Momma's cry (Original Rhyme)

As you stayed strong, through all of these years,
to the time you broke down, and filled with tears,
patiently I wait, wanting to hear,
try making you proud, give you something to cheer..

You been through that road, for far too long,
I was there to support you, all awhile and all along,
to check on you, when your in doubt or in the wrong,
I knew you too well, just like my favorite song..

So dry off those tears and pick your self up,
its just a speed bump, you don't need to gulp,
we been through worst, will cure with just a rub,
momma don't you worry, definitely God will help

The quest...!

Really went around KL yesterday. Consider my off day. So I went to all the places that I’ve yearn to go but put t hold. 1st of all, I went to Amcorp Mall in search of a kettlebell. I totally fell in love with it. Apparently there was a big garage sale which take place every weekend. From Japan baseball jersey, vinyl records, CD Singles, stamps, dolls, and even a batman face mask. hahhahaa….. manage to get myself an old Gabrielle greatest collection cd vol 1 (which I so deeply in loved…!). her sounds are like Norah Jones or Sade but way more cheerful. then I went to the fitness store and get myself the kettlebell. Tryout the gym stick, push up bar, kettle bell, and also the resistant band. its like a small gym wit stuff...

Next stop, Pertama Complex. Hahahhaaa…. It’s situated just beside Sogo. Talking about nostalgic. I still remember, Last time I was around that area was when I march pass Dataran Merdeka in conjunction with the Merdeka celebration in 1996. I represented the army cadet. I went there to find myself a set of skittle for plyometric training. Traffic around that was a drag. Hrmmmmm…..

As I was about to leave KL town, I had my last and final stop. Annex and Central Market. Every time I leave my home, there’s this big billboard showing the grand Central Market. Love to drown myself with arts and craft. Here they held my first indie gig that I attended. That time around was a salute to the female vocalist. Performance featured Ana Raffali, Robot Asmara, Sundae and such. It was a long outing for me. But it was worth it. every single second of it.

Faith by seven collar t-shirt

Take a walk I'll hold your hands for now
It's happening, it's happening
Makes it hard to lose another night

I'll pretend that I'm a man for now
It's difficult, it's difficult
To soothe a wounded heart

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

I'll drink water because my blood has dried
It's different, it's different
Than anything you've seen or heard before

Take a picture, hold that smile forever
I'll drink it everyday till it becomes another skin

Before you go, give me all of your love
Before you go, I'll give you all of mine

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier
Wish it could be easier
I can't breathe
If it makes it easier
If it makes it easier to breathe

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it

Fading away
Faith is a friend
You make it or break it


ps: one of my fave indie bands.
awsome deep full lyrics.
wish i could write as them. grrr......

Deklamasi puisi di ABC

Last night I went and fetch mummy from KL Sentral. She just got back from Ipoh. One of my aunty was seriously ill and later passed away yesterday morning due to the spread of breast cancer(Al- Fatihah). As we were reminiscing all the time we were there for them, each one of us wrote a sad but beautiful rhyme for my aunty and their love ones that was left behind. Four grown up princesses, which I haven’t seen for quite a while. Glad that I went back to Ipoh last Tuesday. Didn’t get the chance to see Mami Nor, but manage to catch up with Ayuni (the eldest) instead.

So there was the two us, eating dinner at a restaurant nearby. So I’ve updated her on my latest writings. I read her my latest rhyme ‘As for now’. While listening to me, she took out a note pad and start writing. Talking bout struck by inspiration. It’s really important to jot down what ever that comes to your mind at any particular time. I usually use my cellphone to keep track with ideas. Or maybe title even.

Below is the puisi that mummy wrote:

Keberangkatan Pulang
(untuk ayuni, najwa, hidayah dan azlina)

Tiba-tiba,
kita jadi dua manusia asing,
dan aku hampir
tak mengenali mu
disebalik topeng hayat itu
sempat ku sapa
sepasang mata mu yang lesu
dan di pucat wajah
walau ku pasti
kau tak mengetahui kehadiran ku

Nor
hari ini tamatlah derita mu
tamatlah kembara itu
di tanah gersang
di malam tak berbintang
di lembah tanpa kasih sayang
dan dalam rasa berdosa ini
aku merasa lega
kerna Dia akan menyambut mu
di bumi syuhada
Al-fatihah

(Ipoh 20hb March 2010 by siti ruqaiyah hashim)


This truly reminds me of the Lepak Café in kelana mall or Gravy Baby in Sri Kembangan. Cafés which features live acts by indie artist / bands or even poets. Great place for art lovers. Sharing a simple common interest. Mummy always tell me, ‘you as a writer. Just go write what’s close to the heart. Not what you want to think that you want to write.’ Apparently my flare is mostly towards angst and sorrow. I’m not always in that state of mind, bealive me.

“You don’t choose destiny, it chooses you”

As for now (Original Rhyme)

As I came back to that empty house,
shared tears and laughter, then suddenly pause...
wishing things were, how much it was,
then I stumbly cry, without a cause..

As they grew up, before our eyes,
to the time they left, full with cries,
they felt so betray, with all those lies,
simply walking away, to be more wise...

As we walk through heat and chilly night,
have our own battle, that we need to fight,
hoping that we succeed with all of our might,
till one day we'll meet up, under a bright moon light.

dedicated to my cousins.
stay strong girls...

Max Hesitation (Original Rhyme)

make up your mind and let it be clear,
don't you hesitate when decision become near,
live it up a little, there's nothing to fear,
just step on it, proceed to next gear,
why you stalling, there's nothing here,
is it approval, that you wanting to hear,
don't you be burden, don't you even stutter,
just follow your heart, and not your peer......

inspired by a small lil thing.
it was written towards a passer by.

Latah - the legend continue

Have you ever heard of the term melatah..? its something like a trait that if you shocked someone, they would react in a blabber kind of way. Apparently this thing would only happen to malays. Weird… but yeah. Along my life, I’ve meet up with several people that have this trait (consider funny bone literally). Rul, yat, alya and also isha. 3 of them are my friends and 1 is my adek (name are in short form to avoid repercussions). They appear to be normal, but would blabber all the weird things to the darnesst thing if they are shocked.

Back in the days would be, ‘ohpocot’. Recently I heard from an indie skate video they said ‘owh mak kau siti nurhaliza’.. betul, tak tipu…! But yeah that’s that. Like the time we tickle rul saying something bout muay thai, he went with a full knee assault to the table. Then after the short trance, then he felt the pain. Pity him seriously… Once in a while, it’ll be alright.. But if its too often, would be too much..

(hyperstartling; “The person who has this syndrome has a severe reaction to being surprised (or shocked) in which he/she loses control of his/her behaviour- mimic the speech and actions of those around him/her and sometimes obey any commands given to him/her” –wiki-)