Monday, December 27, 2010

Rantai - Gravity

Just finish rantai art festival. Woaw, this is a real eye opening experience. All this while i've been in to rantai mini events and such. But to have them all coming in together is so awsome. And they choose a great venue to do it. Balai Seni Lukis just beside the famous Istana Budaya. I only manage to catch two days of the event. Wish could go to all of them, but was working. Hish....

There’s a lot of things that they offer. From small sketch, performing arts, painting and drawing, graffitti ish, acoustic set and live bands, and so much stuff. Entrepreneur with they own special kind of business and product are also given chance to open up booth. The crowd build up was not bad at all.

Its a far more underground then others art festival. So much thats you could taste the rawness.the time there is simply not enough as I could drown in their dreams and also imaginations. It made me felt like home. Went around the national art galery. And they offer the best from Malaysia by malaysian.

Come explore your artistic side. I never know I have it with me, but it serve me right.

Loving it...

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Dreams by The Cranberries

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams,
it's never quite as it seems,Never quite as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

Ah, la da ah...La...

I want more impossible to ignore, Impossible to ignore.
And they'll come true,
impossible not to do,Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;

You're everything to me.
Oh, my life,Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quite as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Ah, da, da da da, da, la...

Departure Hall (Original Rhyme)

been working so hard, to be where im at,
to maintain some food, at least a loaf of bread,
no point to be despair, what you get if you're sad,
not that anyone would care, as life is a dread...

but i never thought, i would come this far,
been trying to reached up, bar after bar,
while driving around, in my small lil car,
never stop fighting, to be at least at par,

hope you all would appreciate, after im gone,
wishing you think of me, some time at dawn,
will still be around, a new place to be born,
a place where i could cure, this heat thats been torn...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

'Rantai' me up...!

have you heard...? Rantai Art is back with their year end festival. this time around its gonna be at the national arts gallery. Rantai has been the pioneer of artsy events in Malaysia and give opportunity to local acts and artist to express them self in their own special way. of cause its a non-profit art organization and they are from a network of designers, artists, musicians, students and tech geeks. thats how arts should be represented by. if you ask me, they will be the one who first to discover new local talent before they make it big. my first acoustic session that i went for was organized by them and i still can remember it like it was yesterday.

heres a lil synopsis of whats coming next week: mempersembahkan
Rantai Art Festival 2010 "GRAVITY"
20.12.10 - 26.12.10

Rantai Art Festival 2010 GRAVITY ialah satu festival seni yang dilakukan pada setiap hujung tahun oleh komuniti Rantai Art. Seperti tahun yang sudah, kami akan cuba memberi kelainan dalam festival pada tahun 2010. Tema festival pada tahun ini ialah GRAVITY, berasaskan tema itu kami telah memilih BALAI SENI LUKIS NEGARA ( BSLN ) sebagai lokasi festival. Ini kerana BSLN merupakan pusat tarikan seni dan kegiatan seni di sekitar ibu kota. Berpandukan tema ini juga, kami cuba menyatukan segala jenis hasil karya untuk di pamerkan dan juga pelbagai jenis aktiviti seni. Kami juga cuba menarik minat rakyat dan generasi muda untuk mendekati seni. Idea dari proses penyatuan rakyat dan seni, maka pada kali ini kami akan menganjurkan Rantai Art Festival 2010 GRAVITY.

taken from :

i don't know bout you, but for sure ill be there as much as i could.
hope to see you there too....

Friday, December 17, 2010

Untreated Wound (Original Rhyme)

even when they know, whats going on,
they wouldn't care less, how much i morn,
instead they treat me, just like a pawn,
they became self centered, as if my problem is gone...

when would i be happy, to see all these bright balloon,
nothing much to celebrate, alil too fast a lil too soon,
when will i heal, from this untreated wound,
been waiting every fortnight, await for the moon...

just because i look pass, doesn't mean it effect me not,
got to be strong, getting this blood to clot,
it'll take me some time, to get everything sought,
hoping you would understand, this is what i thought....

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Years From Now - Aizat Amdan

What will I be years from now
What will I wear, how will I look
I think too much, I think too much

Sometimes it's scary over thinking
What you have or haven't done
You think too much, you think too much

Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing treacherous game
And the star much shine
The colours seem so blurry

Will I end up all alone
Without a shoulder to cry on

What will I be years from now
I have answered them but none have answered me
And when my time has come
I hope my last seconds in this life will have you
Will have you

Will the rain smell the same
Will our loosing treacherous game
And neglect most people who
Seems so worthy

ps: its all bout the lyric...

Monday, December 13, 2010

Crossfit Central

Yesterday we had our first outdoor crossfit workout by team FFDU. suppose to start at 10am, but semuer2 tak ikot janji jepun so we kinda delayed to 11am. sorry for the burning hot daylight. if started on time, we are not gonna be this dark.. hhahahhahaa.....

anyway it was fun, 6 staff and 9 members participate in the event. we had like 10 stations which cover every fitness component. though the weights were light, but the reps kill them all. appreciate the sportsmanship shown by each and one of them.

due to not insufficient of staff, i have to pull out on the third stations. if not, i would have join you people.

here is the result of our crossfit challenge.

1 alex 78
2 kin mun 66
2 khairul 66
4 nazri 62
5 brandon 48

1 rowena 45
2 sue 40
3 ada 39
4 sham 35

after all set and done, they really asked for more. you people are really maniac. i love it...! till next challenge. if you dare.... thanks to all the staff and participant that join. you are not only fit, but you people are crossfit....! am proud of yah....!

Friday, December 10, 2010

when its destiny

it always kept me wonder, why has it always be me. to be getting such trouble and difficulties. then all the sudden certain unexpected yet pleasant thing just knocking to my door step and roll to my feet.... i never wanted the fame and glory. i just want to do what i like to do and let people recognize it from their point of view.

That's why my rhymes only appear on my blog. no other place. my mum kept asking me to get it publish or something through the media. but that not what i'm up for. bout all the shoots and walks, are just a 1 off thing. the appearance and coverage, simply means nothing. but then sometimes people just have bigger plan for you and the heights they want you to reach.

on countless time, I've doubt myself. about my skill, personality, traits, soft skills, confidence and etc. yeah I'm different. and an individual. that's for a start.

well, i suppose whens its destiny, theres no running away from it...

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

For Her by Reza Salleh

Can I see you tonight?
Will it be alright to see you tonight?

Lately I've been thinking about you,
I hope that you feel the same,
I've been wondering what I'd do without you.

Baby, shine me your smile,
Smile oh my worries away,
I love the way you sweeten my day.

And I come by too late,
Feeling tired on what do i do,
Do I call it a day?
Do I lay my head back I’m through?
Is this the end?
I don't think so.

I need to hear your sweet voice,
I really want to,
Be a peace inside the noise.

Darling, I'm aching inside,
Feels like there's a void in your place,
It's been to long since you were away.

I need to rub this sleep on my eyes,
I need to reinforce my hope,
There's a lady who is love of my soul.

And I need you right now,
And I’m missing you desperately,
Can I see you tonight?
I'll be quite no one would see,
Or would you say no,
Oh baby please don't.

Can't you see that I'm in love?
Won't you let me feel love?
Won't you let that feeling flow?

ps: this piece is dedicated to my girl...
just have to put this one us as a tribute to Reza for his recent album launch.
congrats man....!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Last Train Home by Ryan Star

You haven’t changed.
Stand in the light,
I need to see you,
uncover my eyes.
The tears coming down,
making lines on your face.
One for each year, now
that you’ve been away.

We were only kids,
we ran like water.
Your dad said,
stay away from my daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
can’t you just believe?

And if you wait for me,
I’ll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I’ll be your voice when you don’t know what to say.
I’ll be your shelter,
I’ll be your fate.
I’ll be forever,
wait for me.
I’ll be the last train,
I’ll be the last train home.

You were a storm,
it blew us away.
I wouldn’t leave you,
but you couldn’t stay.

We were only kids,
we ran like water.
Your dad said,
stay away from my daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
can’t you just believe?

And if you wait for me,
I’ll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I’ll be your voice when you don’t know what to say.
I’ll be your shelter,
I’ll be your fate.
I’ll be forever,
wait for me.
I’ll be the last train,
I’ll be the last train home.

We were only kids,
we ran like water.
I told your dad,
I love your daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
Hallie just believe.

And if you wait for me,
I’ll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I’ll be your voice when you don’t know what to say.
I’ll be your shelter,
I’ll be your fate.
I’ll be forever,
wait for me.
I’ll be the last train,
I’ll be the last train,
Hold on to love,
and wait for me.
I’ll be the last train,
I’ll be the last train home.
I’ll be the last train,
I’ll be your last train home

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Are you still having fun..?

Have you ever heard of the verse “Suka-suka akibatnya duka” ?

I’ve learnt it when I was small. It simply means if you kept on having fun, you’ll end up in despair. As easy and simple as that. As I look the people around me and I say to myself, the saying is true. Which brings me to my next point.

That the reason that I love to write and talk in despair and emoness. Cause by the end of the day, I would learn to appreciate life better. You could only endure such stuff till a certain point and there’s two way to go. Moving forward or stagnant in pain. If you work hard for what you believe in and putting all your energy towards your struggle, you would live a better life.

So have a lil fun while you at it, but buck up to secure your future. in the end of the day, it you and your own lfe.

the best way too predict the future is

Going for a trip?

Last Sunday, I got the privilege to catch a movie marathon with my mum. Just accompany her for the European movie festival. It was showing in Mid Valley International Screening. I went for at least 3 movies back to back. And it only cost RM 5 per screening. I was like, what the heck. We did get a chance to have a 30 min break in between for food and prayers. But it was fun. Just FYI, these are consider Indie films that is non blockbuster, and more in the creative arts of visual. No CGI, just pure emotion, camera angle and really great script and story lines. Those what really matters. To make a non blockbuster movie with their own local actors and makes them award winner. We are talking bout Cannes Movie Award (minus all the glam, but more of all the art). I manage to catch three movies.

First one was called ‘Leo’ from Sweden

This psycho drama covers Leo who just celebrated his 30th birthday with friends and family ended up injured as he and his girlfriend stumble into a street thugs. These incident was the thing that causes his girlfriend’s life. Woaw. Think about it. What would you feel if that happen to you? Till what extend would you be calm or to seek revenge. Though everything was in subtitle (as they were talking in Swedish), but the emotion that they brought to the silver screen was a turmoil in emotion. Rejection, anger, revenge, denial, suicide and tons more. The story ended up on a stand still. Which really kept the audience left the cinema thinking. What a beautiful ending. I love these types of movies as they really make you think. Sweet…

Second one was called ‘Until all Eternity’ from Austria

Basically it a love story, with a background a Communism in China. Where a local girl from Vienna, Austria fall in love with a Chinese policemen who went for training in Austria. She decided to go to China and marry the love of her life and stayed there forever letting go her family and future just to be with him. As the story goes, she tries to adapt to the life in China with language barrier and such. As the family grows, the husband has to switch job as they were in war and the communism activist was at large. Eventually he died and left her with all the love and culture that China has to offer. She didn’t regret it a single bit. That’s true love if you asked me.

And the final one is ‘Welcome’ from France

It’s about an Iraqi teen (Bilal) who fled his motherland just to go to UK to meet the love of his life. He was caught at France. So he decided to learn how to swim as the only obstacle to get to his heart was the English Channel. That’s almost 25km distends. Across the English Channel is a real test of endurance and courage as the temperature is super cold… of cause that’s the background of the story. As the focus was the divorced coach who train him to achieve such distant. He was also giving him shelter as he took him as his own son. Which is also against the law. In the end, Bilal was caught dead in the attempt of crossing. The coach later took a flight to see Mina in UK to give her the wedding ring that he gave Bilal. Yeah of cause it wasn’t a happy ending. But think bout the devotion of a war refugee just to go and be with his love one and escape immigrations. When you really love somebody, you go all out. Even if it’s cause you your life.

Enriching movies to sink in my mind. I adore these types of movies really much. As they sculpt arts and culture.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

My eid story

I know this would be wayyyy behind time. but let me describe the recent Eid Adha to you.
wasn't going back to my home town as i have to work on that next day. so on the eve, i wanted to hang out with the crew. udin got xam and need to study, eka was in banting and yasser was MIA.

so i decided to go to USJ 4 to get me some burger. just for your info, they put a certain type of fruit as a part of their salad. so i just have to go to that stall get me some of those. yeah its like across town. but its worth it.

sadly to say, they too close their shop. so i hang out with 'abg best' nasi lemak stall. had a chat and order some food. while waiting for food. i saw a familiar face storming into the car near by. i was wondering is it her..? then as both of them get into the car, they stop and whined down the passenger screen. it was alis and her friend. haven't seen her for along time. chat a lil, then they were off.

several min after that, some one from a passing by car shouted my name. it was Hisham (apit's brother) and his cousin or something. thats another bowling faces that i didnt got the chance to come across for a long time. all those time we had road trip taking te team for outstation competition. he was a helping hand indeed.

after finishing my food and such. as i was about to get up and pay, theres come yasser with two of his friends. i was like, hey, its a reunion....! just that all them came around at diffrent time. it was nice to see some familiar faces. had some drinks at radhi corner then was off.

due to that, the next morning i kinda miss out Solat eid adha. i got the the surau at my place around 815. fail to realized there they start at 8am. hish... bummer... went to the big mosque in kajang, they start 830.

stayed back to the the slaughter ceramony. but usually the done it slightly later. at least i try and make effort to go and watch. well thats my story, how was urs..?

that was my story. hope you had a great one to tell.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

What is sacrifice?

is it letting your dream and passion go..?
to give in to those who are dominaring?
sacrifice time and energy just to get an inch of an improvement?
working on holiday while others are celebrating?
taking the blame for those that is under you?
for a love one?
working long hours so that your family wont have to suffer?

for every single thing that you went through, its worth it...
your effort might not be recognize or notice...
but at least you have a clear conscious in your mind and heart.

"might not be the best, but at least you tried your best..."

have a a great Eid Adha.

I'm ok by Christina Aguilera

Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there

Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK

such powerful and dept lyric by the one and only. you could even feel the pain...

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Indecisive (Original Rhyme)

it got me thinking, every time you change your mind,
1 day you walked passed, another day you walk behind,
how would you expect, to finish up that climb,
you been walking around in circle, just to find the sign,
clear up your mind, open those eyes that's not blind,
pick your self up, its already half past nine,

after all these years, you've been doing fine,
might not have a lot, but still got food to dine,
because the end of the day, its all about heart and kind,
with all of your triumph, shouldn't be hearing you whine,
as they would kill one another, to have a glimpse what you've find,
so be happy and truthful, that your free and not bind

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Keeping it vague

people always ask me 'why' or 'what the heck I'm talking about' most of the time.. it seems to be very general and sometimes misunderstood by common people....some even say I mumble. Hrmmmmmm..... well this is my honest truth:

the reason why I divert the conversation on a daily basis. Or why I do it in such way is because, I don't want to make it an issue nor do I want to hurt or insult somebody. Who am I in a first place. Just and individual. Not a force, not an authority and not even a somebody. I'm simply the lil one. So I rather bite my tongue and keep my opinion to my self.... so I kept on writing post, shout out and even quotes. Maybe it doesn't reach out to that particular people. But at least its out of my chest. So be it.....

3am by Matchbox 20

she says it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
she's always woried about things like that
she says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
and she only sleeps when its raining
and she screams and her voice is straining

and she says baby
it's 3am I must be lonely
when she says baby
well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
she says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

she's got a little bit of something, God it's better than nothing
and in her color protrait world she believes that she's got it all
she swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to
and she only sleeps when its raining
and she screams, and her voice is straining

she believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
and the clock on the wall has been stuck at 3 for days, and days
she thinks that happiness is the mat that sits on her doorway
but outside its stopped raining



this is a piece by Rob Thomas for her mum who is battling cancer.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The Only Exception by Paramore

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream


You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Waiting For You (Original Rhyme)

you are so close, but never that far,
i've been waiting for you, inside my car,
so we could drove off, and never look back,
take me away from here, cant you see i'm a wreck ?

don't know how long can i stand, to live without you,
been hoping and dreaming, i wish it come true,
but im just a number, cant foresee the future,
at least it made me smile, each time i see our picture..

i still be me, no matter what happen,
trying to live with it, understanding the pattern,
standing my grond, while waiting for you,
just simply because, i miss you too...

inspired by a story i've heard recently.
hope you doing well.

Friday, October 22, 2010

taking you to the NEXT LEVEL....!

This year Halloween open week was wickedly awesome. Its not bout the deco, the dark lights, or the gravestone that we did for the place. But its the workout with a trainer program. It was simply fantastic if you ask me. Aside from Rip to the Bone, Triple S, Amazing CBF, I was hosting the Next Level routine.

Our version of a Crossfit. I cant tell you how much participant that we had so far, as the competition is still on. But the response was massive that every day since I started it, I have to do at least twice. Some even come for round two the next day around. Such a huge success. Just now, the lunch time crowd manage to cover 7 participant. I even have to tweak abit just to cater the number of people. Would like to thank all those that could come by and participate. It might not be as the real crossfit program, but I manage to improvise depends to the pattern of crowd that we have. Hope you have enjoyed it as I do.we finish it with some stretch and chat. was a great outing..

As I would love to say to all my crossfitters,

“the pain is here to stay,

find your weakness and make it your strength”

till next time people. train hard live well...

previous post:

ps: post up some comment if you like what you see...

Want more of Paramore..!

Had one of the best concert I ever been in my life. Paramore live in Malaysia. As reports say they are the top 3 best band to perform on stage. I must admit that i came in kinda late. Around 8.15. Me and Udin was like rushing in just so we didn’t miss anything. Udin said something like, ‘if I miss even 1 sec of Hayley appearance, you’ll be doom’ . Owh crap. I was making way to move around like no one bizznezz. Sorry for all the lil kids that I shove over or the brothers and sisters that I’ve shoulder blocked. I don’t think I did, but sorry in advance. Just in case.

Kinda miss out the opening act. Some local band called Y2K or something. Couldn’t judge their singing and performance, so just let them be. The seat was kinda cramp up in a way. But then again, don’t think we be sitting down so much. As the curtain close to get the band ready… music started playing. The crowd went wild. Each of the people head bang like mad. All the sudden, the curtain falls down. And Paramore appear, live in MALAYSIA.

They bring out their A game and rock it out hard. As the audience was jumping, cheering and even singing along, there were some unfortunate people that pass out during the event. I told sara, ‘are you thirsty? Just pass out and the medic will take you away and give some water.’ As ¼ of the show, nice people from tune talk or the organizer handed out some glow in the dark flare stick. It’s red in colors. I’ve took several to pass to the others. At first I wandering how the heck I’m gonna light it up. Reading directions in the dark doesn’t help at all. Got fed up the flare stick, I just like broke it in two. Then I lighted up. The people beside me got into the same trouble, so I kinda guide them on tips on how to do it. Glad to be at help. Hueee…

The head banging, the guitar riffs, the side flip and everything else was simply awesome. Was a bit of a down fall when the P.A system kinda screwed up in the middle of their acoustic set. But they came back stronger than ever. Bought some souvenir for those that left behind due to exam and such. Especially for tykah. She hate it when I mms her the pic from the concert.

After all is done, we went for some food and drinks at Murni @ Taipan. After a session of Explorace, we finally found it. Sara two friends tag along with udin. I suppose they are paying him for fees or something. I hope. There, esha and afif hang around with us. It was nice to catch up with her then. After food, we went back. We would always want to see them back here. Come back soon Paramore….! Your FAMILY in Malaysia awaits you again.

Supreme Sunday

Last Sunday was 1 of the best day ever that I had as far as I could remember. I didn’t won anything, I just got to meet all of my favorite friends and family. Lunch time, I got the chance to have some food with my dearest fizah. Never thought the place we ate was actually a Thai based outlet. All the sudden they said sawadikap. All these while I thought it was a franchise from the US. Hish….

Came back to office to finish hanging up my prop for the upcoming Halloween open week in our club. That one is really scary ish if you asked me. Went to pyramid to hang out with the crew. The new late nyte crew. A change of marble instead of the bosh. It’s all good. As we are still a crew from KJ/Kj. As Udin and Eka reach the alley, we waited for Yasser to come around. We had dinner at the gigantic burger outlet around. It great to hang with the whole crew away from the working environment. After all is set and done, we went up stairs. The crew is going for l4d. I have to skip that one around.

3rd part of the day was having an update session with the lil stutter one. Tykah is in the house. It’s has been awhile since the last time I saw her. We update each other just like those times after training. About work, school, bowling, and even the latest gossip and such. Hahhaha….. this lil sister of mine. Miss her a lot.

As I’ve meet up all of my favorite people that I could imagine, there is still one person that would make it a complete set. That will be miss ‘ainabanana’ her self. Had a talk with her for a while just to see how she is doing. As hyper as ever. She talked bout her current ‘guy’ in her life, study, the Sunway Collage terry fox run, and the Halloween party she be having.

Seriously, I couldn’t have asked for more. Though we didn’t spent much time in each session, but these are there people that matters to me. And I’m proud to be apart of each of their lives.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Khabarkan Mereka (Karya Asli)

untuk apa mereka lawan, benda yang bukan punya mereka,
semata-mata untuk ambil kesempatan, keatas kami semua,
tanpa mengenal nilai, budaya dan juga bangsa,
hati dipenuhi nafsu dan tamak haloba,

mungkin aku terlalu naif, untuk tidak memahami,
diriku diperbesarkan, dengan dengan budi dan nadi,
dibandingkan andika, yang petah berbahasa,
darah umpama raksa, sentiasa mencari mangsa

biarlah aku mengalah, tiada guna berentap,
walaupun tiap kali, hatiku kian tersentap,
jadi aku berdiam diri agar semuanya senyap,
sebelum semuanya disini terus menjadi lenyap...

nota: luahan hati yang spontan.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

The Trainer's Clients...

One of the trainer mention this to me, and i just got to agree with her. she said that : the clients has a certain click with their trainer. that's the reason why they took training in the first place. of cause certain people take awhile to search for which trainer that suit them and their style. but they are somewhere out there.

i've seen some trainers who are cheeky have more or less the same type of clients. while others have a a silent and unique type of clients as the same go to their trainer. for me, i suppose i got those that need HELP. i've seen a certain trend in my clients. and i'm grateful to be training each one of them.....hueee.....!

train hard people.... see you on the floor...

Missing by Everything but the girl

I step off the train
I'm walkin' down your street again
And past your door
But you don't live there anymore
It's years since you've been there
And now you've disappeared somewhere
Like outer space
You've found some better place

And I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)

Could you be dead?
You always were two steps ahead
Of ev'ryone
We'd walk behind while you would run
I look up at your house
And I can almost hear you shout, down to me
Where I always used to be

And I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)

Back on the train
I ask why did I come again
Can I confess
I've been hangin' 'round your old address?
And the years have proved
To offer nothin' since you moved
You're long gone
But I can't move on

And I miss you
Oh-oh (Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you, yeah
(Like the deserts miss the rain) And I miss you

I step off the train
I'm walkin' down your street again
Past your door
I guess you don't live there anymore
It's years since you've been there
And now you've disappeared somewhere
Like outer space
You've found some better place

And I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you, yeah
(Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you, and I miss you
(Like the deserts miss the rain)
And I miss you, yeah
(Like the deserts miss the rain)

Deserts miss the rain
(Like the deserts miss the rain) Like the deserts miss the rain
(Like the deserts miss the rain)

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Forsaken city (Original Rhyme)

as the sky drops down, for a couple of second,
the thunder and lightning, simply got me awaken,
suddenly i realized, a huge gap that has been vacant,
still cant figure out, what has been taken,
as i find myself, in a city that's forsaken

where the sun don sleep, all i see is light,
when doing whats wrong, would consider a right,
yet i don't understand, they have no shame to hide,
do as they wish, to fulfill their delight,
hoping end of the day, it don't haunt them and bite,

as i try to blend in, and live with their lie,
i got my own value, just try to get by,
to reach for the stars, in the sky so high,
geared up my wings, prepare to fly,
i never stop trying, till the day i die....

Only Now (Original Rhyme)

now you barge in, straight into my life,
only now you care, after submerge a long dive,
why now, why not never?
you paint a perfect picture, that you were dead or disappear

now im doing well, in a life without you,
and now you messing around, any time you like to,
now i dont understand, i dont have a clue,
you come as you please, dont know what you've unleashed

now that time, has meet us again,
what now you want,? i try to keep my sane,
now you want to start, a picture so taint,
always been your rule, wont never endure your pain....

ps: buzz off....

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Light Writing by Liyana Fizi

looking back at last September
two years gone I can't remember
when it all began

swimming in a cloud of memories
did I call you, did you ring me?
and did I pick up any?

‘cause I can't recall
every word from your rhyme
you walked away
said I'm wrong but its fine
tragedy happens in a wonderful time

and I fell for the the wrong mission
drowning in slow motion
lucky I found
the photograph

this is not the way it used to be
with me pretending you and me
but I can't see the way you see me

you tried to
help me out
but it seems
it didn't work out
the more you say
the less I can look up

‘cause I can't recall
every word from your rhyme
you walked away
said I'm wrong but its fine
tragedy happens in a wonderful time

and I fell for the the wrong mission
drowning in slow motion
lucky I found

the photograph
show me something, someone
that I left behind
i know it’s worth a thousand words
i know

i just found out this tune from our very own local.
try go check out the song. its nice.....

Monday, October 4, 2010

Nite market....

I don't know bout you, but I've always like to go for a stroll through 'Market Place'. Regardless if its hyper, super, night, flea, wet and even artsy. Its not about buying stuff so much. But to see how they people try to promote their stuff and also the variety of things that is up for grab. Hrmmmmm.....

It easily to be amazed by looking at stuff in an artsy market and ill totally lost track of time. Its a crime I know. Here are some things that have caught my eyes:

sometime its like therapy for me to ease off the mind. Away from all the mess up in life. As everything is in order, clean & tidy, and properly presented. Weird I know. But It serve me well. Its a place where I get ideas for some writing too in those walk. so, Groceries anyone..?

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Just pick up.... (Original Rhyme)

been waiting awhile till you pick up,
to share things that happen, each second each gulp,
its not an emergency, nor its a cry for help
just to get updated, only if you 're still up

i miss your voice, every single day,
wondering all the time, of what would you say,
if you saw me, staring the stars as i lay,
just to admire, the shine and the ray

i wish i could walk, and stroll by the bay,
as the wave hit my toes, I'll let it as it may,
hope someday you walk, and headed my way,
just to have a chat, just to say hey

no matter how busy, either of us would be,
I'll try to reach out, every single time I'm free,
we ain't that distant, not apart by the sea,
I've did my part, now just have to wait and see..

theres several people that contribute this emotion for me to write such thing.
but be alarm.... its just is what it is.

Trapped Oven (Original Rhyme)

there's no escape in this trap oven,
cant you take a break, & breath for a second?
when will it stop?, until what is proven?
instead we see rage, that could not govern

I'm sick and tired, to hear these quarrel,
day after day, its a never ending battle,
only once i wish, if all would just settled,
i suppose that would be, when either one is fatal

forgive me if, Ive been keeping it silent,
need a piece of mind, as quite as the island,
wont be any use, if i drawn into the violence,
I'm better than that, ill stay strong as the iron..

one of my backdated emotion put into words...
imagine the agony of having it inside of me but no time to let it all out...

Monday, September 27, 2010

Home is where the heart is

its funny how this saying makes perfect sense. and that's what me and my mum found out last raya. regardless if your with friends or family. Home should make you feel like comfortable, calm, with the warm hospitality. we found home at the place which we least expected. that is among nearby family friends.

either its with mak su's family of girls or mama radz's EXTENDED familia. at least they treat you better and accept you for who you are. basically we didn't got the chance to spent time back in kampung as most of us are working. but to compensate the raya mood, we went beraya in the klang valley. nothing fancy, just great people that come together as friends. home is where everyone matters.

dont get me wrong, i like going back to see my niece and cousin. but here is where my heart lies. Kj rocks....! (either small j or big J in the accroname, its all good)

Friday, September 24, 2010

kaki bakar...

I'm more into radio then TV. As I travel a lot compare to I stayed at home. It has serve me well. But I cant get through this trend that the radio station been putting up.

Basically I'm talking bout prank calls. It enough with punk'd the tv show by Ashton Kutcher. No offense to all the Ashton's fan all around. But Its a lil too much don't you think? I would consider them as immature bullies that is trying to hold up their reign from high school. Come on people... grow up. Up to my count, I've heard 3 radio station been doing it. What you try to prove...? is it fun laughing out through other people pain..? I'm sorry if it does. It just show how shallow could you be.

jgn nak terkejut beruk sangat...!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Askar by Wani Ardy

Jantungku kekeringan alasan untuk berdegup
Dan jiwaku terkorban di medan perjuangan, penantian, impian
Harapan itu senjata yang paling merbahaya buat sekalian umat manusia
Seperti jarum beracun yang membunuh senyap
Seperti segudang dadah yang merosak

Sembunyi darah ini di balik seribu perisai besi
Apa yang dipandang tinggi bila jarum yang mengakhiri

Aku mayat askar yang berpura-pura seolah ia berjalan tegap
Tak ku benar jasad rompongnya berehat satu saat pun
Untuk mengingatkan bahawa ia telah mati

Tolong jangan diujar lagi, aku tak mahu mati berkali
Esok aku kan tiba di lapangan terbang dan menghilang
Harapan itu senjata yang paling merbahaya buat sekalian umat manusia
Seperti jarum beracun yang membunuh senyap
Seperti segudang dadah yang merosak

Sembunyi luka ini di balik seribu perisai besi
Apa yang hendak dipuji bila jarum yang mengakhiri

Aku mayat askar yang berpura-pura seolah ia bernafas lancar
Tak ku benar jasad rompongnya berehat satu saat pun
Untuk mengingatkan bahawa ia telah mati

raw words from this teacher / writer that even made my mum jelez. hahaha.... and yet its a strong message that she tried to send thru.

this year rawye..!

It’s a bit different this year around. We basically left Kajang right after raya prayers. Usually we went back on eve or several days before. Basically, I only got to Friday and Saturday off only. Though I did asked for Thursday off too. So this year is kinda different pattern. After beraya at home, we went off to prayers. I met up with Hambali on the way back. My friend back in high school. The wife is expecting a 2nd child due in the several month times. Congrats man. Around 1030, we left to Epoh.

Since we won’t be back for a long time, we travel light. Really really light. We drove back mightymarques. I got work on Sunday. So going back home town for a while would be good enough. I just want to see my cousins and nieces. . Even if I got the chance to hang with them just for a while. That’s all I asked for this raya. Didn’t get any new clothes for this year around. It bothered me for a while, but then again who cares. I didn’t even got the chance to go shopping anyway..

Reached epoh around 2.30pm. Straight away we went to arwah tok grave, to pay our respect. The back road, has clear up really good. Its so much nearer to get there now. As we reached lorong long jaffar, sidd was about to leave. Apparently he got to go for work today. Since joe came with us back, sid gave us a ride on his turbo charge Mivec. Owh mann, its so fast.. then he is off to work. Maybe later we will drop by and see how he is doing.

As we arrived there, everyone is already in a lentok mode. I was still hyper since I wasn’t driving. Fail to realized that 1st shawal was on Friday. No wonder they aint much people around. Its prayer time. Hahhahaha….. it’s all good. Had some food. Tho I do miss my rendang tok and also kuih sarang semut. Well basically the rendang is me and mak cak project, and the kuih sarang semut was always been arwah mami nor and girls specialty. So I just have to live without having those anymore. With the lost of arwah tok and mami nor, maybe that would be the reason that it aint the same anymore. I mish both of them and all my long lost cousin. Hope you are doing good where ever you are. Al-fatihah.

Later that nite, we went to Giant at Tambun. Sidd is working there as one of the supervisor or something at one of the fast food outlet. At first there were 9 of us in total. Then the typhoon and twister brothers came in (those lil hyper active kids) and additional 3 kids all together. Took plenty of pictures just like last year. My neice is also a camwhore just like me. It runs in the family. We missed out Alicia for some reason. But other than that, its kewl..

While waiting for sidd to finish work, we hang out in Tambun for a while. Watch some dvd of 300 and such. Then sidd came in. we went back to manjoi to send sha2 and atirah. After that, we went out for a ride. They were talking automobile and such. On the way back, they gave me the chance to drive the mivec. I got to be honest, it was my first time. with the short clutch and the bucket seat, its scarry. But at least I manage to reached home without killing the engine. Cuz it’s a racing clutch.

Though we missed out abg boi and also abg ayi’s family, but it was an ok raya if you asked me. Better than celebrating it while working rite? Just like my promise to my lil cousin and niece. I didn’t change rite..? hope to see yall again. At least my cautious is clear. Did my duty as a son, nephew and uncle.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Say What You Want by Texas

Twenty seconds on the back time
I feel you on the run
Never lived too long to make right
I see you're doing fine
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer slide I can no longer run
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer hide for it's no longer fun

Well, you can say what you want
But it won't change my mind
I'll feel the same about you
And you can tell me your reasons
But it won't change my feelings
I'll feel the same about you

What I am is what you want of me
Now that I'm not there
Took the tables away from you
It's turned that I don't care
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer slide I can no longer run
And when I get that feeling
I can no longer hide for it's no longer fun

I've said goodnight try to sleep tight
Just dream of me
Go close your eyes cause I'll close mine
The sun will shine from time to time


In life theres is so many things to envy about. Its simply human to envy. Because NONE of us are perfect. Some are wealthier, healthier, lovable, likeable, successful, talented, influential, prettier, stronger and the list goes on and on and on. Of cause we would like to have all the good things to us. But reality says otherwise. Thats why God is fair. Even if your rich, may be your don't have a peace of mind. If your prettier, maybe you are not healthy. Or even if your are talented, maybe you are not likeable.

So what we do, we envy of things that others are and things that we are not. Why don't we just sit back, relax and regroup. Accept you for who you are, learn to love yourself. Then only you are in a stable state of mind. Just remember, if GOD gave you an extra something on a certain trait, something else is gonna be lesser. Just to see if your grateful or not.

I'm happy with my life. It could be slightly better. But I'm thankful with what I have now. Health is the upmost priority. Just taking 1 step at a time.

One of my favorite quote :

Danilov: I've been such a fool, Vassili. Man will always be a man. There is no new man. We tried so hard to create a society that was equal, where there'd be nothing to envy your neighbour. But there's always something to envy. A smile, a friendship, something you don't have and want to appropriate. In this world, even a Soviet one, there will always be rich and poor. Rich in gifts, poor in gifts. Rich in love, poor in love.

Taken from the lines of “Enemy at the gates”

- the green eyed monster of jealousy -

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Missing In Action (Original Rhymes)

as I lift my head up, from all these haze,
and take a look around, with a deep blurry gaze,
what have I been missing, through out all this days,
life is like a riddle, a never ending maze..

you asked whats wrong, and I let my heart out,
but you didn't listen, towards whats its all about,
so I back out stand down, towards your pride and doubt,
as I drown in the crowd, that been cheering so loud..

so let me be me, simply missing in action,
quietly writing, from that deep dark section,
not a perfect picture, but with a witty caption,
just a deprive soul, running away from fiction

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Run by Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

waow.... these band are super awsome. the lyric is really artful.
you don't see that too much now days.

This is my obsession

If Usher has a song call 'Confession', ill have My Obsession as a post on my blog. Lets face the facts, everyone of us has an obsession. Some more than others. Obsession slowly get you hook as an addiction and sometimes turns to be a complications..

I really love t-shirt. I don't mind the brands, as long as it has a nice design. I got hook with design. Its so sick man. Every now and then, I kept on checking them new design and such.this one is call "independent"

As music and lyric plays a big part in my life, I kept on updating my self with those new melancholic songs that I always love to hear and sing along. Songs speaks what your lips and tongue cant say it out. So it basically tells you whats in the heart.

Other than than I suppose would be bookstore. Especially the arts section. You could get tons of idea and stuff to create a superb artwork either for your self or someone else.

Earphones and shades....! the another things that I cant get enough. I'm always fascinated with design and comfort. And also, they have to fit me and my face. Hahahhaa...

well thats my top 5. theres plenty more. But not to crazy about it like I'm with these 5. there are part and parcel of my life. Cant get it away from me. And I'm loving it.

Its all just lies (Original Rhymes)

holding to the words, that you once said,
even though if you, going to deliver it late,
I promise to you, that my heart wont hate,
ill be standing right here, waiting at the gate...

no matter what you said, just to put me to ease,
I still keep it written, in that long winding list,
regardless the pain, as I bare all the risk,
as your lies I hold and trust, its more like a tease...

but I hope that one day, you would stop all those lie,
those sweet promises, that I cant afford to buy,
until it will cost, someone to die,
only then you would bother, and start to ask why..

ps: sorry for the long gap. been busy...

Thursday, August 26, 2010

the new entrepreneur

Last night, I got to go to Shah Alam to see Abg Din and his new found business. He is on hari raya clothing sales. Woaw its a massive thing over there in Shah Alam Melawati Indoor Stadium. Manage to pick up yasser just to check out the air there. Hrmmmm.... all raya goodies are sold there. From baju kurung, kebaya, sampin, songkok, kuih raya and etc. they even have a snake expo there with a minimum charge of 4 bucks, islamic arts painting, some photography shots for sale. I was really facinated by the artwork of cause. The painting is done there and then. All it took was 15min to get it done. The outcome, was really nice.

Kak alin and abg zd was also there to buy some stuff. They even bought a painting of their name in khat. FOS also have their own sales over there. The whole indoor arena was filled with raya goodies that feast the eyes.

People, its open from 1230pm – 1130pm. Please do come down and don't 4get to say hey...!