book ‘aku’ by khairil anuar (one of the bwest Indonesian literature).

Working in the gym I tend to meet a lot of people. Got the privilege to know the indo team of lenovo wijaya and also Jamie from a tech support in mid val. Recently I got the chace to talk to Jamie as he was leaving the gym. So I talk to him with the slang and stuff. Sad that he was leaving us tho.

Yesterday, one of the new staff at the reception said to me. ‘jaa, are you from Indonesia..?’ hahhahahhaa……that’s real funny. Basically my impersonation really made people think I am one. Don’t think im that good. It sounds so made up anyway. Waduh…..


Kalau sampai waktuku
'Ku mau tak seorang kan merayu
Tidak juga kau

Tak perlu sedu sedan itu

Aku ini binatang jalang
Dari kumpulannya terbuang

Biar peluru menembus kulitku
Aku tetap meradang menerjang

Luka dan bisa kubawa berlari
Hingga hilang pedih peri

Dan aku akan lebih tidak perduli

Aku mau hidup seribu tahun lagi

Maret 1943

ps; he was writing about wanting freedom. such words...... fantastic.. plenty more of his writing that caught my heart...but this is simply beautiful..

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Living mylife like its golden

Quote from 'Jill Scot – Golden' track. Argh.....! Well.... I finally manage to finish my RMT at month end last Friday. Believe me its not that easy to do. With all that cramping up of studies and working at the same time. Didn't even got the chance to workout and eat properly. So everything was really mess up. Not enough sleep and such. Schedule was really tight. Cant afford to get sick. Even if i did, I cant let it mess up my flow. FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION. It could be a set back, but you don't stop there.

Below I would like to thank some people that pursued me in upgrading myself.

First of all my boss Awien who have guide me on my sales. Now I'm peaking 3 months in a row. Hopefully that streak stays as long as possible. Still remember I use to have like 1 in a months. But now, lining up back to back.

Second, is my previous boss Audrey who put her trust in me and my ability. She be the one who kept on pestering me my pt on the net. Her guidance was really needed when I was denying my capability and also performance. I know a lot about the company through her.

Thirdly, my dear big sista Dayang. Hrmmmm, she be the one criticizing, mocking, educating and disagreeing with me and my methods. But then again, thats what I need to open my eyes to knowledge.. Thats how my sis teach me way to succeed in this world.

And finally and most importantly to my dearest girlfriend Fizah. Who kept pushing me to better myself in every single way. Without her drive, none of this would even happen. The one that took me away from the darkness and to the light.

Again, would want to say thank you for each of yall contribution towards me in my life. With all of your support, I'm here.

Knowledge give you substance,
Kindness makes you humble,
Discipline give you order,
Personality makes you different


SUPPORT makes you successful

ps; aint stopping there. might go for kettlebell, ace, platinum or even master. who knows...

much luv...!