Sunshine on my window

”Far too long I’ve been in a sad and sorrow surrounding. Had a great talk with my shining star that made me realized I need to let loose. I know that a lot of people have been saying this to me. But I couldn’t care less. Family, friends and even adk2. but it took true patients and perseverance to make me change to a better and improve person. That will be another post altogether.”

from my recent post. so here it is:

Ive been surrounded by a lot of negativity. Its been along time. So sometimes it becomes a habit to be a little depressive. Yeah I know its bad in the long run and I'm changing my ways. Its for a better me. Well when you felt wanted, loved and appreciated then it totally change 180° away from the negative aspect.

I'm happy with the new me. I'm calmer and never felt so wanted. People always consider me as the emo one. Maybe its because I never open up. But that has all change. Thanks to YOU. Would like to thank you for lifting my spirits and drive me to be better than I was. Hopefully I've done the same to you too. Love You...!

You Got Me by One Block Radius

You Got Me
No need to wonder why.
Don't have to question,
So leave your worried mind

Now I don't wanna lose you,
But I'm tryin' do, what I gotta do, do.
I know the style of my life might confuse you.
And I don't blame you one bit.
I don't even say nothin' when you tripp.

But I thought I told you?
You can put it on my shoulder's, I can hold you.
And I don't care who all believes me, I'ma show you.
Momma it's been a long time.
My leadin', bangin boys about to shine,
All up on my grind.
Gotta get this money what door, just a little crack.
I'm gonna kick it in and make some noise, baby I'll be back.
Gotta keep you movin' ma,
That's how we do it ma,
We chasin' dreams and makin wishes,
I'm your shootin' star.

Now I don't really want to leave you right now,
And I don't even really wanna go.
And I don't even wanna see you cry now,
Baby you should, already know.
Sooo.

You Got Me, (You know that you got me)
No need to wonder why. ( No reason to wonder why)
Don't ever question, (You ain't got to question)
So leave your worried mind (It'll be alright)
((Repeat))

No cooking required

I’ve been listening to a totally different genre lately. You might say I’m following aina’s footstep. Yes people, I’m listening to a lil jazz. There’s a program on Traxx FM call the ‘Jazz Kitchen - no cooking required’. Just say I’m sick and tired of all those gaga, and pop ish. On Jazz Kitchen, there’s tons of cool new style of tunes that is away from the mainstream. Other than that, there is also some R&B and Soul. It’s very calming with less angst and sorrow. Still slow, but at least in a positive manner.

changing to a better me. And im loving it. TETUKA...!

Gabai Gaban! waterfall....!

It was a totally impromptu day as I got nothing planned to do. So as usual, I made myself useful. I tried to help out Yat with her upcoming test next Tuesday. Hopefully she pass this time around. A lil role play. All the sudden, awien ask me to go gabai. Gabai is actually a river. Sg gabai has a beautiful waterfall which placed in between Ampang and Kajang I guess. Batu 14 Hulu Langat. Yes people, im from hulu… so what…! As he caught me off guard, I was like

“huh..? u sure? I looks like it gonna rain..?” as usual ill hesitate of going to such thing and try to make some excuse. That’s just me.

Then edgar said he’ll tag along too. So it’s on. I suppose I’m taking fizah’s style on things. The ‘jom attitude’. At first, all I wanted to do there was write some ish as it might gave me some inspiration bout stuff. Need some time off to clear my mind anyway. Far too long I’ve been in a sad and sorrow surrounding. Had a great talk with my shining star that made me realized I need to let loose. I know that a lot of people have been saying this to me. But I couldn’t break thru. Family, friends and even adk2. but it took true patients and perseverance to make me change to a better and improve person. That will be another post altogether.

We just finish working out ok. Of cause we hungry. Pt like us eat at least 6 times per day (yeah I do! full meal ok) Awien said we go eat there then we dip in the pool. We went down uptown around 315 and reach gabai around 4.25. then one stall after another we pass, with a musical hungry stomach. Sorry ed! It was pouring all the way from curve area till ampang. But remarkably as we reach sg gabai, there was not even a drop. I was like ‘huh…? ! what gives…?’

Had some goring pisang, keropok leko b4 our climb. It took us at least 15min just to climb those high stairs. Well almost to the top that is. Other than that, we have to climb the rocks. Since we were still munching the goodies to avoid dying from starvation, we kept on climbing. Its really hard to skip 2 stair case and eat at the same time. We were totally out of breath. Most of the mak cik , akak and other people, had several stop before they reach on top. I was like, promoting us 3.

‘fitness first anyone…?hahhahahahaa… biggest loser asia baby….!’

The view was superbly beautiful. Such creation made by god. It makes u feel so small. yet we tend to act like we know all or we own the world.


We put our bags on the other side of the river. It was so, cococold…..! surprisingly I didnt feel it at the first dip. The other two did. The said it was so cold, that they don’t immediately go for it.. Must be my body temp I suppose. It’s always warm and heated up. After siting right under the water fall, we took a break for awhile. Tons of people around. Especially ‘chicas’. I was like, padan larr awien nak ajak sgt. Hahahaaa…. Kantoi. Then we tried the slide. Yeap! It look dangerous but so many style and all age group. So I wouldn’t care less. Some even try out to be the silver surfer. It feels like theres a kid waiting to go out of me to have some fun. hahhahaaa…. Lawaks, I know.



We crawl back down around 630. not that bad huh…? I was totally wicked. I don’t mind to have these type of action. But not always of cause. Once in a blue moon. But ill be back again. Maybe that will be my new year resolution, raid as many waterfalls as possible. Worth a try..

ps:
dierorg nieh nak balik masuk punch card kowt. hahahaa

Secukup Rasa (Karya Asli)

Kenapa kalian terasa, walau ku tak sebutkan nama,
Ianya kepada siapa, tidak ku ceritakan semua,
Apa dalam hati, takkan ku biar ia mati
Mungkin kau kan ketahui, pada suatu hari nanti

Sampai bilakan jadi begini, sungguhpun aku tidak mengerti,
Pergolakkan didalam dunia, sehingga salah seorang mati,
Ku hanya mangsa bencana, tidak siapa ambil peduli,
Apa yang tersirat, didalam hati nurani

Biarkan ku sahaja, kerana aku tak terdaya,
Apa-apa rancangan mereka, ku tutup sebelah mata,
Selagi tidak diganggu, diriku, rakan dan keluarga
Kesengsaraan kami disini, akan terbela juga akhirnya

Creep by Radiohead

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f***in' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so f***in' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here,

ohhhh, ohhhh
She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***in' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...

ps:
i kno i am 1..
but it dosent change how i feel for you

Sleeping Angel (Original Rhyme)

As I cry dry tears beside my cheek,
Words so fast, what have I speak,
If you go silent, I will always freak,
Cause I’m deeply in love and it’s you that I seek

Please forgive me, for what I’m not,
Didn’t mean to hurt you, it’s not even a plot,
But again and again, I simply being caught,
All of a sudden, situation became hot,

miss you so much, it’s you I care so deep,
I tried my best, for your good night sleep,
To make you calm, so that I could keep
You in my heart, though I’m just a creep.