Depression

Gradually and then suddenly.
That’s how you encounter depression and overcome it

-prozac nation-

Ungrateful

We got it easy but still we are ungrateful. I’m talking bout us as a normal human being. Too much complaining. You might say, “looks whos talking’. But at least I deal and accept it in my life. I just bash it out in my blog. I don’t like to carry my baggage everywhere I go. Too heavy for running.

It’s sad enough to see misfortune that spread people in Gaza, Iraq, those third world country kids who suffer with malnutrition or even those people who are born with disability. We should be thankful being blessed with full complete set of limbs and away from such misfortune. At least we are not handicap in any sense.


Yet it sickens me to see people fight for power, money and fame. By judgement day none of them matters if you get it in a sleezey way. I’m not saying I’m good. I know I could be a better person for sure.

But be thankful of what god gave us. Every one has their own equal share of problems and strength. Just that some have more wealth then health, less wealth but more peace of mind, basically it’s how we see it. No point of going envy people who have more because they might be the same one who envy your strength as well.

Back to Basic

I’ve been watching way too many novel based movies lately. In a way, it help to open up my mind to new way of story telling. And also because I don’t have the luxury of time to finish a book anyway. Surprisingly, I manage to catch these cool movies. Worth each minute of it. Here are some of the movie that I manage to catch up lately.

He is just not into you
Jane Austin’s book club
Ps: I love you

I might just pick up a book one of these days and start reading. Call me a book worm or whatever, at least it’s better off than real life.

Free Loaders

If you really follow my life story, you’ll realize that I was really upset with some people. They are called the ‘freeloaders’. They expect the world though they hardly make effort to help themselves. Its ok to have second guesses but if it kept on happen over and over again, that is just plain mess up. Don’t give people hope if you know that you are not interested in the first place. To get things straight, I’m not talking bout relationship. Seriously.. Was talking bout work. And some other things.

Story Telling

I'm sick of tired listening to people who are so pumped out to tell their own life story, but they are not even interested in what I want to tell them. That’s part of the reason why I’m being so silent. Because no point getting all work out in what you want to say to them. By the time I want to say something, they said that they are busy or some other time or even listening but not really putting much attention. For crying out loud, you can’t really listen to me while you are texting someone right..?


I could understand when something occurs that is so important, you would like to share with the world or at least those that is really close to you. Its just that, really piss me out if you wont do the same for me. Sorry for not telling it in your face. ! Don’t have the heart to do that. But dosen’t mean you should keep on doing such thing. That’s why I keep it to myself and don’t share it that often. Rather be blogging or rhyming bout it. So if you had the chance to have a look at it, then you would realized. I really do appreciate all those who really, and I mean REALLY wanting to know what I’ve been up to and how I’m doing. You’re the best that I could ever wish for. Thank God I have a several few of you.


So there it is. The next time if you want me to listen to your story, please do be considerate. I won’t change being a good listener that I am. Plus that’s what I’m here for. As the support staff to all of my peers and family. But do have in mind, you only get what you give. Although I have given a lot, but still am waiting. Owh, it such a cruel world after all... hope you are having fun in it.

Neglect the Ignorance (original rhyme)

Its been a long time since we last met,
Hope your doing fine, I hope your not sad,
Still chasing your dreams, are you there yet..?
Only get what you give, so don’t get mad..

Said you were busy, other people busy too,
Try to make a point and the time to see you,
But you just got back and plenty things to do,
May be your meeting someone, I could never knew,

This ignorance really got me thinking,
Its not a fight that I want to be picking,
Is this a phase, for me to keep on searching,

I hope one of these days , that ill be finding

Ghost (by Ana Raffali)

can you see this cut,
above my heart,
the one that you drew,
and pierced through

i gave you the knife,
that took away my life
and now,
i'm haunting you

the blood on you is real
and my death was not fake
i died the day you took my heart to break
i should have known that you
would never understand
the little boy pretends that he's a man

did i give you a scare
did you even care
the tears i've shed for you
are more than a few

i gave you the rope
that took away my hope
and now,
i'm tied to you

the blood on you is real
and my death was not fake
i died the day you took my heart to break
i should have known that you
would never understand
the little boy pretends that he's a man

foolish lover, now she's a ghost,
drifting in despair and nobody cares.


ps:
another fantastic song by ana raffali.
dedicate for one of my dearest friend who's having some difficulty with life..
do check out the video down here..

http://ana46.blogspot.com/2007/02/ghost.html