Lyrics Of a Psychopath

Tak Menentu (Karya Asli)

2012-01-30T19:19:00.003+08:00

maafkan jika aku begitu,
rasa kehilangan tanpa mu,
walaupun kita seribu batu,
dimana janji setia mu dulu,

tak banyak ku pinta daripada mu,
hanya luangan masa dan juga waktu,
mungkin hati mu kini tak menentu,
membuatkan fikiran mu jadi buntu,

cuba bertahan menanti mu,
mengharapkan kau ketemu cahaya / lampu,
untuk membimbing mu kepada yang satu,
harapan yang samar, sungguh tak menentu,

ku tak pastiapa yang akan berlaku,
samada aku masih disisimu,
ku harapkan yang terbaik dihadapan ku,
moga suatu hari nanti kau kan tahu...

ps: moga kau jumpa apa yang dicari...

KL Kita by Yuna

2012-01-29T23:06:00.004+08:00

Waktu mencemburui aku,
Kota raya menjamah ku,
Dimana perginya mimpi ku,
Mungkin dijemari mu,

Kau menghidupkan semangat ku,
Kau memberikan harapan,
Dan kau rampas semua...

Ku mencari jawapan,
Di setiap persimpangan,
Impian yang ku simpan,
Hanya pada mu....

Ps: officially missing you

YunaUniverse (album launch @ DBKL)

2012-01-15T18:20:00.007+08:00

its been awhile since the first album launch by Yuna aka alis.

that was like july 2010.

as years gone by, and finally a new album. yeay.

with her trip round Europe and also working with some materials at the States, she came back bigger then ever. after 5 days, tickets was fully booked.

i didnt actually realize bout it until got a heads up from art. thanks bro...!

did the booking and such, and this time around there was 9 of us in total. quite big of a crowd. but its for the fun of it. some die hard fans, and some tag along friends.

we reached there around 630. scared that the parking mess up. but they said i was just over excited. what ever mann...! as usual, we got the chance to meet up with aunty and uncle dulu. happen to see them when ever we were around.

been sponsored by alot of groups, so i sup

pose need to compromise. DBKL, ERA and such. good publicity tho.

so here was the Play Set @ DBKL recently:

Someone Out of Town (new)

Fear and Frustration (new)

Gadis Semasa

Penakut

Come as You Are

Coffee(new)

Sparkle(new)

Photo of You(new)

Memo(new)

Happy Birthday

Gelora Jiwa

Terukir di Bintang (new)

KL Kita (new)

Decorate

wasn't much of a sing along like the one we had in Zee Avi ghost bird tour, but then again most of it was really fresh.

we ended up having this after party infront of maju junction mall. the best cheese naan ever.

self proclaim? but then again its true. hands down.

http://jaahat.blogspot.com/2010/07/decorating-yunanation.html

why monthly?

2012-01-15T18:07:00.003+08:00

people always ask,

why celebrate monthly?

so rajin?

never seen such thing happen before...

then i'll just say, "Why Not?" ( quote from Matt Damon recent movie)

some of the reason are :

- its like renewing your heart deepest feeling.

we go thru life with challenges and situation.

just to prove a point that all that happens still wont change what i feel bout you.

- wouldn't know whats going to happen to you.

maybe you live a long life, or maybe that's the end of it.

either way i'm treating it like it was my last.

as i'll wont have regret.

- yearly is never enough to show them how you feel.

wish i could do it eveyday.

as everywhere i go i think of her.

a lil bit too much?

well, that's just me

so again, if you asked?

ill say WHY NOT?

Memo by Yuna

2012-01-15T17:24:00.002+08:00

I dont mind if you wanna stay

With that smile upon your face

Hang around for a little while

Please dont drive away even for a mile

Different continents

Its not a thing

Coz i know we'll be okay

Endless borders,countless days

Our love will pave the way

I'll be your wall

For you to lean on

When you fall just try to hold on

I'll be back in your arms

Together we'll always be

For what may come

I dont mind if you are far away

I'll be waiting for you anway

Under the sky of sunshine o rain

I know 'm gonna be in your arms again

Different continents

Its not a thing

Coz i know we'll be okay

Endless borders,countless days

Our love will pave the way

I'll be your wall

For you to lean on

When you fall just try to hold on

I'll be back in your arms

Together we'll always be

For what may come

Together we'll always be

For what may come

Together we'll always be

For what may come

For what may come.....

ps: the aftermath... thanks

Fill up my heart (Original Rhyme)

2012-01-15T17:22:00.003+08:00

requesting your hand, to spent time with me,

missing you tons, just cant you see,

even if its a while, just to set me free,

get lonely inside, place i don't want to be...

i know that we're busy just like a bee,

be nice if we could stop for a cup of tea,

a catch up session would just assure me,

that we on the same page, just so we see...

remind me again, how does it feels,

so i could pick up myself, and start to heal,

and have a taste, in each and every meal,

as i filled up my heart, rather left it nil....

Runaway train by Soul Asylum

2012-01-09T00:07:00.001+08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

Enough Said (Original Rhyme)

2012-01-08T23:35:00.004+08:00

so near but out of reach,
many time like Ive been ditch,
until i don't know which is which...

am i doing too much that i need to be preach?
i taste sour of the other side of the peach,
always feel uncertain, like a town under siege...

to be considerate is all that i request,
still waiting right here hoping for the best,
hope that you realized so you don't have to guess...

tell me now how its gonna be?
hope you realized what i want you to see,
as i never asked much, that's simply just me...

True That...

2012-01-02T18:52:00.003+08:00

people always say:

you work too hard.

true..

you don't stayed at home much.

true...

you're running away from something?

true....

well the truth fact is i really enjoyed the place that i work. the people that I'm around with. the oppurtinity to help other people out and such. trying to keep this optimistic vibe around me so i could be better.True i've achieved so much back then in 2011 and im truly grateful with it. but then again theres so many room of improvement.

True, i'm a perfectionist when dealing with the things that i could control. but sometimes you just moving too fast that you left everyone behind. or even people just let you be sometimes as you got so much things to do. i don't blame them. but it's good to know that some people do care bout yah.

for that, i thank you....

Aria by Wani Ardy

2012-01-02T13:03:00.004+08:00

Benarkan aku

Menjadi
Lagu kegemaran mu
Berputar-putar
Melilit
Di gegendang telingamu
Meresap ke dalam mindamu
Melekat selamanya disitu
Membuat degup
Jantungmu
Lebih laju

Benarkan aku
Menjadi
Lagu kegemaran mu
Bermain-main
Terapung
Di udara kelilingmu

Meresap kedalam mindamu
Mengalun tanpa rasa jemu
Membuat degup
Jantungmu

Lebih laju.....

Ps: petikan dari

Wani Ardy
Langit Vanilla
(kumpulan puisi, prosa dan catatan peribadi)

Hope you be better...(Original Rhyme)

2011-12-31T22:51:00.004+08:00

its been awhile, since the last that we met,
I'm really sorry, if i made you upset,
distant grew us apart, that is a known fact,
but memories last forever, definitely you can bet,

hope to find better days, in between those tears,
i know you are more cautious, ton of things that you fear,
but trust me on this, it is crystal clear,
things will turn out well, one way or another,

just keep your spirit high and keep on persevere,
forget things in the past, and put it at the rear,
keep on moving forward, its your life you have to steer,
hoping for your success, 1 day 1 wish to hear....

ps:
a rhyme inspired by a story of a friend..
hope you be better

How subtle are you..?

2011-12-28T20:39:00.003+08:00

if you happen to realize, malays such as myself are kinda subtle actually.. its part of our nature. as being direct seems to be bit rough. and Malays have this culture of letting them know with out hurting ones feeling. some people will say it beating around the bush. but then again we try to go away from being confrontational and direct.

of cause there's some good and bad in that situation. of cause you laying it down with all due respect and hoping ones realized what damage they do. but then again some situation people just misunderstood or simply don't get what was being said. so people like me would just wait and wait and wait.. and write a couple of lines just to ease the pain... so gotta open your eyes and look out for the sign.....

have a great new year....

till next rhyme..

Tears in the Dark (Original Rhyme)

2011-12-24T23:03:00.003+08:00

its sad to hear what you been through,

now that most of your days are painted blue,

when will it end, you don't have a clue,

tears in the dark directed to who?

keep on hoping & try your best,

never lose faith, only God that cares,

even though your beat up, & kept having less,

your time will come, after all this mess....

ps: please hang in there no matter what....

Left Aside (original rhyme)

2011-12-24T17:52:00.003+08:00

It hurts pretty bad, when I stayed away,

But it hurts even more when I've been push away,

Theres too much on my chest that I want to say,

Kept it buried inside and left it unsaid,

Let me be right here, and forced to pay,

The price to pay attention, always overdue and delay,

As promises & expectation, could reform like clay,

Under the hot sun, it melted by the ray....

Before I Sleep (Original Rhyme)

2011-12-20T00:01:00.003+08:00

after all the wait, anticipating an eclipse,

kept on dissapointed, as i talk in my sleep,

but again and again, i try to think deep,
accompany with hot cocoa, drank it sip by sip...

felt unappreciated, most of the time,

so i kept myself busy, continue this climb,

a time to soul search, & a taste of sour lime,

in a different perspective, calculating every dime...

they said its a lonely place to be number one,

let them enjoy life, full with games and fun,
ill rather stand my ground, then be scared and run,

to prepare for the worst while heading to the sun....

ps:

sorry for the long hiatus..

but here i'm back....

thanks for reading....

I got to move by Calvin Richardson

2011-12-06T22:31:00.003+08:00

I've got to move

But i want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

Night Time by The XX

2011-12-04T23:43:00.000+08:00

You mean that much to me
And it's hard to show
Gets hectic inside of me
When you go
Can I confess these things
To you
I don't know
Embedded in my chest
And it
Hurts to hold

I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hold my words, keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

[Chorus]
Night time
Sympathize
I've been working on
White lies
So I'll tell the truth
I'll give it up to you
And when the day comes
It will have all been fun
We'll talk about it soon

And I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam
Looking in from the dark
And I walk out in stormy weather
Hope my words keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

[Chorus]

Ignorance by Paramore

2011-12-04T23:31:00.001+08:00

If Im a bad person you dont like me
Well I guess Ill make my own way
Its a circle a mean cycle
I cant excite you anymore

Wheres your gavel
Your jury
Whats my offense this time
Youre not a judge but if youre gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life

Dont wanna hear your sad songs
I dont wanna feel your pain
When you swear its all my fault
Cause you know were not the same
No were not the same oh were not the same

We'e the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you cant accept that the change is good
Its good its good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well its nice to meet you sir
I guess Ill go I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well its nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that couldve happened
Any longer and I wouldnt have made it
Its not a war no its not a rapture
Im just a person but you cant take it

The same tricks that that once fooled me
They wont get you anywhere
Im not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself

Dont wanna hear your sad songs
I dont wanna feel your pain
When you swear its all my fault
Cause you know were not the same
No were not the same oh were not the same

Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you cant accept that the change is good
Its good its good

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well its nice to meet you sir
Well I guess Ill go I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well its nice to meet you sir
Well I guess I'll go I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
Well I guess Ill go I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
Well its nice to meet you sir
I guess Ill go I best be on my way out

never enough (original rhyme)

2011-11-24T13:20:00.002+08:00

Sorry i cant b the perfect one,Or even if my tongue is mostly blunt,
Its not that im trying to avoid or run,Always been repetition and kept avoiding the gun,
Trying to survive, in this blood thirst hunt,
Staying away, from cheap thrill or fun,
Hope you're more rationale, after all set or done,
As I've always stood my ground, stormy rain n burning sun....

Undetected

2011-11-23T00:17:00.001+08:00

I got my bagage in life, that i cant run away from. Thats why it makes me diffrent. So sorrow, so tone down, so under the radar. Sometimes, I just dont want to be seen......But regardless of what ive done, they wont allow me. Tho im just a simple person trying to make a living. Dont ask for much, but striving for all that i could offer. Still not enough tho...

What Does This Means to You? (Original Rhyme)

2011-11-20T15:48:00.004+08:00

take me to the day, when it was,

before all the sudden, the time went pause,

& I felt so different, as if I'm at lost,

so low & broken, like I've been toss,

or fall down riding, from a back of a horse,

as my heart stop moving, disrupted by force...

remind me again, why im here,

where this smile is swept off, & I'm avoiding tears,

feeling insecure, so much things to fear,

what holds in front of me, never seem to be clear,

kept a straight face, just waiting to hear,

what you got to say, explain to me my dear...

untill when this last, i'll endure the pain,

nor i'm not that perfect, not even a saint,

just kept myself busy, to keep me sane,

so much room for improvement, so much to gain,

as long i kept true, & maintain this lane,

desperately hoping that 1 day, this will change...

Uninvited Guest (Original Rhyme)

2011-11-07T17:35:00.005+08:00

as i reminisce, what has past,

sitting down quite, without any fuss,

and there you were, out from the dust,

wondering slowly, and gaze at the cast...

while I'm chasing shadows, in the mid of the night,

writing my heart out, under the bright moonlight,

the picture of you, gave me all the might,

felt appreciated with all your guide,

which kept me standing, and continue this fight,

where i feel much better, throughout this height...

your timing seems accidental, but always right on time,

when everything seem sour, even worst from lime,

to greater heights, together we will climb,

until fate crosses over, then we act like mime...

Post Sign (Original Rhyme)

2011-11-07T17:25:00.005+08:00

too sick to realized, what happen before me,
just kept it silent & just let it be,
as i wish for a miracle, to show me the key...

again & again, i kept on telling,

myself to be calm, & just stop swearing,

don't let it bother, your heart & feeling,

it's just repetitions, that you have to be dealing...

time will heal, this heart of mine,

sooner or later, i will be fine,

just need to open my eyes, & read the sign...

Crystalized by The XX

2011-11-06T18:02:00.001+08:00

You've applied the pressureTo have me crystallizedAnd you've got the faithThat I could bring paradise
I'll forgive and forgetBefore I'm paralyzedDo I have to keep up the paceTo keep you satisfied
Things have gotten closer to the sunAnd I've done things in small dosesSo don't think that I'm pushing you awayWhen you're the one that I've kept closest
[ahh ahh ahh] x4
You don't move slowTaking steps in my directionsThe sound resounds, echoDoes it lesson your affectionNo
You say I'm foolishFor pushing this asideBut burn down our home I won't leave alive

Glaciers have melted to the seaI wish the tide would take me overI've been down on my kneesAnd you just keep on getting closer

Learning to fall again (Original Rhyme)

2011-10-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

Thru all these years, we been so close,
The one that, I’ll think about the most,
Life got to us, and everything went froze,
All the sudden, we’re like uninvited ghost.

Faces revolving doors, but I still maintain the same,
Waiting for you, to stop playing those games,
As you’re still young, & attracted to fame,
But not the only one, that should be blame.

As I took time off, and reflect to the past,
You reminded me what was, it’s surely a blast,
Learning to fall again, as I don’t want this feeling to rust,
Falling over you again, never been such a big task

Uncertain tongue tight (Original Rhyme)

2011-10-31T22:31:00.002+08:00

Words & question, I would like to ask,
Have no time now, should I make it fast?
Yet I kept it dragging, and wait till last,
Still hesitate, even if it’s a must
I rather kept quite. As things has past,
To the back of my mind, let it collect dust…

Could I live with it, not knowing what if?
Don’t want any conflict, not starting any beef,
Sudden tongue tight, words wont pass my teeth,
Like a big obstacle, the great barrier reef,
Letting it cool off, and the situation to leave,
I don’t want to lose this, as to me you’re a gift…

Exile Again (Original Rhyme)

2011-10-31T21:54:00.003+08:00

Been here, thru numerous time,
Another setback, after a long climb,
As this experience, taste better then lime,
I’ll just sit under the moonlight, keep writing my rhyme…

Wish they realized, how I'm doing,
How this loneliness, is truly killing,
But all I need is time, to continue healing,
Thru the same cycle, I surely willing

Warrior - the underdog story.

2011-10-17T21:27:00.004+08:00

will consider one of the best story month to date. since they no longer showing this in the cinema, i think ill write something bout it. watch it 3 time and it still doesn't get old. why? because it hits straight to the heart. talking bout experience. i suppose thats how good movie should be. the connections to the viewers. i would say its brilliant. with the cast like Tom Hardy and Joel Edgerton most people would pass it off as they are non superstars. but unlike me, always in search of underground and less popular stuff. as they said :

'get out of mainstream, people get lost there'

Haunted by a tragic past, ex-Marine Tommy Conlon (Hardy) returns home for the first time in fourteen years to enlist the help of his father (Nick Nolte) to train for SPARTA, the biggest winner-takes-all event in mixed martial arts history. A former wrestling prodigy, Tommy blazes a path toward the championship while his brother, Brendan (Edgerton), an ex-fighter-turned teacher, returns to the ring in a desperate bid to save his family from financial ruin. But when Brendan's unlikely, underdog rise sets him on a collision course with the unstoppable Tommy, the two brothers must finally confront each other and the forces that pulled them apart, facing off in the most soaring, soul stirring, and unforgettable climax that must be seen to be believed. -- (C) Lionsgate

my version:
the story is about two brothers (Brendan and Tommy), who went their own way in life but had the same passion MMA (mix martial arts). as Tommy goes into the army after the death of their mum while Brendan went away and married his long time sweetheart. as the story goes, their dad was an alcoholic and just turn sober for the last 100 days. asking for forgiveness to Brendan for all the damage cause by him when he was under the influence (broken home, domestic violent and etc). but the damage is done and nothing really matters. being sour with the past, Brendan didn't even gave the chance to let the father to see any of the grandchildren.

as Tommy was running away from past that haunts him, he want to make it up to it by winning the Sparta Tournament (MMA). the prize money will be given to wife of his close friend back in the marines. the friend was killed and Tommy abandon his unit. he planned to work together with his dad but put their differences aside just to get things done. as they capture the turmoil surrounds them with the MMA background, this movie should not be missed.

all three individual is such strong characteristic and wont budge into others. they have that characteristic of a fighter. never give up attitude, fear motivated, determine, and have something to fight for.

my favourite quote
Brendan : you always go with the forth runner. never the underdog.

Frank Campana: Look at me! Look at me! Why are we here, Brendan? Why are we here? Are we here to win this fight? You tell me, 'cause if we're not, I'll throw in the towel right now. We'll get Tess and we will go home. You don't knock him out, you lose the fight. Understand me? You don't knock him out, you don't have a home.

till the next movie to top that... u might not agree, but its classic.
REALITY CHECK....!

Return of the Thai fighter...!

2011-10-17T20:58:00.003+08:00

last weekend we had this WMC (world muay thai council) Padmaster course. Was conducted by the one and only Stephan Fox the VP of WMC. most people will know him from the contender Asia previously and the recent one is The Challenger Muay Thai both under AXN. with the help of Nong and the Malaysian Tigers, the upgrading event was massive.

this two days course is to teach FF trainers to have a good knowledge and using muay thai as a tool in the clients health and fitness program. theres around 100++ trainers came for level 1 and 18 for level 2. last time around, they had it in FF MBF jalan sultan ismail. but this time its in Axis. due to the large number of trainers, all of us have to train at the open air. as the class can only accommodate 60+ only. the burning sun is nothing much compare to the intense training with minimum rest. on the first day, it even rain. it was so cool. Literally...

but its nice to see an army of blues training together under the bright sunlight just for the heck of upgrading and expending their knowledge. it took determination, persistence and patience. as most of them have to wait almost 1 year to see this up again. tons of friends were made even tho we worked under the same company. we seldom spent that much time together.

most of us got either burned / tanned due to the sun. but it was worth it. some even lost 2 kg for just 2 days. how bout that? its indeed something to cherish.

HOD Explorace

2011-10-09T19:24:00.005+08:00

Last Friday we the heads of department of fitness first region 3 had what we call an amazing race Fitness first. Its 4 team all together team CGM (Kurt Skirt), FM (Kamikaze Warriors), FOHM and also SM.

1^st challenge is to get an oreo cookie from ur forheadto you mouth without touching. First team to completes all get to choose the marker points. Among them are, an empty dvd case title (going the distant), a 16kg kettlebell, a 9kg medicine ball, or a full carton of Anlene milk. We manage to finish 3^rd within 4 teams. Bit left behind but we were determined.

Kurt ABM region / host of amazing race Fitness First provide us 50 bucks and we need to spend within that only. Tough luck actually. Cuz going one way to Avenue K is already costly.

From Mont Kiara, we went to

Avenue K to take some pic of every department there,

find Michael Schumacher and his car

back to Menara Manulife for a rowing challenge.

and back to Mont Kiara.

Guess what, we manage to be the first one to arrived and with the highest points. Followed by the CGM team, Front of House and Sales team .Man all those running around and such is really texting and owh so tired.

All in it was pure fun and team work. Everyone really had a great time. And back to the next challenge. Just bring it…!

Restu By Dilla

2011-10-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

restu anakku, tak perlu merah akal mu,

restu saudaraku berkubu,

terbatu darah berbatu bata,

dalam diam aku hancur,

dalam riak aku luhur,

dalam tenang aku buntu,

ku kejar peangi jingga,

sedang jingga makin merah,

sedang merah semakin hambar.....

this poem is from dilla ain.

a friend of mine.

towards the Gaza war....

Isolated (Original Rhyme)

2011-10-09T11:10:00.002+08:00

been here, thru numerous time,
another setback, after a long climb,
as this experience, taste better than lime,
ill just sit under the moonlight, keep writing my rhyme,

wish they realized, how im doing,
how this loneliness, is truly killing,
but all i need is time, to continue healing,
through the same cycle, i surely willing...

@ gravy baby in Shah Alam

Ring in each Finger?

2011-10-05T19:13:00.000+08:00

most of the people see me with rings here and there. some even ask me why. Back then Aina's mum commented me on my pinky ring. she said something bout single and hoping. hahahhaaaa...... never thought of that. its just an expression. seriously no kidding....so i went out to check it out whats all the fingers and ring is about. n why i kept on wearing it anyway. so this is what i got:

Have you ever thought what is the meaning of each finger for rings? Take a look what each finger represents and how the right ring can make a difference.

Sometimes, no matter how hard we try in life, certain things don’t really seem to go our way! This is the time when few opt for astrology as a guide to improve our lives. Palm reading, numerology, tarot cards etc are some of the ways which experts in this field claim to help a person to improve present status. Well, the one thing I have noticed is the advice given by many such experts to wear finger rings. These finger rings when combined with specific birthstones help to create a balanced effect for many issues in one’s life. But, have you ever wondered what is the meaning of each finger for rings? Does having a ring on a particular finger signify something deep? Well, lets take a look at meanings of rings on fingers.

What is the Meaning of each Finger for Rings?

The thumb

symbolizes the will power in a person. This finger is connected with the inner self of a person. In case you have been told to wear a ring on this finger, you would need to be especially attentive to the changes that happen in your life. The ring would then help to boost your willpower.

The index finger

represents authority, leadership and ambition. This finger is considered to represent a certain kind of power. This was particularly seen in the ancient days when powerful Kings wore rings on their index finger. Therefore, wearing a ring on this finger would help you get a boost in this direction.

The middle finger

represents individuality of a person. Located in the middle, it symbolizes a balanced life. Wearing a ring on this finger would help you to add balance to your life.

The ring finger is the fourth finger.

This ring finger of the left hand has a direct connection with the heart. Therefore, the wedding ring is worn on this finger. It also represents emotions (affection) and creativity in a person. Wearing a ring on the right hand would help you to become more optimistic in your life.

The little finger

represents everything about relationships. This finger is all about our associations with the outside world as compared to the thumb; where in the latter is all about the inner self. This little finger represents our attitude towards others. Wearing a ring on this finger would help one to enhance their relationships particularly in terms of marriage and helps to improve business relationships as well. It also helps to change a person’s attitude towards relationships for better. The creativity is associated with emotional as well as material things.

Rings are thus an important entity amongst all jewelry items. Before you plan to wear any kind of ring, it’s better you consult a professional to know about the kind of jewelry to be worn. Be it a diamond ring or an engagement ring, a wedding ring, or a promise ring, one cannot ignore the beauty of these rings as fashionable jewelry. So, it’s not always a person wears a ring only for religious or other such beliefs, but there are many people who choose to opt for it only as a fashion statement! Well, no matter what the reason, finger rings sure do enhance the overall look of the wearer!

By Kashmira Lad

http://www.buzzle.com/articles/what-is-the-meaning-of-each-finger-for-rings.html

owhhh... now i see... kewl tho.. never thought of that at all. but good to know what it is for anyway.

are your wearing any ring?

Last Straw (Original Rhyme)

2011-09-11T11:24:00.002+08:00

Seem I’m invisible, to you I suppose,
no matter how much, I try to be close,
Maybe I’ve burned out, ended up being toast,
as again and again, from the dead I’ve rose,
kept asking god, the only one who knows,
if I’m still alive, or just a living ghost…

Being pushed away, everytime I remember,
reading between the line, always been a believer,
always too hesitate, a letter never deliver,
all I do is wise up, and becoming more wiser,
try stop myself from being a dreamer,
stand my ground, seek sky that never glitter…

The last to be consider, never fail to realize,
for all the lost time, I’ve try to capitalize,
constrain myself and avoiding socialize,
if that could make them all less traumatize,
as my hunger in life, has been minimize,
so I concentrate in my life, to be more organize….

mood switch (Original Rhyme)

2011-09-11T11:24:00.001+08:00

As I stand right here, gazing fading stars,
This wind of change, cut deeper to my scar,
no matter how many tears, I manage to jar,
could only wonder, from a distant by far…

How you flick that switch, that change everything,
it become complicated, as it start to sink,
and all the sudden it only made you think,
what has been mention, and the song that I’ve sing,

but as if nothing happen, just a while ago,
What ever I’ll be feeling, deep down below,
kept it shut, no need to show,
Sooner or later, it’ll fade off so slow

Hurt by Johnny Cash / Nine Inch Nail

2011-09-10T22:27:00.001+08:00

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

ps:

kept asking myself when will.......

Otherside by Red Hot Chili Peppers

2011-09-04T13:42:00.000+08:00

How long, how long will I slide
Separate my side; I don't,
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
it's all I ever...

I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up; it brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the otherside

Centuries are what it meant to me
A cemetery where I marry the sea
Stranger things could never change my mind
I gotta take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long, how long will I slide
Separate my side; I don't,
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin my throat
it's all I ever...

Pour my life into a paper cup
The ashtray's full and I'm spillin' my guts
She wants to know am I still a slut
I've got to take it on the otherside

A scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
A candidate for my soul mate bled
I push the trigger and I pull the thread
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on

How long, how long will I slide
Separate my side; I don't,
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
it's all I ever...

Turn me on, take me for a hard ride
Burn me out, leave me on the otherside
I yell and tell it that It's not my friend
I tear it down, I tear it down
And then it's born again

How long, how long will I slide
Separate my side; I don't,
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
it's all I ever had (how long)
I don't,
I don't believe it's fair
Slittin' my throat
it's all I ever...

ps: yeah, how long?

Merdeka Raya...!

2011-08-31T22:58:00.001+08:00

reminisce the warrior, that gave up their lives,
for a better today, so no more threat with a knives,
but we seems to forget, its a never ending war,
rise up fight back, keep on moving forth,
54 years of independent, dont let it slip,
keep on working hard, & stride a bigger leap

happy independent day Malaysia

Written In the Stars by Tinie Tempah

2011-08-31T21:43:00.003+08:00

oh written in the stars
a million miles away
a message to the main
ooooh
seasons come and go
but I will never change
and I’m on my way

Lets go…
yeah
you’re listening now
they say they aint heard nothing like this in a while
thats why they play my song on so many different dials
cause i got more hits than a disciplined child
when they see me everybody brrrrrap’s, brrrrrraps
man I’m like a young gun fully black Barrack
I cried tear drops over the massive attack
I only make hits like I work with a racket and bat
look at my jacket and hat
so damn berserk
so down to earth
I’m bringing gravity back
adopted by the major I want my family back
people work hard just to get all their salary taxed
look Im just a writer from the ghetto like Malory blackman
where the hells all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
thats why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out

[Chorus]

Yeah, I needed a change
when we ate we never took because we needed a change
I needed a break
for a sec I even gave up believing and praying
I even done the legal stuff and was leaded astray
now money is the root to the evilist ways
but have you ever been so hungry that it keeps you awake
mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed
great, it feels like a long time coming, fam
since the day I thought of that cunning plan
one day I had a dream I tried to chase it
but I wasn’t going nowhere, running man!
I knew that maybe someday I would understand
trying to turn a tenner to a hundred grand
everyones a kid that no-one cares about
you just have to keep screaming until they hear you out

[Chorus repeated]

[Outro]

ps: seldomly refer to a hiphop song, but im simply a fan of lyric.
plus this is so me

Torn Up (Original Rhyme)

2011-08-31T15:45:00.002+08:00

even if im there, my heart is torn,
felt something missing, whenever your gone,
just like hatch born turtle, totally lost when they're born,
dash to the sea, or to death they'll be torn..

what wrong have ive done, to be feeling like this,
cant we swallow our pride, im begging you please,
just only for now, you could continue your list,
fight another day, towards thing that you're pissed..

whats the point, of me being around,
if it only kept me up & drag me down,
as i in search, of the peace that couldn't be found,
regardless how many years, ive even lost count...

Slmt hari 'crossfire' raya

Shimmer by Fuel

2011-08-29T17:44:00.002+08:00

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label

She says she's ashamed
And can she take me for awhile
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen on white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her

She says that love is for fools who fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...

Yea...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
Guess I'll let it go

ps: hits the spot.

My own ME

2011-08-28T10:37:00.007+08:00

someone told me: in life, theres so much people that we encounter that we need to be careful and cautious. Its either friends, family, co worker, passerby, love ones. Well basically anyone.

sometimes they think, the're doing u a favour, but instead they just make it worst. as that issnt your plan in the bigger picture. most of us have their own set of mind, and its almost impossible to change that. habits dies hard...

but yet some are still persistence in trying to change your mind. they'll would do Evey single thing just so that u abide to their demands. but then again till what extend? just because it favours you and your life, doesn't mean ill do it right? plus what is it in for me?

not trying to be sounding self centred like some people i know, but then again im fighting for individuality and also characteristic. you are not just a NUMBER. so let it be if anyone want to seclude you or to not letting you to be involve. you'll survive. i know i did. and so would you..

What you really want?

2011-08-21T16:47:00.001+08:00

· A place that feels like home.

· Friends to share stories, trustworthy and wont judge you.

· People that care about your existence.

· Appreciation and cared by gesture.

· Peace among rivals and family.

· Time to do arts and craft.

· Honesty and sincerity.

· Sense of belongingness.

· A break from routine.

· The answer…

you only get what you give. Hope that’s right.

As what we want is not necessary what you need

Here comes the bride.......

2011-08-21T12:05:00.003+08:00

Woke up to the loud sound of Paramore on my handphone alarm clock yesterday. Was thinking, why the heck I did that. Was on my off day, but then I’ve realized that need to go for this special event. It’s Lydia’s big wedding day. Drove down and wait for Kelvin and Ian at Leisure Mall. As Ian was the only one that knows the place. This will be considered my first time attending a church wedding. A whole new experience to me. Been to so many wedding but ill trying to see a different point of view.

It took us 30 min to go there, and 15 to find parking. Hish…. I was just going round and round and round….. Wes and Sue was suppose to be there, but technically they can’t find the place. Pass it to Ian to give direction, then we found out he was using GPS all the while. Ishhh……. So ended up they just left after 55min of going around the block. Trust me, it’s so confusing to get there.

After scribbling some words on the registration and such, we came in and sat down by the side of the mid section. It’s a gospel type of church. So there’s piano, drum set and etc. after a few min, the bride walks in.

here comes the bride,
all dress in white,
Here she comes on down the aisle
Behind her veil she wears a smile
In her hands the bright bouquet
Daddy's here to give the bride away
Best man fumbles for the band
Groom puts it on her trembling hand
Almost before the vows are through
In her calmest voice she says, "I do."

They sing all those song in the broachers. But I didn’t. You understand why. It was a simple wedding. I say this as I compare to the normal Malay Traditional wedding. as they exchange vows and rings, the sign on the dotted line and its official. Lydia is Desmond property. congrats.

Was invited to the lunch, but fasting larr.. congrats to the bride and groom and thank them for the invite. Abit lost on the way back. But worth it. Great experience. Wish you were there

Dear God,

2011-08-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

Please make me a better person. In a way that if I got angry or disappointed at somebody, that I wouldn’t let it go towards a third party or even beat myself up. Please remind me that having what I have right now is far more important and that I should be thankful with every breath I take, and the better health that I acquire….

That, this is adequate for me to carry on. And please remind me that all this is just temporary. All the beauty, power, wealth, strength and etc. That one day when it’s all gone, that I will come back to you.

Artsy addict...

2011-08-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

As I was delivering some food last nyte, I manage to get a glimpse of some indie landmark around klang valley. First off, I went to Gravy Baby.

This place was setup and owned by Wani Ardy. An indie artist Café bistro in Shah Alam. This is actually after they relocate it from Sri Kembangan. Try to search for the first one, but got lost. This time, direction was much better and easier to find.

Food was nice and simple. Environment was inspiring and parking was easy.

Later after that I went around Subang Jaya area. Was just cruising around found out Jet Fule was still open. I was like, why not drop by. I try make effort when ever I got the time. Even if it was 11 at nyte. As you would know, I Am Jet Fuel is a boutique for female attire and such right, but there I bought 4 new cd’s (Komplot, OCK, Metamatik and another indie artist).

Happen to know alis be performing next month 19^th Sept or something @ the Philharmonic Petronas. Finally she there among the big names at a world stage. She been doing well and traveling recording new song I suppose.

Congrats to our very own home grown artist. Been supporting you people ever since. Keep on rawking…!

Need by Reza Salleh

2011-08-14T12:08:00.003+08:00

And I feel a little tired
Would you please be a little quiet
Would you love me a little bit more
This heart is a little sore

All I need is all of that before
Just like desire free, can’t I have all I adore

Mind at peace, days of ease, won’t you follow
Free of all, care for none
All I need is all of that before
Just like desire free, can’t I have all I adore

Residence, song-a-twelve, won’t you please me
A million words, all I’ve heard
Mind at peace, days of ease, won’t you follow
Free of all, care for none

And won’t you give all of, all of these things
What about what I want, what will you bring

Won’t you give all of, all of these things
What about what I want, what will you bring

What will you bring x3

Torn....
wonder why...

Name by The Goo Goo Dolls

2011-08-12T20:24:00.001+08:00

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

You think you know me?

2011-08-11T21:31:00.001+08:00

People knew the things that I’ve gone thru, but yet no one really ever cares. Why, because they know you gonna bounce back eventually. But less that they knew, how I’ve manage to recover. The fact is, it’s all bout working hard day in and day out. As to me, failure is never an option. With God’s will, I’ll just do my best. Hoping and praying for the best for me here and after.

Some might even say, just be grateful with what you have. Yes that’s true, but at least I’m trying something to make it better. I wont just admit defeat in things that’s mediocre. Wasn’t raise up to be a coward. I strive for excellent in everything that I do. I won’t just complain this and that. It’s a big push to strive harder. From there, all hell break loose and you just better watch out.

Usually I don’t have that much support group that I could bank on. Except for some family and a couple of friends. Thanks to the handful of them. Couldnt do this without your spirits…

Acquainted with the night by Robert Frost

2011-07-31T09:14:00.004+08:00

I have been one acquainted with the night.

I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.

I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.

I have passed by the watchman on his beat

And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet

When far away an interrupted cry

Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;

And further still at an unearthly height,

O luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.

Forsaken Hope (Original Rhyme)

2011-07-31T08:46:00.001+08:00

Don’t know what went wrong, somewhere out there,
Though the verdict is out, yet this isn’t fair,
With that sad face and backcomb hair,
Tears accumulated, making his eyes so glare,
Things had happen, now he could only bare,
Even if he is innocent, they won’t really care…

Consider a long shot, but worth fighting for,
No matter how long, this never ending war,
We gather our might, and start to roar,
Regardless how much, our heartfelt sore,
Got nothing to lose, not any more,
You’ve broken us down, no more tears to pour…

We might lose this battle, but @ least we try,
Got sick and tired, to listening to this lie,
Towards all the crap, we refuse to buy,
Won’t kept my silent, won’t let him die,
Though we’re not that close, but don’t ask me why,
Still a blood relative, that’s how our bond id tie….

ps:
to be acquainted with the 'incident' and reported on the papers..
thats tragic, but still we're trying our very best.
hold on....

Hopelessly Grounded (Original Rhyme)

2011-07-31T08:29:00.002+08:00

There are tons of things I wish to do,
So many skies out there, I wish to gaze,
Keep asking me when, as I don’t have a clue,
Yet all the time, I feel amaze

I’m hopelessly grounded, within this place,
Neither here nor there, whatever the case,
Yet I search for peace, where ever I’m at,
You get what you give, sometimes not always that.

As we hope for betterdays, while doing our best,
Trying not to choke, as people counting on us,
No matter how clean, or how much it’s a mess,
I still be standing, even if im last.

King of Sorrow by Sade

2011-07-29T21:13:00.003+08:00

I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war
I died the night before
And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do

I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone
Can say to take this away
It's just another day and nothing's any good

I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow

ps:
with all the thing happens around,
its still amazed me when people ask me why....
then ill just turn around to them and smile :)

Here is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls

2011-07-24T13:00:00.001+08:00

You and I got something
But it's all then it's nothing to me
yah
I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions to me
yah
And we wake up in the breakdown
In the things we never thought we could be
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To this sound of dispollution in me
yah
And I was not the answer so forget you if ever thought it was me
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need a fall out
Of all the past that's here between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
I can fear you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone

Dearly Departed (Original Rhyme)

2011-07-23T22:28:00.002+08:00

as i reminisce, the time that was,

been taken away, and suddenly pause,

regardless how many time, I've been toss,

the problem that occur, ill bare the cost,

but never be greater, towards you that I've lost....

your depart was immediate, no chance for good bye,

hoping to move on, with all my cry,

i wont be the same, this i cant lie,

no matter how many item that ill buy,

couldn't compare to this, even if i try....

for you ill keep on fighting, to the very end,

to do my best, in this forsaken land,

no matter how i stumble, through dust and sand,

deep in my heart, you're there to give a hand,

as we bind by blood, not a mere rubberband...

hope you are calm, where ever you at,

as you made me proud, and my heart feels glad,

always the strong one, the one i'll always bet,

keeping me from harm, as you wont let,

me to fall down, you're just like that...

i'll keep you close, to my heart and veins,

memories of you, will reduce the pain,

no matter sunshine, or even rain,

my future here, will never be taint,

hope to catch you around, till we meet again..

ps:

stay strong ice....

'best' day wish

2011-07-22T21:17:00.004+08:00

happy birthday! happy birthday!

you are twenty ______ now!

you have accomplished so much from three years that i know you ,

and those accomplishments are worth celebrating.

i'm so proud of you that you've made a very comfortable life for yourself and that you've stayed true to what you like and love,

and that you do what you want to feed your soul.

And for that, you've made you as a person, happy.

and that makes me happy.

i love you abang!

a text by my dearest lil sister Aina.

just got to share this with you readers.

though she is wayyyyyyyy younger than i am, but then again her words was simply hits the heart.

never imagine theres someone out there with such words.

that took real understanding and patience listening to my ish....

for that i thank you adek...!

your the best...!

Moment of Silence (Original Rhyme)

2011-07-18T10:10:00.003+08:00

Dusty light surrounds me, as I enter the hall,
It felt so empty like trap between a wall,
As my entrance was silent, my presence left untold,
With very little movement, ill caught up in the cold.

Hearing their hearts, accompany with strumming strings,
Raw words and thought, sadly when they sing,
Reaching out to the world, with their own special way,
To relate with my life, every single day

This is my passion, without missing a beat,
Words gave me hope, try to keep my face lit,
To know I’m not alone, there’s others out there,
Hoping you understand, to those who care…

ps:
idea came from the recent songer songwriter edition @ klpac.
thanks for enriching my with views and values...

Message to your kingdom.

2011-07-17T12:38:00.002+08:00

Dear ‘Ice’ princess of Antarctica,

I’m sorry to hear about the lost of your brother the prince. Was truly a shocker as none of us see that coming at all. Hope you doing well coping with the situation. But as you know, he is at a better place among the angels and away from this wicked world. Both of you gone thru thick and thin together as he was your brother, next to kin in peninsular area, your savior, your friend, your go to person and also drinking buddy.

Tho our friendship went apart while I was in my quest towards the land of the voultari but still at time I do feel like I’m missing something. Like the chat we usually everytime during training for a better you.

You always see the worst thing in life and question when will things better for you. Let me tell you something that I’ve been there n I know it only brings you down even more. Hope you could appreciate all the small thing that you have. Chance to breathe, to walk, to think, to appreciate life, a friend and such. I know global warming is worsen where you at, but then if you don’t stay strong and be truth to your self your kingdom will fall. You have all the traits to rule and make people envy. Use it shut all the rest that say otherwise.

last but certainly not least ill be there to support you if you ever needed help. take care and best of luck.

Till we meet again.

-Soul-

in memory of Dennis Chua

may you rest in peace.

(i suppose this artwork is at you back. its beautiful and toughtful of you. )

Advice 'The One'

2011-07-17T12:35:00.001+08:00

In my life, I usually have a mentor/s. They come in all different type of form and background. Most are older while some are younger. But their company never be forgotten. Their friendship are lifted up high and cherished.

Theres a girl name dayang/nicky I would consider one of my best big sistaz I ever had. She was my good friend that I had during collage time in UM. One of her best advice for me was as followed before she quit the same company to built a family:

“Jaa, in search of the ONE in life u need to have a list of expectation. Let say 10 qualities. Out of that 10, try and search those that have 5 and above in the person you encounter. After that you see her downfall, and if you think you could accept that just proceed. They might not be perfect, but they might just be perfect for you. So go find your SHC or non smiling n etc2. good luck”

I followed her advice and created a list back then. But when I reflect to that small advice from nicky that I hate so much, I’ve realized that I’m very cautious in falling in love. Back then I might like someone very much. But I simply can’t love them as there’s no connection. Either I’ts one sided, too good to be true which reflect to trauma, self centred, social butterfly and others.

I’ll admit I don’t have much relationship in my life, but at least I TRY. Not like some people who just simply waiting for good things to come without trying to make effort. I’ve took my risk and fight for what’s right. A few bad decision might occur but ill bounce back and try again. If I ever got the chance to do it all over again, ill wouldn’t change abit. As I’m comfortable with what I have and loving the people that I’m around with.

Tribute to nicky. Sis¸ thanks for you wisdom but I still hate you… you psycho girl you.. hahahhaaa… you know what I mean. J

Emo Moonchild

2011-07-17T12:30:00.001+08:00

Last Thursday was my birthday. To tell you the truth I always keep it a low profile when it comes to my birthday. As most of the time I was numerously disappointed. So not putting much hope and less time to celebrate it too. I’m a chronic workaholic and a side of vanilla addict too (the original vanilla addict).

Ever heard of moonchild? It is actually another name for people who were born in the zodiac of cancer / cancerian. As cancer is considered a negative quotation to some people, moonchild is consider a substitute. So there you go.

I would like to thank all those numerous birthday wishes, present and also any other gesture knowingly or smiles. Appreciate it a lot.

Surround Sound (Original Rhyme)

2011-07-10T09:25:00.003+08:00

You are, who you are,
Don’t ever change as you wouldn’t get far,
Understanding your strength & accepting your flaw,
Unleashed those talents, that you kept so raw.

As you grew up, with values of your family,
Peer pressure all around, leads you to insanity,
Experience built character, after all those tears,
Tend to be more cautious, learning from those fears.

Became more receptive, to the sound all around,
Not how bad you fall, but how fast you bounce from the ground,
As you pick up speed, to run from your life,
Unresolved issue remains, you could only take 5…..

The Lovesong by Adele

2011-07-10T08:10:00.001+08:00

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

take time to 'Realize'

2011-07-01T22:03:00.001+08:00

It was my brother b’day on the last Monday. But it was also ‘his’ very own show at DFP. And I happen to get two tickets for it towards the last min. first didn’t know that’s there was a gig at all. But then again it was a great pre b’day present from mummy. Thanks mum.

It’s Reza Salleh everyone. One of the most seasoned indie artist in Malaysian. He stayed indie and work himself all the way up. Aside from his EP Smoke City, he has moonshine under his belt which is an event that exposes new young talent to the world. Places like No Black Tie, The Apartment and others be their venue. A multi talented artist with great views. Voice wise, simply spellbinding. Who would ever think that voice like that comes from such an individual. Much respect for this man.

Great job on the concert at the Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra. With this new album ‘Realize’ he is on track in making local music history. As one of its kind, truly brilliant.

merepek..!

2011-06-30T12:44:00.003+08:00

Adif sniper : I haven’t call him yet, I tot we’re having a ‘confession call’ (conference call / session drive)

adif sniper : The lower back is the most ‘IMPOTENT’ part of the body (important)

Kelvin the good Communist : rather to run to MML, just start running on the 'toilet’ (treadmill)

Ian Crasher: My leg is ‘Paining’. (too much pain)

Shima K-pop : Please find attached ‘four’ your perusal. (for)

weird things that we said

it here...! bigger and better

2011-06-21T11:12:00.003+08:00

what im talking about? URBANSCAPE of cause.

all my life i wont miss something so grand like this. ive been participating in them eve since they start in klpac and even before that. still remember the time i went to kl sentral open car park. that time around there was more hiphop on stage. like ttc, toophat, reshmonu and such. trust me, it has evolve. n thank god it on my bday weekend. sweet...!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBT7fGO46y8&hd=1&t=12s

the hit list...

2011-06-20T12:28:00.008+08:00

· ~~Barefoot running 5 fingers shoes~~ (apprently, some one either read my mind or read my blog. early.. hueee)

· Starwalker

· Box percussions

· GPS (something I need so I don’t get lost)

· Urbanscape tickets with my homies

· Holiday

· Gymboss (black)

· 2 New pair of Corduroy

ps: Y? something coming on july..... shhhhhhh....

Coming Home by Azmyl yunor

2011-06-18T08:40:00.002+08:00

mother i'm coming home to die
'cause everything i found out is a lie
there's no journey that's too far away
high time has come for me to drift away from this world

this city this town
this people that i love
this woman and child
father and son
roads that lead to none
i am leaving for good so long

mother i'm coming home to cry
'cause home is where i've never tried to live
i'm always drifting all about this world so blue
ain't no other colours i've known
ummm

this city this town
this people that i love
they have nothing to offer me
except their kindly hearts
i had nothing
no longing
no space in my heart
to love to care to even be aware

i'm ever gonna feel like i did when i was young
everything is in vain
even my love for this world

this city this town
these roads that lead uphills
the paths through the bushes that holds so much to fill
this dirt that glows
this heart that rolls
this longing never known
too long it's time to end it
there's not a world
if no one is always
seems too much to love to care
i'm leaving tomorrow if i can
mmm

mother i'm coming home
mother i'm coming home
father i'm coming home
father i'm coming home

Might of the Pen

2011-06-16T13:02:00.003+08:00

last nyte my mum was invited to an Award Dinner at 1 World Hotel. apparently she is invited for the Film Industry Appreciation Night 2011 (Samad Idris Throphy) . She as one of the pioneer of Film Appreciations and has gone along way. Finally its rewarded by one of the prestige award in its kind.

Ps: well done and so proud of you. i would like to apologies for not attending your award ceremony. No one be able to cover me last nyte as a MOD. keep up the good work as you always do. if theres no one else to beat at your craft, go beat yourself. as i know your a perfectionist. MUCH LOVE...

Article from Bernama:
The minister also said that he would consider amending Section 6 of the Finas Act in a bid to boost the industry, but refused to comment further.

Following are the winners of Samad Idris Trophy for the Media Category in conjunction with the Film Industry Appreciation Night 2011. The first prize winner received cash, with respective trophies and certificates.

Malay Category:
First Place: Ratnawati Rasidi from Berita Harian
Article: “Usah Hukum Filem, Drama Punca Gegala Sosial”

Second Place: Siti Ruqaiyah Hashim from Utusan Malaysia
Article: “Khazanah Bernama P.Ramlee"

Third Place: Ku Seman Ku Hussain from Utusan Malaysia
Article: “Filem Tidak Manfaatkan Sastera”

English Category:
First Place: Zainal Alam Kadir from The Malay Mail
Article: Ordinarily Extraordinary

Second Place: Faridul Anwar from The New Straits Times
Article: Not All Nostalgic Gems Get Second Run

Third Place: Chok Suat Ling from The New Straits Times
Article: New Censorship Snips Away The Fun Too

Media Organisations Category :
1. Malay: Berita Harian
2. English: The Malay Mail

http://mynewshub.my/2011/06/16/astro-must-get-mcmc-approval-before-increasing-price/

Permission by YUNA

2011-06-16T07:06:00.005+08:00

so what's the plan now?
are we or won't we?
so what's the deal now?
should we or shouldn't we?

you've taking over my head again,
i'm folding each memory in,
asking permission to keep it in your

empty,
when will you love again,
empty.. is what you are,
without the nice things you had before

so what was it to you
were we or weren't we?
did it come back for you?
now there you finally see

it's already been gone too long
i shoudn't have pick up the phone
i'm asking permission to pretend
that we've moved on

empty,
is what you'll find in here
empty..is you'll see,
a lot of things i've offered you

what am i to you?
was i or wasn't i?
so what you said was true,
did you or didn't you?

you've taking over my head again,
i'm folding each memory in,
asking permission to keep it in your hands

empty,
when will you love again,
empty.. is what you are,
without the nice things you had before

was it love to you?

ps: some of the best lyric by the talented YUNA.
dedicated to those Lampu Jalan and also Greek Goddess.
may you find peace in your quest. stay strong and healthy.
"I'm asking PERMISSION to use THESE STREET , AFTER MIDNIGHT...."

Break like the wind by Spinal Tap

2011-06-14T11:28:00.001+08:00

We are the children who grew too fast
We are the dust of a future past
We raise our voices in the night
Crying to heaven

And will our voices be heard
Or will they Break Like The Wind
We are the footprints across the sands
We are the thumb on a stranger's hand
We made a promise in the night
Swearing to heaven Is this a promise we keep
Or one we Break Like The Wind

Hey!
We are the guests who have stayed too long
We are the end of the endless song
We send our hearts into the night
Soaring to heaven
And will out hearts still beat on
Or will they Break Like The Wind
Ooh, Break Like The Wind.

ps: not a fan of the band. but the lyrics caught my attention...

Avoidance (Original Rhyme)

2011-06-13T16:11:00.004+08:00

Look here and there, through these sorrow eyes,
avoiding eye contact, as it won’t tell lies,
try to shadow it up, with those crooked smile,
keeping self busy, work load still a pile….

Drove all around, just to unwind,
Driving endlessly, unknown destination and blind,
if you would ask, they say they’re fine,
as its just a trick, to be playing in your mind

Soul searching among torn, need to be subtle slow,
looking for the light, that have not even glow,
wishing that time, will heal all the pain,
so hard to see, through this window so taint

the BITTER truth

2011-06-08T22:14:00.006+08:00

have you ever felt like theres so much you tried, but simply never good enough? you try to make it better, but ended up you simply made it worst. its like a never ending battle with life, that you keep on striving to make a better future. you neglect rest, leisure, material things and even time. just so the person that you love and care get the best out from it.

you neglect safety for their comfort, luxury for backup plans, just to know thats your the last and only hope. i will not stop, shall not stay grounded, nor should i backout. i rather fight and die on my own two feets rather then living on my knees....

SKM family day

2011-06-08T21:37:00.003+08:00

last Saturday, myself and some member of staff got the privilege to go to Kompleks Sukan Kampung Pandan. We were there to support SKM for their family day. there was around 150 people estimating arrived to the event. as the sun was burning, we march down there and did our best. I've got jalal to conduct a small warmup for them. it was a hit.

don't get me wrong, I've been there several time, but still not familiar to the place. theres ton of route to kg pandan but with me, always been a try an error style. been there when i was doing my study case dealing with the paralympic team. 2 days on thursday, i manage to go and check out the gym (rakyat). was a different environment but still packed.

there was tons of familiar faces and some new friendly ones too. glad to ave that experience. appriciate it alot..

Singer song writer edition

2011-05-31T13:13:00.003+08:00

Last week there was a singer song writer edition at the infamous KLPac. This time it was a 3 days stretch filled with 18 indie talents. We got the powerhouse like Azmyl Yunor, Min’z and Wani Ardy. Others would be like Ian Chow, Jasemaine Gan, Priscilia Xavier and many others. Those that really catch my attentions was Rashdan Harith, Tony Leo, and Devon Chew. Went alone for all three days, but my collogues from fitness first that has some flare in the indie scene came by. Never tot there’s any, but glad that they join me there.

It’s fun watching these indie scene as I feel comfort in their words. They write based on experience, play their own music, own gigs and get their ep done. Some succeed, some doesn’t, but that’s not their aim for. But just a figure of speech and speaking their mind out. Its nice to have fans and friends support, but self expression is good enough towards them. it’s not about money as some of them got a full time job. It’s about art.

min'z n me

Fail to realize that each one of them has their own unique style and things that they constantly write and sing about, some about relationship, some about suffering (my type), about life, and others just for laugh. Manage to get some autograph from my indie heroines and tons of ep and album. It s nice as they are real humble person. Kewl….. hope you the best and don’t go mainstream… it’ll ruins the art….

Artsy Me

2011-05-31T13:12:00.001+08:00

People been wondering where does my artsy flare came about. It’s a really funny story actually. Even I was surprised where the heck that it came from.

As during my childhood life, I was so into military. Had an ambition to become a solider those days. When I was in high school, I was in the army cadets. That’s where I got my discipline I suppose. During junior high, I was into accounts and numbers. Not much push there. But it was nice dealing with numbers and getting it all balanced up. Then later at varsity time I was into sports and also science… but that time around I’ve start being close with art. Start having a self expression and had my wall filled with graffiti.

Background wise, my mum is a writer. She wrote poetry, use to act in theater and have a taste in cinematography. She was a theater and drama graduate. My dad on the other hand was a painter. He draws with pencil and even paint sometimes. he has that much of patience in those details.

Regardless of my mom and dad background skills, none of them ever taught me about arts. They just encourage me to my likings. I suppose it’s just contagious. Where ever you are and the environment that you live in, makes you who mould you inside.

Aside from that, I got tons some friends and adk2 that got skills. Such as aina, the musically incline. And tyka the visual master in photography and also drawing, udin the pure blood rocker, i-sha the modern architect.. mannn, with all these talents, I suppose that’s where I evolve.

Might not be good or great. But at least a flare in arts indeed. I appreciate poetry, acoustic song, modern art painting, architecture performing arts and such. I suppose it’s because it’s a way of self expression that’s has depth and raw. To me theres three thing that I appreciate in life, brains/knowledge, skills/talent and finally, my attention.

Shadows (Original Rhyme)

2011-05-15T14:37:00.004+08:00

i hardly know you, but yet im sad,
all memory about you, has always been bad,
it breaks my heart, to see you lying flat,
hope you still remember me, you always be my dad...

i pray for your health, wishing you get better,
would like to see you smile, maybe sometime or later,
how much your family hates, to me it dosent matter,
please dont leave me, always been harsh weather...

as much as i miss her, you've all i got,
without you from a distant, for sure i'll rot,
no matter how much we quarrel, or how much we fought,
you forever be, in my mind and my thought.....

ps:
this one dedicated to my adk...
stay strong lil one.
you're never alone.....

Simply Is (Original Rhyme)

2011-05-14T10:13:00.003+08:00

after the dust is cleared, i hope you understand,

just want to hear your voice, as much as i can,

as some days are rough, unforgiving burning sands,

because i simply found comfort, whenever i touch your hand...

from month and years, that we been together,

through deep hot sun or stormy weather,

i would like to thank you for being my savior,

as i love you now and forever....

Triple Crown Queen

2011-05-14T09:48:00.004+08:00

recently it was mothers day, after plenty of years we manage to gather all 3 of us and treat mum on a mothers day dinner. thanks to big bro. its been awhile for us to celebrate this but at last we manage. kewl...joey wanna bring her to tony roma's at mid valley. that was his part.

from my side, all i get her was a super spring cleaning at home. dusting and rearranging stuff took me the whole of my off day. a super workout but worth it.

yesterday was her bday. to me, she forever be 45years young. bought her something from pyramid. hope you like it....!

coming up soon is going to be teachers day too. as you know she used to be teaching in penang and also melaka. mannnnn talking bout a triple crown queen. and she forever be a great teacher that tought me bout life and survival. ive couldnt ask for more and in deep gratitude towards her.

ps: .

mummy, no matter what has gone thru in our life we are still standing on our own two feet. thank you for your patients, your continual knowledge, your artsy flare in life and also strength. your the best mom that i ever know as i know you were brought up by the best grandmum ever too (al-fatihah). keep on fighting and stand for whats right. hugzzzz......

happy belated mothers day people.....

Missing Smile (Original Rhyme)

2011-05-14T09:42:00.003+08:00

why cant you be honest, instead of hiding it all,

you know how my heart is, just drop and fall,

the ups and the downs, like a rolling ball,

all i was waiting was a simple text or a call...

so i just kept on waiting, for your response,

feel agitated, from dust till dawn,

like an used blanket, worn out and torn,

felt left hanging, waiting to be gone...

trying to reach out, but nothing could describe,

is there any medications, that need to be perscribe?

to me it'll be your smile, i wish to subscribe,

clearing my mind, from all negative vibe....

Letters From The Sky by Civil Twilight

2011-05-14T09:38:00.002+08:00

One of these days the sky's gonna break and everything will escape and I'll know
One of these days the mountains are gonna fall into the sea and they'll know
That you and I were made for this
I was made to taste your kiss
We were made to never fall away
Never fall away

One of these days letters are gonna fall from the sky telling us all to go free
But until that day I'll find a way to let everybody know 'cause you're coming back, you're coming back for me
'Cause even though you left me here I have nothing left to fear
These are only walls that hold me here
Hold me here

One day soon I'll hold you like the sun holds the moon
And we will hear those planes overhead and we won't have to be scared

We won't have to be scared
We won't have to be scared
We won't have to be scared

You're coming back for me
You're coming back for me
You're coming back for me

Free Spirit (Original Rhyme)

2011-05-05T17:37:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being so sharp and crude

Not my intention to be so cold and rude,

Hoping my apologies will let your heart sooth

As I based on impulse, that’s how I move,

Always believe in my heart, as days gone by,

Something that I could rely on, it would never ever lie,

Though I tend to put, my expectations up high,

This free spirit within, will not learn to die…

It’ll be my best friend and my worst enemy,

As it make me calm, walking thru cemetery,

Much more rewarding, compare to just money,

Actually feels inspire, when ever its rainy

You could never constrain, what not meant to be,

Trapped in a cage, or tied down to a tree

What ever it is, simply let me be me,

To unleash my potential, and let me break free…

Hands all over - maroon5 in Malaysia

2011-05-01T15:43:00.005+08:00

last friday i happen to get 2 tickets for maroon 5 live in Malaysia. it was a prize for the hard work i suppose. was kinda reluctant to go actually. cuz could choose a member of staff. bummer. but ive took the most musically incline people to go with me. so its more of a reward for his good job.

theres not much people in this concert. as its only done in an indoor arena only. another member of staff came together with us. as she got tickets too n wann tag along. it'll b great. so here was the three of us. trying to crap into a picture. most of the picture was whacked. seriously.

the last concert i went was the paramore in Malaysia. there the sound was awsome but there was some technical problem as the mic went AWOL. hish...... not forgetting the opening acts too. lamemo...

this time i must admit the lighting was on time and fascinating, Adam's voice didn't even ran out of tune and it was non stop action. they literally cramp up all the songs to like almost 1hours and 15 or 30 min long. . didnt know the title of the songs so we just wait till the first verse came in. and sing along. especially zero carbo boi. his HAND WAS ALL OVER alright (all over his phone) hahahhahahaaa..............

it was a great expericence . but from my writeup here you know I'm not a really big fan. but then again it was nice and unforgettable. should keep this trend going right. bring on the next act coming malaysia. hueeeeeee......!

Ode of a Psychopath by Juliet the orange

2011-04-22T21:11:00.001+08:00

darker things, darker minds
a tint of blood drops
we shall all never find
the passion that throbs

method in all madness
order and plan
my madness reads like a book
which never can end

this is an ode from a psychopath
a tormented creature
this is an ode from a psychopath
the darkest of shadows
the drumming is how i heard in my temple
this is an ode from a psychopath
a spiritual ailment

chapter one contains the first
moment i saw
your shaded being against the light
there isn't a flaw

chapter two and chapter three
was when my heart cried
and i believe in my madness
that you must die

my sublime, my darkling faun
you should never know my desire
the poison of my soul is come
your pounding pulse in the fire

ode from a psychopath
the feeling is mutual..

Failure is not an option (Original Rhyme)

2011-04-03T10:21:00.006+08:00

The wind seems colder, this side of the world,

Endless task to complete, to get a glimpse of that pearl,

No matter if your sick, or how much you want to hurl,

Failure is not an option, so don’t cry like a little girl…

Reminisce the days, that has passed,

Really had fun, life was a blast,

Nostalgic all along, has blown away to dust,

Keeping myself sharp, before I start to rust

Stronger wind up here, try to tip me off,

I need to be stronger, no longer will be soft,

With these challenges, could only expect it to be rough,

Will try my best, as it’ll never be enough…

A Sucker for Tears

2011-04-02T20:56:00.004+08:00

I don’t know why but maybe that’s just me. I love to go for thing that’s is complicated and also misunderstood. That’s why me and indie get along so well. and also why my writings are in those sense.

Anime like the tombstone of the fireflies, indie movie like chlidren of heaven , music like sade, staind, or even numerous digital art from deviant art. I like them all.

Recently i manage to catch the movie sucker punch. Of cause the promo and also trailers is really packed with fighting actions and also hot girls (superstars) with skimpy clothes. But the story line was really unique and also intresting towards my eye. not because of the cast and the costume. but the twisted mind creating such story line. same creater as the Watchmen. a story bout a girl that took revenge towards her step dad for killing her lil sister after the mum pass away.

if you ask me, happy ending only works in fairy tale. not in real life.

SO DEAL WITH IT....!

or like me, enjoy the ride.....

Nuku Experience

2011-04-02T20:47:00.003+08:00

Team Kiara got the chance to train with dave recently. It feels so like the BLA edition. He was really informative, encouraging, details and also drove us to the floor when its application stuff. Never did get that much of workout in a day. But was really nice. Haven’t been working out that much with all the soft launch and leads dropping.

We had refresher of TRX and ViPR. Woaw, these two things are really hot in the market now days. People been talking and training with it quite often. The training really would help us for our fitness timetable and adding value in our training.

Then kettlebell and also Muay Thai coming up. manits gonna be awsome. flat out but still remains awsome. Thanks to dave for the experience and also the time and patients training us. Appreciate it very much

Grass on the other side

2011-04-02T20:40:00.003+08:00

Woaw… its so different this part of the town. Food are healthier, people are nicer and follows orders, equipment are new, just the weather remain hair wired. I suppose that damansara area for you, huh. But tons of new things need to settle down.

This new environment really change my working ethic as I don’t have rest at all. When working there, you don’t feel tired, or needing to eat also. Though the temperature is cold like Antarctica at one time.

So many faces that I got to meet these couple of days. And it’s a good change. Do miss my old place. They the whole group came by and pay a visit to me recently. Sorry for not able to spent much time to tour you guys there. But glad that you came by.

tons of things need to be done until time runs out. till then

Shelter by The XX

2011-03-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

I find shelter, in this way
Under cover, hide away

Can you hear, when I say?
I have never felt this way

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

Could I be, was I there?
It felt so crystal in the air
I still want to drown, whenever you leave
Please teach me gently, how to breathe

And I'll cross oceans, like never before
So you can feel the way I feel it too
And I'll mirror images back at you
So you can see the way I feel it too

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on
Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

Maybe I had said, something that was wrong
Can I make it better, with the lights turned on

ps: such beautiful wording. cant bealive that i could relate to it sometime.

funfair @ kiara

2011-03-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

mann it was super awsome and privileged to get a chance to visit an international school here. never been to one, so kinda jakun skit larr. but still, they had a funfair over there. wish my school had something like that. they had a full carnival going on. with hammer strike game, sumo suit challenge, a lil Glee action, stalls and food. they are crazy.

funny tho, as its a fun fair. then we see this lil girl start singing hurt by xtina aguliera. kinda dpressing song for a FUNfair. i dont know, thats what i tot. then they had their only beiber on stage. got the words and courage, but not the charisma yet. he is just 10.

some pretty awsome stuff. they had rockclimbing activities too. woaw......hope come come by again

my last day

2011-03-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

woaw... its been awhile i was at DU. the ups and the downs.... the friends and those weirdos tooo not to be forgotten. hahhaaaa....but never the less this place feels like home. i suppose its time for me to move on. wasn't my choices totally...kinda worried too. but its been awarded to me. was worried really bad of what the future holds for me. as theres no area for failure

but coming from DU, i felt blessed. as the staff are nice and happening. the leaders are helpful. love was found ;) . the weather is mess up. the club is cozy. outdoor activities are plan involving everyone who cares. the people are very nice, those who went away earlier were be remembered while the ones that left behind will be keeping in touch. tons of stuff learnt here in DU that ill bring over there. but for sure, memories will not be forgotten. mish DU already, hope to see you people some day.... take care and good luck....!

To See you Go by Min'z

2011-02-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

Holding on

Trying not to cry again
Trying to be strong
Trying to think of a different plan
I need some time
u need some time alone

i wanna try

you wanna try someone else i know

its slow sorrow
to see you go (2x)

starting from where we begun again
tell me if im wrong
tell me if i stand a chance
i will comply believe ur lies alone
i wont deny ill take ur highs and lows u know
you go you go i'll be here flawed

Keepers of the GATE

2011-02-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

as you should know, i travel a distant from where i live. to work, to hang out, to town. so wether i like it or not, i have to face tolls. it cause me a bunden but thats how i choose to live. any way people always ask me, y not u take touch and go or smart tag and such. ill simply say, cuz its a long way home. i need some interaction. even if it was with the tol gate team. they are still human. so why should i discriminate them. they are doing a good job anyway.

its funny some time when you meet some people often, you gather small2 info bout them. especially those kewl bros that love to strike a conversation tho theres a lot of ppl behind me, or to the girls that shocked and give creepy remarks like, 'balik sorang jer hari nieh?' (since when i go back with another person? crapp)... well anyway they are not badd people at all if you got to now them. especially when you go back late...

Steak your heart out....!

2011-02-20T21:11:00.010+08:00

just came back from my new 'hood'. just to find that they were having the great steak challenge. every each one of the contestant have to chow down as many steak in a certain amount of time. if not mistaken its 45 min. our home boy Ernie (a body builder that trains at FFDU) was one of the contestant. man, them boys really can eat. imagine on the half way mark, ernie manage to eat at least 7 full size steak. that time around he was trying to catch up with the leader (8piece) . if you put me in, i think i could finish 5 at least. but was kinda late to register. hahhahahaaa...... was fun tho, all shape and sizes that came along to feast the meat. then the rain pours. then everyone scramble. thank god it was just for awhile.

Speed Bump

2011-02-15T20:53:00.004+08:00

had a discussion with one of my friends recently. its funny when people look up to you for advice and as the 'go to person' all these while. but when ur in trouble or had a speed bump, they never really bother. tho u mention to them. they treat you like ur will always be strong as the words and support that you gave to them. *sigh... well, i'm still human too and i do have my off days.

arggh, owh well. life still goes on.... regardless you been notice or not. just have to celebrate your win while it last, and better your weaknesses. sooner or later ill get over it.... i hope...

I got to move by Calvin Richardson

2011-02-15T20:43:00.002+08:00

Baby Baby

Ohhh

[CHORUS]
I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

Listen

I remember the first time
I laid eyes on you girl
I had no idea you could become so important in my world
Like water to a sweet red rose
You were my number one girl you know
Been flowing with you like a summer breeze
Now I wanna be free

[BRIDGE]
(You found your way in my heart)
Say you found your way in my heart
(I thought we'd never part)
Thought we'd never part
(I've had enough of this)
Girl I've had enough of this
Girl you're blowing my mind
I'm about to split
Yeah Yeah

[CHORUS x2]
I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

Everyday I go to work
(Same old routine)
All you do is lay around
(Keep on stressing me)
Saying things
Playing insensitive to how I feel
Girl lets be truthful
And keep it real

[BRIDGE]
(You found your way in my heart)
Say you found your way in my heart
(I thought we'd never part)
Thought we'd never part
(I've had enough of this)
Girl I've had enough of this
Girl you're blowing my mind
I'm about to split
Yeah Yeah

[CHORUS x2]
I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

You are
(You, you are mine)
Mine, my life baby
And I couldn't see
There ain't no need
(For you and me)
For.......
I wanna, I wanna be free
Yeah
Baby
Ohh ohhh
Said I love you, but I gotta go

[CHORUS x4]
I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
But I want to stay
Got to find me somebody
Who won't give me love
And then take it away

I've got to move
Baby I don't wanna leave you
But I gotta go
Gotta go
I don't wanna leave you
No no no no no no no no no no no no

ps:

this is actually my ringtone up to now.

always love this songs for a long time.

might not be as what it is said in the lyric, but with my current situation

I GOT TO MOVE..... !

where? would i be happy there? who knows.....

updates....

2011-02-05T19:39:00.002+08:00

mannn its been awhile since the last time i blog...

so heres an updates of what i have in stores:

my long awaited kick just arrived. and feels like walking on air... loving my under Armour
new phone finally. sorry for the delay and all the problems with my old phone.
farewell party for sunny was fun, got to cook camp dishes.
team crossfit maniac is at large. seriously its been picking up some speed...
new set of FI are different.
hang out with the crew occasionally. the exteded team member like emi, aina, dina, esha...... really miss them alot actually..
had supper at tepian bangi. they had Kit Search perform there like every night. (old english rock song) apprently it his shop of kopitiam. kinda nice and awsome....

well thats bout it. will promise to write a bit more frequent. till next time

Dry tears on my cheek (Original Rhyme)

2011-01-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

when will it end, this stupid blame game?

the level keep on stagnant, always been the same,

don't want to step down, scared of losing fame,

bloodlust all inside, never ever would be tame...

dry tears on my cheek, drop down to my scar,

no matter what they do, they never get far,

thirst of their greed, will never be fulfilled,

suffer sleepless night, awaken by the guilt...

hoping that 1day, it all would change,

see people eye to eye, in all different range,

that is just a dream, as we never be the same,

as the current situation,will always be insane....

ring some bells

2011-01-23T19:34:00.003+08:00

just got from kettle bell training today. man it was wicked....

literally. just 4 min with a certain weight could kill you off. after that preframe, i cant Even feel my legs. argghhh...... LETS DO IT AGAIN ....! YEAH it so good you be ask for more. thats also the only time i could use heavier loads and also 2 kettle together. can i get a set for my next bdayy... please....!

Another Waterworks Production

2011-01-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

I’m sure it’s a coincidence. As every year AJL (anugerah juara lagu) is on, we also be having a club launch outdoor nearby waterfall and such. This year seems to be the same thing happen. Enough bout that. Let me tell what happen this year around…

This year I’ve delegate tons off stuff to all the team member. So they felt that they own it. Congrats to the whole team that made it happen. Leading the way is Sarul as captain of the team. So this time around we know that he wont able to bail out as everyone is counting on his program.

Waited at mc d form 8am but Malaysia nyer janji sure lambat nyer. We left around 9.24am. Hoping that we got the place there fast as its first come first serve basis.. as we touch down came base 2 in Ulu Langat, we immediately unpacked and got ready to star up the base camp.

team hiburan brought a guitar to get get in the mood of santai and chill out. they can play the tunes but none of them know the lyrics to the full songs. lawak gak. then they got angry cuz they requested song but othersongs that is being played. edgar mention someting funny but tru. as he aid ' maner ader artist mintak audience request lagu aper. they wont be themself.

Team air was really2 so much effort being put. As I saw the new kid rizmal was stirring tea and milk by shaking the big 10 liter flask in a circular motion. Giler kener buli….

Ajk bakar was lead by sarul, awien and fahmy. The fire was bit slow this time around. As they didn’t get the head start. But every thing went well. We didn’t concentrate on the bbq like we alwys do, but instead more on the pot luck as everyone have a sense of responsibility.

team potong-potong was an impromt team put together by the guest that we didnt expect that much. but non the less they help

Some of us was having so much fun that someone took a leak at the nearest tree. Ouch, that was way gross. Saper larr tuh.. ish ish ishhh….

The games by ajk kelam-kabut (azim, edgar and amm) was really something. The score given was in millions each right answer to their question. The penalty for wrong answer were awarded a to the team. Team ehhem ehhem was the first to be tortured. They have to do the poco2 dance. ‘Team Jambu’ (my team) was the second as we had to hug a tree and kiss it for 15 second. Hahahh hope they don’t upload that one. FF question and also they got walking impersonation. That was fun and funny. But the team which stole the show was ‘team tak tahu’. All the sudden the last question was 13milion points. Macam kire duit rupiah lak ber juta-juta.

Ajk kedatangan (zana) manage to record down the attendance after all some of them left. Siap kene sing lagi tuh. Hahahhaha….. that was a laugh.

In between the bbq, launch and games, most of the team went for a dip in the river. Some even don’t want to go back home. Hanyut dibawa arus. Hahahaha….

Loving this club and the people around…
Thanks for your contributions, till next outing. Next juara lagu I suppose. Hahahhah….

All is well as DU is Sweet…

Dear Self Centered (Original Rhymes)

2011-01-09T18:28:00.002+08:00

from time to time, the tick of the clock,
spinning round and round, created a torque
which sucked me in, and hit my head on a rock,
got me all dizzy up, as if my mind was blocked,

yet I still be patients, waiting up there
blinded by the light, staring at the glare,
calm down a little, pull out that chair,
get your head straight, that's all I care...

stop blaming others, for what you created,
you carry your own baggage, that could not be deleted
no matter how much , your life is decorated,
until you come clean, then all will be faded