5 year plan

they usually ask;

what's your 5 years plan?

where do you see yourself in 5 years..

as a matter of fact, i dont know actually....

don't know where to start and where to end...

kinda pointless and aimless i guess..

some say i dont have a goal set,

some say im not far sighted and so on...

Maybe they are right...

Well to me, im a DREAMER....

not ambitious, just crave for the simple thing in life.

been dissapointed oh so many time.

so taking everything with a pinch of salt.

but thats the wonder, out of it...

due to that unforseen future, ive strive my self every single day.

treating like it was like my last day...

nothing holding me back of doing

i dont ever want to feel like, what if, would i or could i?

so i push and push and push thru the limits...

thats why i constantly, having no time to eat, rest and such.

not much of my health even. but its all good...

i'll manage... one way or another....

to me, when i do something, its all out.

never half heartedly...

Why Me? (Original Rhyme)

Another disaster that fell upon me,
Why cant they just simply let it be?
Crumble and broken, is that what they want to see?
And all I wanted to do, is just be me...

Time and time, Ive been tested,
Even if I was already grounded,
This will and heart, seem already rusted,
I'm trying to avoid, my time to be wasted...

When will it stop, this treacherous route,
I would like to break free, which ever way I could,
To earn a living, and to have some food,
Hoping that one day, everything be good.....



Ps: inspired by lost hope...
take care...

A Definite Dream (Original Rhyme)

you were always seem, like a dream to me,

too good to be true, from the eyes could see,

admire you by far, across the sea,

yet i have the nerve, to simply be me....

restless tossing, while you're away,

but when you're here, i got nothing to say,

so i'll swallow my pride and let come what may,

a high price , for me to pay...

even if we met each other so rarely,

do you think of me occasionally?

hoping you know, how i feel finally,

as i seldom fall, but towards you definitely....

ps:

hope your getting better...

Somebody i use to know by Gotye

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

Dearly Departed

hey you,

its been awhile since the last we met. & i would like to keep it that way. but yet got plenty to say, without wanting any of your explanation heard.

want to thank you for having your heart sway like the grass. as I've realized that you don't really care what you had before you. constantly searching for other options and new challenges. carry on with what you do best. my fault for being another victim. but I've live and learn..

minus you in my life was such a relief. as i became me once more. but this time, stronger than ever. back to my indie roots, determine @ work & plenty more time to spent with the people that i cared. especially those adek-adek of mine. they meant the world to me. @ least they stop , listen and give a dammed to what i was sharing. my life aint perfect. so is yours and the whole wide world. but, im embracing mine...

being going places as you can see. happier now. much happier...especially when i put smile towards others. that's how i rate my happiness. unlike you, im not self centered. I've constantly thinking of others before me.

this time around, ive planned thing better. back then, it was always adhoc. something i was good at. but constantly towards your timing. can say goodbye to that. @ peace for once & moving forward.

seriously, life is better. & thank GOD, im moving further into the horizon. hope you find what you looking for, as it was never with me. again thank you for the heart break. tho this time, i came prepared. plus got plenty more to write. see you around... NOTTT...!

-Psychop@th-

Searching Star (Original Rhyme)

pushing away from all those flashing lights,
as i seek for a star, thru these dark cold nights,
yet i wont stand down, without a fight,
just to climb, reaching an inch of a height,
I'll compose myself and strengthen my might,
stand my ground and fight for whats right...

felt suffocate, this place seem crowded,
let me lead you the way, at least you be guided,
things I've done, are merely to be rewarded,
try better myself, so i wont be blinded,
but in the end, its just 1 sided,
hoping that my future, will soon to be lighted...

Faded Light (Original Rhyme)

am at a lost, out of a sudden,

couldn't believe, my heart has became harden,

don't mind the challenge, nor even the burden,

all i seek, is a beautiful garden...

as i gaze the night, the star so bright,

searching for that faded light,

patiently waiting, the moment to be right,

will try my best, not to lose sight...

while here waiting, ill try my best,

to fix who i am, from being such a mess,

i'll start soul searching, the much needed rest,

so i wont need to, keep on guess and guess.....