Merdeka Raya...!

reminisce the warrior, that gave up their lives,
for a better today, so no more threat with a knives,
but we seems to forget, its a never ending war,
rise up fight back, keep on moving forth,
54 years of independent, dont let it slip,
keep on working hard, & stride a bigger leap

happy independent day Malaysia

Written In the Stars by Tinie Tempah

oh written in the stars
a million miles away
a message to the main
ooooh
seasons come and go
but I will never change
and I’m on my way

Lets go…
yeah
you’re listening now
they say they aint heard nothing like this in a while
thats why they play my song on so many different dials
cause i got more hits than a disciplined child
when they see me everybody brrrrrap’s, brrrrrraps
man I’m like a young gun fully black Barrack
I cried tear drops over the massive attack
I only make hits like I work with a racket and bat
look at my jacket and hat
so damn berserk
so down to earth
I’m bringing gravity back
adopted by the major I want my family back
people work hard just to get all their salary taxed
look Im just a writer from the ghetto like Malory blackman
where the hells all the sanity at, damn
I used to be the kid that no one cared about
thats why you have to keep screaming til they hear you out

[Chorus]

Yeah, I needed a change
when we ate we never took because we needed a change
I needed a break
for a sec I even gave up believing and praying
I even done the legal stuff and was leaded astray
now money is the root to the evilist ways
but have you ever been so hungry that it keeps you awake
mate, now my hunger would leave them amazed
great, it feels like a long time coming, fam
since the day I thought of that cunning plan
one day I had a dream I tried to chase it
but I wasn’t going nowhere, running man!
I knew that maybe someday I would understand
trying to turn a tenner to a hundred grand
everyones a kid that no-one cares about
you just have to keep screaming until they hear you out

[Chorus repeated]

[Outro]

ps: seldomly refer to a hiphop song, but im simply a fan of lyric.
plus this is so me

Torn Up (Original Rhyme)

even if im there, my heart is torn,
felt something missing, whenever your gone,
just like hatch born turtle, totally lost when they're born,
dash to the sea, or to death they'll be torn..

what wrong have ive done, to be feeling like this,
cant we swallow our pride, im begging you please,
just only for now, you could continue your list,
fight another day, towards thing that you're pissed..

whats the point, of me being around,
if it only kept me up & drag me down,
as i in search, of the peace that couldn't be found,
regardless how many years, ive even lost count...

Slmt hari 'crossfire' raya

Shimmer by Fuel

She calls me from the cold
Just when I was low, feeling short of stable
And all that she intends
And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label

She says she's ashamed
And can she take me for awhile
And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past
But maybe I'm not able
And I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

She dreams a champagne dream
Strawberry surprise, pink linen on white paper
Lavender and cream
Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her

She says that love is for fools who fall behind
And I'm somewhere in between
I never really know
A killer from a savior
'Til I break at the bend

We're here and now, but will we ever be again
'Cause I have found
All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade
Away again

It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...

Yea...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
It's too far away for me to hold
It's too far away...
Guess I'll let it go

ps: hits the spot.

My own ME

someone told me: in life, theres so much people that we encounter that we need to be careful and cautious. Its either friends, family, co worker, passerby, love ones. Well basically anyone.

sometimes they think, the're doing u a favour, but instead they just make it worst. as that issnt your plan in the bigger picture. most of us have their own set of mind, and its almost impossible to change that. habits dies hard...

but yet some are still persistence in trying to change your mind. they'll would do Evey single thing just so that u abide to their demands. but then again till what extend? just because it favours you and your life, doesn't mean ill do it right? plus what is it in for me?

not trying to be sounding self centred like some people i know, but then again im fighting for individuality and also characteristic. you are not just a NUMBER. so let it be if anyone want to seclude you or to not letting you to be involve. you'll survive. i know i did. and so would you..

What you really want?

· A place that feels like home.

· Friends to share stories, trustworthy and wont judge you.

· People that care about your existence.

· Appreciation and cared by gesture.

· Peace among rivals and family.

· Time to do arts and craft.

· Honesty and sincerity.

· Sense of belongingness.

· A break from routine.

· The answer…

you only get what you give. Hope that’s right.

As what we want is not necessary what you need

Here comes the bride.......

Woke up to the loud sound of Paramore on my handphone alarm clock yesterday. Was thinking, why the heck I did that. Was on my off day, but then I’ve realized that need to go for this special event. It’s Lydia’s big wedding day. Drove down and wait for Kelvin and Ian at Leisure Mall. As Ian was the only one that knows the place. This will be considered my first time attending a church wedding. A whole new experience to me. Been to so many wedding but ill trying to see a different point of view.

It took us 30 min to go there, and 15 to find parking. Hish…. I was just going round and round and round….. Wes and Sue was suppose to be there, but technically they can’t find the place. Pass it to Ian to give direction, then we found out he was using GPS all the while. Ishhh……. So ended up they just left after 55min of going around the block. Trust me, it’s so confusing to get there.

After scribbling some words on the registration and such, we came in and sat down by the side of the mid section. It’s a gospel type of church. So there’s piano, drum set and etc. after a few min, the bride walks in.

here comes the bride,
all dress in white,
Here she comes on down the aisle
Behind her veil she wears a smile
In her hands the bright bouquet
Daddy's here to give the bride away
Best man fumbles for the band
Groom puts it on her trembling hand
Almost before the vows are through
In her calmest voice she says, "I do."

They sing all those song in the broachers. But I didn’t. You understand why. It was a simple wedding. I say this as I compare to the normal Malay Traditional wedding. as they exchange vows and rings, the sign on the dotted line and its official. Lydia is Desmond property. congrats.

Was invited to the lunch, but fasting larr.. congrats to the bride and groom and thank them for the invite. Abit lost on the way back. But worth it. Great experience. Wish you were there

Dear God,

Please make me a better person. In a way that if I got angry or disappointed at somebody, that I wouldn’t let it go towards a third party or even beat myself up. Please remind me that having what I have right now is far more important and that I should be thankful with every breath I take, and the better health that I acquire….

That, this is adequate for me to carry on. And please remind me that all this is just temporary. All the beauty, power, wealth, strength and etc. That one day when it’s all gone, that I will come back to you.

Artsy addict...

As I was delivering some food last nyte, I manage to get a glimpse of some indie landmark around klang valley. First off, I went to Gravy Baby.

This place was setup and owned by Wani Ardy. An indie artist Café bistro in Shah Alam. This is actually after they relocate it from Sri Kembangan. Try to search for the first one, but got lost. This time, direction was much better and easier to find.

Food was nice and simple. Environment was inspiring and parking was easy.

Later after that I went around Subang Jaya area. Was just cruising around found out Jet Fule was still open. I was like, why not drop by. I try make effort when ever I got the time. Even if it was 11 at nyte. As you would know, I Am Jet Fuel is a boutique for female attire and such right, but there I bought 4 new cd’s (Komplot, OCK, Metamatik and another indie artist).

Happen to know alis be performing next month 19^th Sept or something @ the Philharmonic Petronas. Finally she there among the big names at a world stage. She been doing well and traveling recording new song I suppose.

Congrats to our very own home grown artist. Been supporting you people ever since. Keep on rawking…!

Need by Reza Salleh

And I feel a little tired
Would you please be a little quiet
Would you love me a little bit more
This heart is a little sore

All I need is all of that before
Just like desire free, can’t I have all I adore

Mind at peace, days of ease, won’t you follow
Free of all, care for none
All I need is all of that before
Just like desire free, can’t I have all I adore

Residence, song-a-twelve, won’t you please me
A million words, all I’ve heard
Mind at peace, days of ease, won’t you follow
Free of all, care for none

And won’t you give all of, all of these things
What about what I want, what will you bring

Won’t you give all of, all of these things
What about what I want, what will you bring

What will you bring x3

Torn....
wonder why...

Name by The Goo Goo Dolls

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

You think you know me?

People knew the things that I’ve gone thru, but yet no one really ever cares. Why, because they know you gonna bounce back eventually. But less that they knew, how I’ve manage to recover. The fact is, it’s all bout working hard day in and day out. As to me, failure is never an option. With God’s will, I’ll just do my best. Hoping and praying for the best for me here and after.

Some might even say, just be grateful with what you have. Yes that’s true, but at least I’m trying something to make it better. I wont just admit defeat in things that’s mediocre. Wasn’t raise up to be a coward. I strive for excellent in everything that I do. I won’t just complain this and that. It’s a big push to strive harder. From there, all hell break loose and you just better watch out.

Usually I don’t have that much support group that I could bank on. Except for some family and a couple of friends. Thanks to the handful of them. Couldnt do this without your spirits…