Acquainted with the night by Robert Frost

I have been one acquainted with the night.

I have walked out in rain -- and back in rain.

I have outwalked the furthest city light.

I have looked down the saddest city lane.

I have passed by the watchman on his beat

And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.

I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet

When far away an interrupted cry

Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say good-bye;

And further still at an unearthly height,

O luminary clock against the sky

Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.

Forsaken Hope (Original Rhyme)

Don’t know what went wrong, somewhere out there,
Though the verdict is out, yet this isn’t fair,
With that sad face and backcomb hair,
Tears accumulated, making his eyes so glare,
Things had happen, now he could only bare,
Even if he is innocent, they won’t really care…

Consider a long shot, but worth fighting for,
No matter how long, this never ending war,
We gather our might, and start to roar,
Regardless how much, our heartfelt sore,
Got nothing to lose, not any more,
You’ve broken us down, no more tears to pour…

We might lose this battle, but @ least we try,
Got sick and tired, to listening to this lie,
Towards all the crap, we refuse to buy,
Won’t kept my silent, won’t let him die,
Though we’re not that close, but don’t ask me why,
Still a blood relative, that’s how our bond id tie….

ps:
to be acquainted with the 'incident' and reported on the papers..
thats tragic, but still we're trying our very best.
hold on....

Hopelessly Grounded (Original Rhyme)

There are tons of things I wish to do,
So many skies out there, I wish to gaze,
Keep asking me when, as I don’t have a clue,
Yet all the time, I feel amaze

I’m hopelessly grounded, within this place,
Neither here nor there, whatever the case,
Yet I search for peace, where ever I’m at,
You get what you give, sometimes not always that.

As we hope for betterdays, while doing our best,
Trying not to choke, as people counting on us,
No matter how clean, or how much it’s a mess,
I still be standing, even if im last.

King of Sorrow by Sade

I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war
I died the night before
And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do

I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone
Can say to take this away
It's just another day and nothing's any good

I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow

ps:
with all the thing happens around,
its still amazed me when people ask me why....
then ill just turn around to them and smile :)

Here is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls

You and I got something
But it's all then it's nothing to me
yah
I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions to me
yah
And we wake up in the breakdown
In the things we never thought we could be
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To this sound of dispollution in me
yah
And I was not the answer so forget you if ever thought it was me
yah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need a fall out
Of all the past that's here between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
I can fear you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone

Dearly Departed (Original Rhyme)

as i reminisce, the time that was,

been taken away, and suddenly pause,

regardless how many time, I've been toss,

the problem that occur, ill bare the cost,

but never be greater, towards you that I've lost....

your depart was immediate, no chance for good bye,

hoping to move on, with all my cry,

i wont be the same, this i cant lie,

no matter how many item that ill buy,

couldn't compare to this, even if i try....

for you ill keep on fighting, to the very end,

to do my best, in this forsaken land,

no matter how i stumble, through dust and sand,

deep in my heart, you're there to give a hand,

as we bind by blood, not a mere rubberband...

hope you are calm, where ever you at,

as you made me proud, and my heart feels glad,

always the strong one, the one i'll always bet,

keeping me from harm, as you wont let,

me to fall down, you're just like that...

i'll keep you close, to my heart and veins,

memories of you, will reduce the pain,

no matter sunshine, or even rain,

my future here, will never be taint,

hope to catch you around, till we meet again..

ps:

stay strong ice....

'best' day wish

happy birthday! happy birthday!

you are twenty ______ now!

you have accomplished so much from three years that i know you ,

and those accomplishments are worth celebrating.

i'm so proud of you that you've made a very comfortable life for yourself and that you've stayed true to what you like and love,

and that you do what you want to feed your soul.

And for that, you've made you as a person, happy.

and that makes me happy.

i love you abang!










a text by my dearest lil sister Aina.

just got to share this with you readers.

though she is wayyyyyyyy younger than i am, but then again her words was simply hits the heart.

never imagine theres someone out there with such words.

that took real understanding and patience listening to my ish....

for that i thank you adek...!

your the best...!

Moment of Silence (Original Rhyme)

Dusty light surrounds me, as I enter the hall,
It felt so empty like trap between a wall,
As my entrance was silent, my presence left untold,
With very little movement, ill caught up in the cold.

Hearing their hearts, accompany with strumming strings,
Raw words and thought, sadly when they sing,
Reaching out to the world, with their own special way,
To relate with my life, every single day

This is my passion, without missing a beat,
Words gave me hope, try to keep my face lit,
To know I’m not alone, there’s others out there,
Hoping you understand, to those who care…



ps:
idea came from the recent songer songwriter edition @ klpac.
thanks for enriching my with views and values...

Message to your kingdom.

Dear ‘Ice’ princess of Antarctica,

I’m sorry to hear about the lost of your brother the prince. Was truly a shocker as none of us see that coming at all. Hope you doing well coping with the situation. But as you know, he is at a better place among the angels and away from this wicked world. Both of you gone thru thick and thin together as he was your brother, next to kin in peninsular area, your savior, your friend, your go to person and also drinking buddy.

Tho our friendship went apart while I was in my quest towards the land of the voultari but still at time I do feel like I’m missing something. Like the chat we usually everytime during training for a better you.

You always see the worst thing in life and question when will things better for you. Let me tell you something that I’ve been there n I know it only brings you down even more. Hope you could appreciate all the small thing that you have. Chance to breathe, to walk, to think, to appreciate life, a friend and such. I know global warming is worsen where you at, but then if you don’t stay strong and be truth to your self your kingdom will fall. You have all the traits to rule and make people envy. Use it shut all the rest that say otherwise.

last but certainly not least ill be there to support you if you ever needed help. take care and best of luck.

Till we meet again.

-Soul-

in memory of Dennis Chua

may you rest in peace.

(i suppose this artwork is at you back. its beautiful and toughtful of you. )

Advice 'The One'

In my life, I usually have a mentor/s. They come in all different type of form and background. Most are older while some are younger. But their company never be forgotten. Their friendship are lifted up high and cherished.

Theres a girl name dayang/nicky I would consider one of my best big sistaz I ever had. She was my good friend that I had during collage time in UM. One of her best advice for me was as followed before she quit the same company to built a family:

“Jaa, in search of the ONE in life u need to have a list of expectation. Let say 10 qualities. Out of that 10, try and search those that have 5 and above in the person you encounter. After that you see her downfall, and if you think you could accept that just proceed. They might not be perfect, but they might just be perfect for you. So go find your SHC or non smiling n etc2. good luck”

I followed her advice and created a list back then. But when I reflect to that small advice from nicky that I hate so much, I’ve realized that I’m very cautious in falling in love. Back then I might like someone very much. But I simply can’t love them as there’s no connection. Either I’ts one sided, too good to be true which reflect to trauma, self centred, social butterfly and others.

I’ll admit I don’t have much relationship in my life, but at least I TRY. Not like some people who just simply waiting for good things to come without trying to make effort. I’ve took my risk and fight for what’s right. A few bad decision might occur but ill bounce back and try again. If I ever got the chance to do it all over again, ill wouldn’t change abit. As I’m comfortable with what I have and loving the people that I’m around with.

Tribute to nicky. Sis¸ thanks for you wisdom but I still hate you… you psycho girl you.. hahahhaaa… you know what I mean. J

Emo Moonchild

Last Thursday was my birthday. To tell you the truth I always keep it a low profile when it comes to my birthday. As most of the time I was numerously disappointed. So not putting much hope and less time to celebrate it too. I’m a chronic workaholic and a side of vanilla addict too (the original vanilla addict).

Ever heard of moonchild? It is actually another name for people who were born in the zodiac of cancer / cancerian. As cancer is considered a negative quotation to some people, moonchild is consider a substitute. So there you go.

I would like to thank all those numerous birthday wishes, present and also any other gesture knowingly or smiles. Appreciate it a lot.

Surround Sound (Original Rhyme)

You are, who you are,
Don’t ever change as you wouldn’t get far,
Understanding your strength & accepting your flaw,
Unleashed those talents, that you kept so raw.

As you grew up, with values of your family,
Peer pressure all around, leads you to insanity,
Experience built character, after all those tears,
Tend to be more cautious, learning from those fears.

Became more receptive, to the sound all around,
Not how bad you fall, but how fast you bounce from the ground,
As you pick up speed, to run from your life,
Unresolved issue remains, you could only take 5…..

The Lovesong by Adele

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away I will always love you
However long I stay I will always love you
Whatever words I say I will always love you
I will always love you

take time to 'Realize'

It was my brother b’day on the last Monday. But it was also ‘his’ very own show at DFP. And I happen to get two tickets for it towards the last min. first didn’t know that’s there was a gig at all. But then again it was a great pre b’day present from mummy. Thanks mum.

It’s Reza Salleh everyone. One of the most seasoned indie artist in Malaysian. He stayed indie and work himself all the way up. Aside from his EP Smoke City, he has moonshine under his belt which is an event that exposes new young talent to the world. Places like No Black Tie, The Apartment and others be their venue. A multi talented artist with great views. Voice wise, simply spellbinding. Who would ever think that voice like that comes from such an individual. Much respect for this man.

Great job on the concert at the Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra. With this new album ‘Realize’ he is on track in making local music history. As one of its kind, truly brilliant.