i suppose so...

i scored 55.
how bout you..?

http://www.writing.com/main/quiz/item_id/1145443

Melancholy

Temperament
Sensitive to anguish of others
Analytical
Deep thinker
Self-introspective
Artistic or musical
Self-sacrificing
Poetic and philosophical
Appreciates beauty
Perfectionist with high standards
Detail conscious
Neat and tidy
Organized
Sees the problem
Seeks creative solutions
Must finish what is started
Content to stay behind the scenes
Likes charts, numbers, and lists
Cautious to make friends
Will listen to complaints
Problem solver for others
Moved to tears with compassion
Tries not to raise attention
Serious Conscientious
StudiousReflective
Not practical--Dreamer
Self-centeredPessimistic
Moody
Revengeful
Skeptical

is this me..?

Melancholic

adjective
1.
characterized by or causing or expressing sadness; "growing more melancholy every hour"; "her melancholic smile"; "we acquainted him with the melancholy truth" [syn: melancholy]
noun
1.
someone subject to melancholia
WordNet® 3.0, © 2006 by Princeton University.


The Melancholic:

• Is self-conscious, easily embarrassed, timid, bashful.
• Avoids talking before a group; when obliged to he finds it difficult.
• Prefers to work and play alone. Good in details; careful.
• Is deliberative; slow in making decisions; perhaps overcautious even in minor matters.
• Is lacking in self-confidence and initiative; compliant and yielding.
• Tends to detachment from environment; reserved and distant except to intimate friends.
• Tends to depression; frequently moody or gloomy; very sensitive; easily hurt.
• Does not form acquaintances readily; prefers narrow range of friends; tends to exclude others.
• Worries over possible misfortune; crosses bridges before coming to them.
• Is secretive; seclusive; shut in; not inclined to speak unless spoken to.
• Is slow in movement; deliberative or perhaps indecisive; moods frequent and constant.
• Is often represents himself at a disadvantage; modest and unassuming.

The melancholic person is but feebly excited by whatever acts upon him. The reaction is weak, but this feeble impression remains for a long time and by subsequent similar impressions grows stronger and at last excites the mind so vehemently that it is difficult to eradicate it.

Such impression may be compared to a post, which by repeated strokes is driven deeper and deeper into the ground, so that at last it is hardly possible to pull it out again. This propensity of the melancholic needs special attention. It serves as a key to solve the many riddles in his behavior.

http://www.fisheaters.com/quizm.html


PS: hrmmm its weird.. yesterday one of the members here call me a melancholic person. she said that due to was reffering to all of my rhyme and poetry. hahahaa.... at first i dont know what it means. so i did a scroll check on it. in a way, may be it is. what yall think..?

Muay Thai anyone..?

Yesterday we try out the ‘Muay Thai’ training. It was fun. I got to let go all of my frustration on my kick. Cuz my jab and hook is kinda lame anyway. I partnered with firdauz on that one. Thankz mann. We took turn to attack and guard. When I was guarding the kicking pad, Edgar was going all crazy with his fancy footwork. And all sudden I was caught off guard by a fast kick that the padding hit my lower lips. I took off the guard n kick his ass for a while (I should do that). Lower set of teeth gum bleed a little. But it’s all good. Consider that as a souvenir for participating. Hahaha….


we be having a Muay Thai intro if anyone is intrested. next monday.. open to members only..hope to see you around..~

Sick & Tired..?

The word malas is being used too freely these days. No longer people see it as a negative word. Seriously to me, I’m allergic to the word itself. Shows that your not fulfilling the GOD time given to you. I try not to be as the word doesn’t exist in my life dictionary. We try our best to live our life to the fullest. In any time if you are faced with a curve ball, deal with it. Take a chance this life, you might even succeed on what you do best. You never know what is your potential until you even try.

I’ve been through a near death experience before. I thank God for giving me a second chance in life. That’s why I am who I am right now. You don’t have to go through that just to change you course in living. Just change your mind set and go all out.


Sick and tired of being criticized
Sick and tired of being getting by
Sick and tired of not even try
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired

Nappy roots - sick and tired


If life beats you down, go stronger. What’s over is done. Don’t repeat it again.

Funeral Cycle

Recently I went to a funeral of my close family friend. It’s her granddad. Apparently I was around town. So I pay my respect towards them. I always cry on funerals. Sorry about that. No matter how close or distant am I to them, I always do. Especially when you see the face of those loves one who are left behind. It brings tears to the doorstep of my eyes.

Like any other funeral there will be a lot of relatives. The sun was burning hot though. Had my shades on. It’s sad enough to burry your own loves ones, but in the background of the funerals I see some people giggle or laughing about something. Sorry for being too bold on saying this. I may not be the best of person to argue such stuff. But please do be considerate on other peoples lost. Yes it is a reunion. But doesn’t mean you can’t empathize at least for several minutes. It seems to be a trend every now and then.

But seriously it gives us the awareness that this is just temporary people. Its not that I love funerals, but it’s a slap to the face for me to wake me up and do a different with my life before it’s too late. This whole world is coming to an end. Its a cycle of life.

Fuel - Shimmer

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label
She says she's ashamed
And she can take me for a while
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterfliess, reality escapes her
She says that love is for fools that fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away....
Guess I'll let it go


ps:
another one of my fav band ever. Fuel..
simply spellbinding..
nuff said..

Menenung Mimpi (Karya Asli)

Biarkan saja ku menenung mimpi,
Kerna hakikatnya tidak kan ku kecapi,
Namun ku usaha untuk berdiri disini,
Ditemani tiada, hanya seorang diri..

Ku tak tahu bilakan ku kembali,
Mungkinkah ia akan kekal abadi,
Senantiasa fikiran ku diambang fantasi,
Realiti terlampau perit, halusinasi kan ku jauhi..

Sampai bila kan ku berdikari,
Mengejar mimpi yang ku jejaki,
Ku harap ku takkan bersedih hati,
Kepada yang tinggalkan ku jauh pergi..


ps:
supprise everyone with my FIRST malay rhyme.
seriously im in shock myself.
never tought i had it in me.
to mummy, how this version..?
she always pester me to do in malay.
happy now..? hahhaha... i just dont like to be pushed.

to esha, babah zainal and mama radz sorry for your lost.
dedicate this one for you all.
much luv

-j@a-

new treads...

Last tuesday night we had to stay back after work as the new set of equiptment is coming in. We started at 11pm. at last we be getting new stuff. Seems that the new equiptment are bigger and better and softer to the knees. since its is slightly bigger, the number of machine that went out

is more than the one that came in.

here is rakin 1:1 and my boss audrey.


it was a hassel to bring it in as only 1 equiptment can only go down the lift one at a time. so we have to wait for the logistic people to get it done. took around 15 people to get it done. at first we tought what was the reason for us to stand by. so some of the 1:1 went back.
and only left the FI around.



as the time pass 3am, most of the equitment is brought down. and we gonna open at 6.30am..? can we manage..? then one by one the new equiptment arrived. we have to help out as the a man power has decreased and on break. manage to assemble the top of the treadmill all by our self. with guidance and instruction. we are working against time.




manage to get all things done by 9am in the morning. as we finish our eyes are all heavy caused by mr sandman.. and we have to report in duty at 2pm later on..? hope i could make it. driving back home was a challange. fell a sleep off the wheel a couple of time. even till now, im still recovering all those postpone appointment with my bed. not enough time. so i sorry if i dont reach out as much as i use too. hope to see you around..

Soul Searching (Original Ryhme)

Its only human, to be afraid,
Never know the outcome, of what we create,
Was it too soon or we just late?
Or we try too hard, that we start too hate?

Searching for my soul, while driving down these streets,
Thinking to myself, when the next time we’ll meet?
Been raining so much, it took away the heat,
Memories of you, I hope I don’t delete..

power marathon

Pardon me for not blogging last week. Its been a very hectic week . trust me on that. I was working early shifts. Started around 630am – 3.30pm. But day by day, I got appointment at night at least till 8 or 9. So I hang around the club more. Don’t get me wrong, I love what I’m doing right now, but I’ve been missing a lot of appointment with my bed for a session of ”shut eyes”. Yet I’m energized (I guess)

Last Friday it self, I got casual leasing in IBM Malaysia. Near one world hotel I suppose. Went there with boss Shanti and FM Audrey. Why not. Haven’t been to one of these things before. It s actually a ‘Women’s Day convention’. I was like, the only guy around. My goodness. Its like trap in the Amazon (Wonder Women’s world, where there’s no men insight.) believe me, I’m not complaining. After awhile I got use too all the estrogen hormone around me. Finish around 4 actualy.

Later that nite, I got appointment from 4.30 – 9.30 non stop. Yikes. I don’t know why I plan out such events on my day like that, but it I’m off on Saturday. So ill be up at least on Sunday morning after a long night rest. Hahhahaaa…. As if..

On the weekend, went down to N9 for coaching. One of my previous students needs a bit of a tweaking. Went down south right after my Sunday morning shift. Road was wet and traffic was heavy. Tonight ill be on overtime (as if there is such thing) new gym equipment be coming in. I hope I got the energy to come to work on Wednesday tho.

a beautiful struggle (Original Ryhme)

When can I enter, your rose garden of trust..?
Should I wait here, until I start to rust?
You act so cold, yet you manage to lure,
Just give me a sign, so I could make things clear,

Now that you’re gone, you say it’s a must,
Start to be close, but now I see is dust,
Hope you would remember, cause distance makes me fear,
I crave for you voice, addicted I got to hear..

Flashes of Life

Ever feel that you are being told to your face things that you are, things that you are prone to do and things that u never realized that became a habit of yourself? A long time friend came back from overseas recently. Fail to realize that she studies astrology. To me, I don’t really trust it very much especially the day by day horoscope. I like to live my life at the moment, on my own terms with God’s willing.

Just for the fun of it, I told my date of birth and categorized it to the zodiac sign grouping. One after another she told me what Cancerian are all about. I might say 70% of is dead on truth, 20% of it is things that I don’t even realized exist within me while the last 10% is a bit off. Being told all that, I felt like life itself is flashing in front of my eyes one after another. It did gives me the creeps and like a slap to the face. Yeah I know that astrology is a long term studies of tides, moon and time of the day. A lot more aspect that contribute to these studies of human behavior. So now I could understand my self a bit better. Again I’m not fully believed in it completely, but ill keep an eye open for it.

Ps:
we are not womanizer ok..!
and we are not always crappy…

Go Blog or Gobblok..?

It’s been a while since I last put a post here. Sorry for my delay. Was being happy for a while. Only God knows why. Well at least I’m back with vengeance and sorrowness of the heart. In my quest. I was going around “soul searching”. Friends said I’m a workaholic. Some even ask, “Why you work so hard? Trying to forget bout something in the past izzit..?” hrmmmm….May be. Or running from something.

You could never escape.
You could only run from pain,
but never escape from it.

(X-Men Origin)

They said that because I’m working on the weekends too. There’s a lot of weekend warrior under my belt. So I have to work regardless the amount of rest I got. Well that’s what you got to do when your contribution is the foundation to support the family. Apparently, Joe (my big bro) is staying with us for a few months. He said something bout moving down south. Waiting for a job there I suppose. Good luck big homie! Jgn sepah2kan rumah dah…

Seems that mummy’s blog “Menimbang Rasa”got more hit than I have these couple of days. Congratulations. I taught you well in the art of blogging. Go ahead and do what you do best. Though she started a bit later than I am, her post is like almost everyday. Ill be having a packed day for today. To added things up, I m working early morning next week onwards. Yeah…! Less time to rest! Everything seems peachy. Great time to blog and rhyme. Hope yall be waiting for it. Have a great weekend….